Can anyone explain this - Bizzare military humor?

23, I'd highly recommend a blood test to eliminate psycho-social errata introduced by organic means (or any otherwise stated ailments). People get delerious when they have an infection, virus, or it could even be due to your diet.

These blood tests are inexpensive, and eliminate a lot of the dribble you can get from some of these PhD'ers that want to take your billing method for a ride.

Say for instance you have a "foreign", lets say entity, within your system. This is a treatment form that is widely held as acceptable, and is easy to spot, and can be remedied with little discomfort.

Oddly enough, I'm going in to the hospital next week to be tested for diabetes and I'll consult with my psychiatrist about the results.

This has dragged me out of my posting dry-patch. Quite intriguing.....

I may have missed it in earlier posts, but do you have any military service done? Any time in the reserves?

Another question, while in a military mind-set and going over different scenarios in your head, how does the thought of commiting harm affect you? Does it give you uneasy feelings, nerves, faintness?

Last question, any lucid dreams and what was the most recent one?

I am glad you are getting the diabetes testing. I have to say I've never heard of diabetes testing requiring inpatient treatment. I would suggest further medical testing after that (if it turns out to be negative, or treatment doesn't affect this issue).

I may have missed it in earlier posts, but do you have any military service done? Any time in the reserves?

I attempted to join the Reserves in 2003, but due to scheduling conflicts (I was still attending school and they wanted me to drop out for basic training) I backed out at the last minute. I was attending school on a scholarship and had a little over a month to complete, and the recruiting office couldn't reschedule me. I always thought that was a poor management of resources on their part.

Another question, while in a military mind-set and going over different scenarios in your head, how does the thought of commiting harm affect you? Does it give you uneasy feelings, nerves, faintness?

The majority of the time, it creates a bit of a moral conflict for me. I'm a peace loving person, but as the duration of these occurances increases, I become more and more aggressive. I've acted out of character on a few occassions, when something has set me off, but I could never imagine killing someone or inflicting harm except in self defense scenarios.

When in this state of mind, I am emotionless. It's extremely difficult to describe. I don't have any premeditated thoughts of committing harm, but my response to some forms of external stimulus definitely puts me on the defensive. That's when the negative and hostile thoughts conincide with violent acts - just in case the other person becomes aggressive of combative towards me.

There was an incident several years ago where I was rushed by an aquaintence - and I had him pinned on the ground in a headlock in a matter of seconds. It was an instinctive reaction, and I was in my right state of mind at the time. I've never been trained in any form of self defnese that I am aware of, yet it always seems to assert itself in situations where my safety is threatened. I've always written it off as instinctual self-preservation.

Last question, any lucid dreams and what was the most recent one?

The last one was this weekend, and I remember very little of it. My retention isn't the best on a lot of things, all I remember was waking up while travelling in the car and hearing a voice tell me to "get back here and finish this"- there was also a mental image of a commanding officer of some sort that briefly flashed in my mind in reference to the dream state. I have no recall of what was going on in the dream.

Something triggered me pretty hard this weekend while traveling, and the only way for me to escape it was to sleep through it. I kept hearing a line of questioning that sounded remotely like curiousity seekers, and at one of the gas up points I ran into two people who looked me in the eye smiling and the words "I'm in the cult." passed from them to me. I reacted with dispassionate interest and flatly threw back that I couldn't give a rats ass and looked forward to the day I could place a bullet between their eyes.

The response was triggered automatically, and without any consideration or knowledge as to what "cult" they were refering to, or why they were attempting to contact me and make themselves known. But if this is all a game of some kind, and I'm being victimized on the part of this groups agenda, I would be more than happy to see them taken out of the Big Picture.

I know that's a horrible thing to say and think, but unless I find out firsthand why this is happening to me, and what constructive purpose it serves (if any) I will continue to regard these thoughts invasive, unwelcome and annoying.

(*Note - they are of a radically different slant than the possible Military and Governmental prompting. I can't understand the reasoning behind them, and they are never infused with any type of humor.)

I spoke with my mother today, and she asked if I had contacted my father recently. We have been looking for a psychologist who is willing to get in-depth on this issue.

I would recommend writing down your experience. Your stating now that there is an external stimuli which triggers feelings. In a typical setting of illusionary thinking, it is all internal. Most that suffer from delusional thinking do not like interacting with outside influence because it detracts from their state of mind, and their acts of trying to resolve/enhance the state.

If you feel you may harm someone or yourself, talk about it. But as a general disclaimer, don't allow yourself to be harmed, either. It's more socially acceptable these days to be outspoken about personal conspiracies where you are an intended target. Heck, I myself have been embroiled in a contributary fight for going on two decades now, LOL.

To re-address that it may be a false belief, I'd seek Medical intervention first. A good MD could eliminate many more things than a Psych., but also recommend one should that be the case. Having had a "distant" relation with psychology as a whole, I tend to lean away from it as a suitable, viable, or even sound practicing form. Too hokey.

I've been trying to write about it for years - everytime I do it ends up getting thrown away or deleted. It's also terribly difficult to write about to begin with - so much of the time is fragmented, and the memories aren't always clear as day.

I used to be a heavy reader, now it's difficult for me to focus on a book long enough to read it in it's entirety, and my handwriting has suffered changes as well. I have, at last count, about four distinct handwriting styles.

I'm trying desperately to get this all down on paper and recorded in some format, but just when I get my head together in a completely objective state - something happens to knock me back down to a position of illiteracy.

On a more postive note - I got tested today for diabetes. I've been exceedingly tired the past six months, sleeping up to 16 hours a day. Hopefully the tests will be negative, seeing how diabetes is a pretty serious thing. But if it turns out positive, at least it will stifle the thoughts of my excessive lethargy being related to something more sinister.

Fingers crossed, will update when able.

With the advance in digital recording, you could buy a cheap digital voice recorder that you can hook up to your computer, and transfer your recordings to a CD-R(W) that you can archive. This should show you any type of change that may be detected.

As far as concentration and tiredness, guess what? It's the number one complaint that Medical doctors face. Try excercises that will enhance your ability to remember (short newspaper articles, then try and relate them about 15 minutes after reading). Also, to combat the tiredness, which some estimate is greater than 60% of the population, I'll have to go with proper diet and excercise.

The reason I'm so interested is this is akin to a similar situation I have come to know about where a perceived threat is now recognized as a most certain one, in the case I refer to. Concerning mind control, watch the psychol. approach. They Zombify!.

Originally posted by 23_PAPERCLIPS
On a more postive note - I got tested today for diabetes. I've been exceedingly tired the past six months, sleeping up to 16 hours a day. Hopefully the tests will be negative, seeing how diabetes is a pretty serious thing. But if it turns out positive, at least it will stifle the thoughts of my excessive lethargy being related to something more sinister.

Fingers crossed, will update when able.

I hope you're test comes out negative. I tested positive for Type 2 Diabetes, the non-insulin kind, in 2003. Had to take a pill once a day, change in diet and more exercise, it was gone by 2005.

It's almost becoming a world-wide epidemic now.

Some of the symptoms are lack of energy, tiredness. I was the same way as you. It can also affect eyesight (damages the retina) and concentration. Also constant thirst and having to pee constantly, i.e. like every hour day and night are other symptoms.

Best of luck on your results.

Just out of interest, and in all seriousness, do you own a copy a "The Catcher in the Rye" and if so, how far through the book have you got?

Alernatively, what books do you read and who are your favourite authors?

wrong topic - sorry

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Great news - test results were negative!

And yes, I loved Catcher in the Rye.

Favorite books :

Anthem by Ayn Rand

Brave New World and BNW Revisted
Ape and Essence
Island - Huxley

The entire original DUNE series - Frank Hubert

Slaughterhouse V - Kurt Vonnegut ( i relate, lol)

(when I was a child):

The Neverending Story - Michael End
The Last Unicorn - Peter S Beagle

Discussing favorite films and books, I'll have to throw mine:

"The Serpent and the Rainbow"

It's an excellent viewable source of domineering Medical Practice and its influences on cultural motives. Seriously, when you think about having a problem, these days, a "pill" is the first thing that is thought of.
It seems to work wonders for others where I may be concerned (even though I have recognized anomolies that are not necessarily "sub"-normal).