posted on Nov, 27 2008 @ 11:25 PM
Thinking on Tricky63's post, I realized the above I posted doesn't say all I think might be useful. Because I do believe there are those of us,
perhaps more than a few, with a strong sense of empathy who are also self-destructive in some way. Whether it's by hurting others or allowing
ourselves to be hurt.
Dangerous turns and deadly circles for empaths can include drug addiction, bad relationships, mental illness and personality traits such as coldness,
bitterness, neediness, depression and anxiety. This isn't meant to be an all-inclusive idea, but I think it safe to say most people dealing with
something listed above are covering themselves emotionally.
The person in an abusive relationship who simply can't let go because they sense there is good in the other person. The addict who abuses the trust
and respect of friends and family to fulfill their desire while at the same time loathing themselves for doing so. The reclusive loner who shies away
from people, appearing callous and uncaring who also happens to be desperately lonely.
It sounds counter-intuitive that someone who feels the emotions of others deeply enough to distinguish would do anything to hurt another, but it
happens. The why, from where I see, is in my previous post, in the giving and taking of energy. Because one thing I have also learned is that those
who are empathic are incredibly prone to being drained.
It may be hard to understand for those who haven't experienced it, but I believe most have to some extent, how utterly draining negativity is. How
it seems to suck the life out of us. How it can be physically painful, bring about physical illness, nausea, headaches and tiredness. How horrible
it can feel.
Sadly most of us experience this from a very young age, and I believe it perhaps likely that there are many who also suffered in some way at a young
age. Nothing hones a sense for the feelings of others like living in a tumultuous environment, especially when we are young and feeling defenseless.
Learning to sense the moods of others can be a survival instinct. The problem lies in that there is generally no one around to relate to, to explain
it to us or to tell us how to regain our depleted energies.
And so we develop negative habits and behaviors to compensate. We learn what we are taught. But I feel there is hope. That in learning to replenish
ourselves we can overcome the dark circles that enthrall us. I've been there myself and am learning to heal.
First and foremost is realizing that we are not helpless, that we are not obligated to take on the emotional baggage of others and that we don't need
to feel for them. They can do well enough on their own.
Second, time alone, for ourselves, is an absolute necessity. We need this time to find ourselves, to separate what is ours from what is not. I know
for some that the prospect of this is frightening, but it is necessary most especially for what we do in that time alone.
What to do is learn to rebuild ourselves, to strengthen our emotional core, to feel whole. For myself, I meditate, focusing on chakra work to draw
energy from around me, safely and without drawing on others. It is all around us, in the air and the earth, and available to us if we can learn to
sense it. I also work with stones, though not usually tumbled and polished but rather raw stones, most especially from a water source.
Simply being in nature works wonders for me as well. Amongst trees, in caves, simply sitting on the ground. Having plants around the home or work
can also do wonderful things. This isn't to say what works for anyone or everyone, rather it's best to find what woks best individually. But I do
believe it's always been there, in things we are interested in and likely have been all our life. Explore and find what suits you.
If any of this sounds "new age" and that's a turn off, all I can say to that is there is nothing "new age" about me. I hope this proves useful
and I welcome questions in the hope of being more so.