posted on May, 18 2009 @ 10:36 AM
reply to post by symmetricAvenger
Its all a beautiful dance to me man and not really hard to understand per say but the simplicity of it escapes me when it comes to application. No
doubt it's because I don't understand. Its like when I write these threads... I get the chakras open and explain myself easily but when I don't
write its like I have a hard time putting the pieces together. Someone will ask me to explain conspiracies or philosophies and I just can't piece
it together. I feel its the same in my every day life where I forget the steps leading to the understand and doubt comes in. All I have to do is
meditate and everything becomes so simple again.
You know what I mean? This world is scattering, distracting and cofusing, but the real problem is our innability to let it not affect us as such. I
think if everyone really REALLY understood this and they say, consider themself master of their reality, then they could apply this understanding with
a demonstration. I go to manifest something and I am faced with doubt, you know? Even after the fact of the realization.. but I know it to be
true, because I have done such things to a lesser amount, but the sheer "weight" of the "object" matters not to me, its acknowledging that I did
indeed affect it.. so why does doubt remain? Why am I confused and seemingly unable to move a larger object? Why should I be limited be the energy
/ speed of this density?
And I can't help but think its because I don't actually have anywhere close to a full understand of the nature of consciousness etc.
You know what I'm saying? Sure duality is simple for me to understand.. but to what degree? The ego wants to assume it understands but if
understanding is indeed linked to observation like everyone here seems to agree... then to understand more it seems "logical" to escape the confines
of my perception and to look at things from an "expanded" view point.. Actually, sratch that.. because it seems to be that the truth shall be easy
to accept because the size or complexity etc. of the universe doesn't matter, as it can be observed from any angle. .. Lost my energy wave.. but
what I was trying to say is.. if truth is beyond perception and it just IS.. then the realization should be much simpler then our ego complicates it
to be.. you know?
I guess what i'm trying to say with this post is that things can seem so clear.. an understanding that you already have.. and then when it comes to
application it escapes you... or just..later on... when goin through every day life. We get so swept up in the confusion.
Alright I gtg for the day.
Yes rob.. i was sort of joking about the solar plexus thing.. i mean hell.. maybe I was abducted? lol... the burn looking mark began to fade by the
end of the day but what I found even more interesting is I had this wildest, strangest solar plexus sensations for about an hour.. I kept rolling my
stomach muscles, subconsciously thinking it would unscramble it. I felt like throwing fireballs, but at the same time.. when I was lying down trying
to read a book, I found I had like no energy, and found it difficult just to get up... the sensations happened after that about 20 minutes later, i
was just sitting.. wierd..
Sounds like things are getting crazy in your life. An opportunity for growth.