I cant apologize enough I didnt see this coming

This is either another hoax, or it might be a call for help, or it might just be a completely disastrous attempt for attention to see how many of us will get up in arms over a string of illogical consciousness spilled onto the board. No matter what, It really is not the place to play games. He's a new member with limited posting so its hard to judge what the motives are.!

Zindo

Me and formlessness might be responsible for the "matrix" thing , I thought he was heckling me. I tried telling people I wasnt a columbiner in 2005 and no one got back to me, I tried to tell them to stop if it was real. I might have been fried because of drug use and all my neighbors being loud and mysterious. Conspiracies for 11 and 7 years escalating though sort of screwed up head. The world that is pulled beneath your eyes to blind you from the truth. Their Skynet through tv with subliminals has been operational for awhile. The "one" is subjectable and if you see metaphors and read too much into everything after repeatedly using too much hallucinagins who is the one who is not the one what is the one what is not the one why one why not one when would the one show up , I can see pictures when i shut my eyes like cgi!!!!!

Man they are really playing you P>O>W>, I had to post this from last year, things are not getting better for you, the drugs will surely destroy you, that's their plan, if you hear voices and you are on drugs they can manipulate you to do everything they want. Sad, they want you to take the rap for their agenda...


All these people telling you to get help have no idea of the incompetence that reigns...




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I am sorry I am at the library computer, I know no one wanted to know this I didnt know what was going on some things might made a little sense here and there tried after over 2 years with the courts to get it done with there. Then just lived my life neighbors tricks snuck up on me (I think Mabus & Formlessness1999) on both sides , I didnt know why I had to do this or why trying to talk to my powers with someone would be a good idea , couldnt talk to psychiatrist, not even mentally ill because of politics thought I heard something in background. And you know its great why I have to do this?? watching TV or reading magazines now, 6 people on coc aine tried to kill me 2, watched attacked by 4, 3 I knew Tupac style the night he died tape thrown into train scars on body going into shock and passing out, Mona Lisa ?? 3 strokes brain damage paralyzed, The meaning of life monty python maybe 15 years why me no one ever tells.

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May I ask how old you are POW?

and When were you attacked?

I read all peoples replies I thought no one would at library, very short time both times. I thought I was considered cancerous or persecution problem with society or people . I know I was careless writing sometime thought had complete freedom of speech however messed up it might sound spent a lot of life alone and recently didnt talk or write fluently or appropriate. Both posts were quick improve so I dont know if I got my point across or wrote my english so well. I know people with real mental problems but mine are wound up in psych ward cause cops picked me up on drugs then therapists doctors and cops want to say I might have different brain illnesses that are vague and what I said years ago qualifies for one of them. I dont carry weapons I carry things that I could use as a weapon if I got in trouble that are perfectly legit to carry. Sanity is a great thing and when the tinyiest little tick any direction my neighbors playing 21st century covert games with radar gun walkie talkies or answering machines or just really questioning what is real and how can this be possible. I just felt guilty or anxiety or strung out or mispreconceptions about the outside world maybe adding to many things up or wrong on the way. Thank you all for giving me the time of day except maybe the one that got pulled and I will try the recommended reading I was on a pysch floor and this kid showed me "Behold a Pale Horse" written in 1991 about gov. secrets and I am trying to track that down. I was attacked in 97 and I am mid twenties now I dont know called myself prisoner of war cause 1/4 of life after freaking out of some mistake that might have happened then read too much into art and maybe thought they made me meglomaniacal or something never had license thrown out of college and didnt think anyone would want to hire me really havent been able to get back to normalcy in every day life. I know where I go from here, sorry if I sounded like the Waco kid or something. I was saying something about watching that movie with my dad last week we bothed watched Analyze That (from 2002) and beautiful just beautiful I forgot what point I was making or why I thought of that might look like tombstone on cover part under water or 2 arcs at top or if it was being insribed by lightning I dont know I forget a lot I am sorry.

Seriously people I was a kid in high school had a near death experience then I had to jack A around with authority. I thought I was this figurehead or something I dont know I couldnt make sense of it. I am sorry for the problem skynet causes and for bringing me along for the ride can we not maybe have problems in future, 2 people joked around about trying giving me AIDS in hospital and lots of mixed reaction after went online.

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Can you tell me what happened in you near death experience? I have read some interesting threads regarding this....did you see light by any chance?

It sounds like you are going through a lot right now. How can we help you?

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Also, what is skynet? You have mentioned it a couple times and it seems like you view it as a bad thing?

I didnt see the light, interesting you would say that I spent 8 years reading on how to lucid dream before I had one to recover excatly what happened and a near death experience, light anything else used to read comics thought maybe something like in the Constantine movies would happen. I am sorry if I talk to much just freaked out, John Connor fought the terminators and the original skynet became self aware went online started a war then humanity had to fight the machines for survival, its just this nick name I have for some things.

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Gotcha on the skynet reference....it's been awhile since I watched the movie.

I'm still not clear on the near death experience though, if you could explain a little more I would be greatful. Why was my reference to the light interesting to you?

Can you tell me why you are so freaked out??? Is there any ONE thing or, is just everything. Sorry, I just really want to try and understand where you are coming from and what you are dealing with. thx

i just read most your old posts from what i can tell you were hit by a train causeing 3 brain hemrages, now you think the people in your town did something to you and placed you by the track after messing with your brain in some way.

am i correct on this?
if i am correct what did you apologise to the girl for?
you seem you have done nothing wrong

i would try to conentrate on something you enjoy( not this site or the pc it can be disturbing enough for the untroubled mind ) and block all thoughts from outside

edit for typo

peace ace


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Do you live in a suburban or urban area? What do u think your neighbors are doing exactly?

For some reason, I'm feeling like this is not a goof. If the OP'er is genuinely as agitated and unsettled as the OP implies then I can only offer my deepest empathy. I think many of us around here are feeling more 'disturbed' than we want to admit. Disruption is different to everyone as an individual. I've been feeling panicky and just generally "off" for weeks. I have no history of mental illness, I have a career, husband, etc. In any case, I just feel like I'm in a pressure cooker about to blow apart. I cannot even explain it with any eloquence. That being said, I'm pretty damn intuitive and I think the OP is experiencing genuine anxiety.

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You've been around ATS for a while now according to your mini pro. I'm hope you're not suprised as to the reaction this post has initially attracted. Give it time, more will come forward that are experiencing something similar to you. I'm not here to pick on people, no matter how bizarre they may come across. Truth is, no one really knows WTF is going on. Until someone can lay out the original design and make fools of us all, I say, treat everyone with some level of dignity. or not. it is a free thinking forum so I will just apply that to myself!