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Originally posted by stellawayten
Why do I want the world to end? I'm not saying I want everyone I know including myself to die. I just want the world to end as we know it. I want a new way of life.
I scour the internet everyday looking for signs that the world is ending. I look for signs of NWO starting or maybe reptilian take over. Even the Christian apocolypes. I keep waiting and waiting but nothing happens. Nothing catastrophic. At least not in my itty bitty part of the world. Why do I want this to happen. Am I a fearmonger? Do I take joy in seeing misery? I don't think so. I just want a new way of life. But what way of life am I wanting? I don't know.
I'm typically a very logical person but here lately I try to believe any conspiracy theory that you people throw at me. I keep hoping that yall are right and the world is at its last rope. I know there has to be more people out there that feel this way and if there is then why do we have to have the world end (as we know it) to make changes in our lifestyle? Why do we sit on the net researching for the next clue? Why don't we get off our bums and change things. Move into a commune and pretend that no one else exists?
I'm just so confused lately and don't know what to do. I know there are people preparing for dooms day... stocking up on supplies. I'm not. I just assume that when the big BANG happens then I will be taken care of. Not by other people but by some devine intervention or something.
I guess I'm still just looking for answers. I know everyone says the answers are inside me but I've been looking and I don't see/feel any. What can I do? I don't want to continue living in the "real" world.
disclaimer: (this is not some suicide note or anything... i'm just trying to express how i feel)