posted on Dec, 11 2008 @ 02:20 PM
Final last question can a person change his karmic path so as to maybe move back to a path that leads to enlightnment and a more healthy lifestyle.
I gone back into training after thanksgiving even though I've had to ditch class tonight do to illness. I've received my first dan in Isshinryu
under Alvin Brown who was trained under Master Allen Wheeler. I really would like to get back in to training again and drop some of this weight maybe
even pick up Tai-Chi again. When I was really gung-ho into training i had even thought of getting into the medical field such as nursing or maybe
even a doctor. It seems like though here lately when I have a good week of training I seem to have some sort of cosmic karmic backfiring that
interferes with my training like starting last week I developed a cold and I had just had a good weekend of practicing from thursday night around 7pm
on thanksgiving, I practiced that Th,Fri,Sat,Sun,Mon,Tues, that Wedneday I felt chills and ached all over, I thought maybe I overpracticed and was
just sore so I went to class Thursday night and felt better but then this weekend i got sick so the only practice I've gotten is this Tuesday and
Wednesday. Now it seems like this interference or testing only happens when I resolve to go back into training and lose the weight. And when I
backoff on the practicing and start becoming a couch potato again things go back to normal. I just don't understand it. it seems as if god or karma
has to throw a karmic joke in my path to try and test me. This has happen throught out my whole life and most of the time when I decided to pursue a
more light or peaceful path i get these tests(spiritual test) almost immediatly most of the time i fail. For a while I went to church it seemed
pretty good you know you get those warm fuzzies after saying you going to give you life to god and then it seems a 2 weeks it's like all of a sudden
it's like blam my mom is testing me everyone want's to test me. Finally I just got tired of the legalism and theology and I started a more indulgent
lifestyle and now I recently I went to the the doctor and found out that I'm at 230lbs. being at 5'4" which means I'm not just fat I'm obesse
and I really need to change but I just don't understand why this karmic testing seems to happen when I made a choice to start training and get away
from the TV get away from the Alchohol(beer) Now im not wanting to go back to being a prude or being legalistic but I mean I know I need a little more
discipline then how I been living and usually when I'm working out and running kata's i'm not staring at a tv Im not riding the roads and wasting
gas and i'm not playing around a mall or department store wishing I had this or that or this book or that book. My biggest question or desire
would be to how do you balance everything and still be spiritual. How do you pursue your life goals like career, getting the girl, getting a car, a
house, having kids, standing up for yourself(for instance Christianiy says you must turn the other cheek which would mean you have to let that person
screw you over) and things your interested in, protecting yourself(self defense) and still be compassionate, maybe making a little money so you could
do all these things. That's really in a nut shell is the goal of most middle class Americans. How do you balance this materialism and still call
your self spiritual or can it even be done. That really is my biggest question from all of my reply posts.