I cant apologize enough I didnt see this coming

This has something to do with these ongoing conspiracies I was paranoid about. I used to buy like 150 cds between 2002-2005 anything I could get my hands on trying to look for something most the time looking for delusions didnt exist. No tangible proof (life condition). I carry weapons with me almost everywhere I go last 7 years, lived in isolation last 4 while ignoring any TV thought maybe on news like columbine copycat if it was real how on their radar? Lastover 2 years about 750 days back to back been with breakfast club / psychic friends network insulting me angry with me and trying to force me out of neighborhood like they are being persecuted. I considered having telepathic powers for 18 months the nexus of a 90 foot radius, and almost had a nervous breakdown sometimes if I was out for 4 or 5 hours. Could be brain pacemaker cause I swear sometimes they can hear my thoughts and FIOS electrical circuits and live feeds might go through nervous system with sound ampliphier gun and come out other side. Over 2 years watching them move talk react live. I came to this site in month 14 about 410 days of this I was sick and I didnt know if anyone would believe me didnt think it would cause problems or anyone would believe me. Trying to get redemption or peace of mind people wanted me dead for years. Dont know why make a mockery of life or androgny thing ( no statory happened) when i was barely 13 I went into shock blacked out passed out and seizures. Art is art it means 1000 different things to a 1000 different people aspects of life. I have been bouncing off the walls for 7 or 8 years 9 hospitals 4 after I wrote last May. I guess this goes for a few who might read this, you know when youre finally done I have to live my life with the rest of the normal people around me and they have been throwing a revolt against me personally? escalating for years with people around me what they say in the backround like O.J. or something. Yeaaaa Capitalism.

Yes I agree. Its all so clear to me now.

Seriously, What the hell?

Or am i missing something here?

[edit on 5/7/2009 by Matt.Trakker]

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I used to buy like 150 cds between 2002-2005 anything I could get my hands on trying to look for something most the time looking for delusions didnt exist.

Self-help CD's, from say Tony Robbins..?


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I have been bouncing off the walls for 7 or 8 years 9 hospitals 4 after I wrote last May

Stop buying the CD's...

Originally posted by P. O. W.
I considered having telepathic powers for 18 months

Is this like considering to get a Lexus or considering a career change?

It is really hard to take posts like this one seriously. Anyone come to the same conclusion as me.

My sister is schizo, and she graduated from college with an english degree, paranoid schizos can write near perfect english. Although, if you read her stories, (because she had to write a book) you could find many tangible meanings in 3 words or less.

Spooky, but not totally incoherent.

I don't even know how to respond to OP.

I can't really understand what you are saying, are you saying there is a conspiracy against you, that people are against you?

Unless you're a microbiologist or a free energy/alternative energy inventor, you shouldn't fear or worry that people are out to get you.

Too much paranoia maybe?

[edit on 7-5-2009 by star in a jar]

P.O.W

If your name indicates that you were an actual POW, then thank you, sincerely, for your service. I read some of your other posts to see what you were all about and this quote stuck out to me

...and whether it was overdosing on shrooms repeatedly making my brain sick for awhile , neighbors shooting my implant with sound radar gun or the FBI...

It is common for our veterans to have become addicted to drugs concidering the incredible circumstances they went through. I would suggest to calm your thoughts and entertain the possibility that maybe none of this is happening to you as you think is.

Take Care
-E-

Very essential.....

I would like to post something more helpful, but like the others,
I have no idea what you're talking about.

What exactly didn't you see coming that you are apologizing for? I'm not able to make out your meaning. I think you are declaring something or trying to anyway. I hope you are able to understand this. For nine or forty-five minutes, I took them over the beltway. Never mind.

We should give POW a second chance.
I mean, I've read a looot of threads here, and he wrote his like he was in a hurry/stressed/etc...

We should reflect on what he said, and try to discuss the things that struck us in his post.
with all due respect, maybe he doesn't master English and the art of the keyboard

Boy: Do not try to bend the spoon; that's impossible. Instead, only try to realize the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Boy: There is no spoon.
Neo: There is no spoon?
Boy: Then you will see, it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.

reply to post by P. O. W. when you spoke of being around normal people, that means you think your different from others? believe me everyone is different. your difference is that you seem to be confused and you feel that people are out to get you, is that why you isolated yourself for 4yrs.? that's more than enough time for your brain to convince you of something that may not be true or real. i am no doctor but i sincerely suggest you see one that can help you be at peace with yourself, that is the only way you will be able to conquer your fears. there are doctors that specialize in doing just that and there is no need to be afraid of going to one

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DON'T YOU LIE, P. O. W. !

You DID see this coming, but you did it anyway!

Apology NOT accepted!

"like columbine copycat if it was real how on their radar?"

who's radar? on the TV, you mean? so, you're saying that they couldn't have known about it unless it was faked or planned?

"trying to force me out of neighborhood like they are being persecuted"

they just didn't understand you

"considered having telepathic powers for 18 months the nexus of a 90 foot
radius"

not sure at all what this means

"escalating for years with people around me what they say in
the backround like O.J. or something"

they can't judge you

"Yeaaaa Capitalism"

I feel ya on that

reply to post by ROTJ6 do you know what is going on here?
or are you just being malicious.

TC has some sort of personality disorder. Schizophrenia perhaps, maybe psychosis?

Originally posted by Deus Ex Machina 42
TC has some sort of personality disorder. Schizophrenia perhaps, maybe psychosis?

Everyone who carries a colored rag must be involved in gang activity.

*sarcasm over*

Judging by modern psychological standards, the subject exhibits several traits of those illnesses.

or they may just have a hard time communicating their ideas. The simple explanations are always my favorite.

perhaps this poster's level of comprehnsion and writing is well beyond what we can understand... effectively making you the schizo.

-dur

I would love for P.O.W to explain himself better - maybe the insensitives here got a glimpse of someone's psychosis and should not play with this...

Isolation is dangerous to the spirit, guns and drugs and voices...

Originally posted by echodogene

do you know what is going on here?
or are you just being malicious.

Yes!

Some people on ATS like to post "bait" threads in order to get the attention of other members

Maybe they even keep hidden blogs somewhere so they can show people all the responses to the baits!

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Are you talking about doing something about it yourself anyway you deem necessary?