They come through the window.

I have no memories before that day.

Try as I might, all I see is a black wall.

Then I see 7 year old me standing by my window.


That window...


I was always scared of it.

I could just visualize the blue light glaring through.

Then I knew they would come.


I wouldn't dare try to remember what they looked like.

Or what they did to me.

It was way too terrifying.


I would go into a state of existential crisis.

Mental shock and paralysis.

At the mere thought of it.


Every night, I cowered under my blankets and begged not to let them come tonight.

Once I asked my sister to stay with me until I fell asleep just to make sure they wouldn't take me.

She didn't understand what I was talking about, but she could tell I was shaken and she comforted as she could.


Sometimes during the day I would stand by the window and just try to remember before the window.

Each time, I get numb and nearly catatonic and all I see is a black wall.


A few years later we were watching tv in the living room when for the first time ever I saw the image of a typical grey alien.

This was around the early 90s, and for most of us it was the first time we were introduced to this little devilish semi humanoid design.

I swear I instantly p!$sed myself.

I screamed "that's not true they're not real! They don't exist tell me they don't exist!"

I was frantic, I closed my eyes and squeezed tight onto the couch, I just didn't want it to be real.

My family sort of brushed it off, my brother poked fun of me of course.


I was a weird kid. I often thought of things in ways most simply wouldn't, so my subjects varied from the profound to the downright silly and the incomprehensible.

So my claims would often get ignored or taken as a twisted version of reality.

Anyway, the people I spoke to about this typically told me aliens don't exist, they don't take people, it's all in my head.

So I ascribed to that. Hard. I wanted this to be true.

But deep down... I was just pretending.

I know what happened...

Or I did once.


Now all I see is a black wall...

And that window.



I'm almost 40, so it's not unusual that I have no recollections of before that day.

But back then, I was 7, and I just couldn't remember where we lived before that house.

I couldn't remember the drive there.

It was a few weeks or months ago.

I remembered some names, a few short ''scenes', but as soon as I tried to focus on remembering more I get the black wall.

Then the window.

Then nothing.

Then I'd stand in a daze for a while, and I tried again.

Black wall.

Window.

Nothing.



One time, a black helicopter landed on our yard and picked something up in the grass then left.

My brother saw it too, thought it was weird, not much else about it.



Try and tell me abductions aren't real.

I'll tell you otherwise.

They took my memories.


You can't do that to a child and expect him to just forget.

Ironic isn't it?

I'll never forget.

But I'll never remember either.

a reply to: BrotherKinsMan

That sounds terrifying!

She came in through the bathroom window
Protected by a silver-spoon
But now she sucks her thumb and wanders
By the banks of her own lagoon

a reply to: BrotherKinsMan

I have no reason to doubt this. I personally have memories going back into my 1-3 year old brain.

Over 40 over here.

Never had your experience.
You expressed a story. I appreciate you sharing your story.

a reply to: BrotherKinsMan

Brother, I can accept your account of the experiences. I underwent a roadside abduction in 1964. My son and his GF underwent a bedside abduction in 1990. He has never fully recovered from the horror of the brutal "medical exam" as it is usually called.
In my over two-hours of missing time I recall nothing, and want not to, but acept that I have been primed and used even now as a go-between of sorts, a conduit to the world of what is happening, how to see it, and how to explain it to others.
There is no real compassion or tenderness in what the ETs bring but unemotionalness to the extreme. As if all aspects of it are one all-emcpmpassing AI system with a purpose for humanity. I'll stake my life on it.

Yes! My childhood experience is eerily familiar and as ultra Macabre as your experience.
Thanks for sharing, I don't feel so alone again.

originally posted by: CosmicFocus
a reply to: BrotherKinsMan

Brother, I can accept your account of the experiences. I underwent a roadside abduction in 1964. My son and his GF underwent a bedside abduction in 1990. He has never fully recovered from the horror of the brutal "medical exam" as it is usually called.
In my over two-hours of missing time I recall nothing, and want not to, but acept that I have been primed and used even now as a go-between of sorts, a conduit to the world of what is happening, how to see it, and how to explain it to others.
There is no real compassion or tenderness in what the ETs bring but unemotionalness to the extreme. As if all aspects of it are one all-emcpmpassing AI system with a purpose for humanity. I'll stake my life on it.

Thank you.

No one 'recovers' from this.

It marks you. It changes you.

You were taken.

You were used.

God only knows what was done to you.

And you can't talk about it, no one will believe you.

You start to doubt yourself.

But you can't just forget and recover...

Because it happened.


No one should ever live through this.

My sympathies to you and yours.

Has any of you tried to get hypnotized to recover those memories?

I'd love to be taken, but appearantly they take by dna line or such only and only then for a short period. The most I ever experienced was seeing a silver cigar shaped ufo flying slowly over my head in the 90s.

Strange so much of the stuff happened in the '90s. I recall my brother and I out in the field saw a real bright light we were out walking at night up in the mountains recall this light coming down and following us for a bit it wasn't so super low but it was enough for us to have some concern and we ran back to the cabin. I don't recall anything before the age of about 5 1/2 or 6 years old. I remember becoming very concerned about needing to have a tent over my bed so that I can hide. I remember drawing a wanted picture when I was at my grandmother's work I was there for the day cuz no one could watch me. To my knowledge I had never seen anything like what I drew. But I knew that it did bad things. I had drawn a gray alien but I only had a permanent felt pen and a highlighter. Big black eyes I asked my grandmother if we can hang it and she said it was too scary to hang. Now I've had out of body experiences before but I'm not sure if that's somehow related. Considering when I was having the outer body experiences I was unable to move my body at all until I snapped back.

I completely believe that there are aliens however you want to say it dark entities however you believe it it is what it is and it's not okay and it's not good. And I hope that day will leave you alone and everyone else because it's harmful.

originally posted by: ScarletDarkness
I'd love to be taken, but appearantly they take by dna line or such only and only then for a short period. The most I ever experienced was seeing a silver cigar shaped ufo flying slowly over my head in the 90s.

Are you sure?
If these stories are true then they're often terrifying and the abductees are victims of a range of experiments done to them with consequences to their health.

originally posted by: ElitePlebeian2
Has any of you tried to get hypnotized to recover those memories?

Hypnosis isn't considered a very credible technique to recover memories and it's rather controversial but I don't reject it personally. One must be very cautious when they are subjected to hypnosis. How do you know these memories are true?

a reply to: BrotherKinsMan

Do you remember anything of what they did to you while you were with ‘Them’ or the craft?

I like to talk to experiencers, first hand info.

originally posted by: DaphneApollo2
a reply to: BrotherKinsMan

Do you remember anything of what they did to you while you were with ‘Them’ or the craft?

I like to talk to experiencers, first hand info.

I believe they said they can't remember anything.
It's not even clear if they have been 'abducted'.

originally posted by: Zandergrut

originally posted by: DaphneApollo2
a reply to: BrotherKinsMan

Do you remember anything of what they did to you while you were with ‘Them’ or the craft?

I like to talk to experiencers, first hand info.

I believe they said they can't remember anything.

That’s a bummer. 🙁 Darn

originally posted by: DaphneApollo2

originally posted by: Zandergrut

originally posted by: DaphneApollo2
a reply to: BrotherKinsMan

Do you remember anything of what they did to you while you were with ‘Them’ or the craft?

I like to talk to experiencers, first hand info.

I believe they said they can't remember anything.

That’s a bummer. 🙁 Darn

There are bits and pieces of information and even reference to a black helicopter landing in the yard. They are usually associated with cover up operations and UFOs but again it could something completely different.

People need to be very careful not to revive false memories. Memories could be true or just creations of the brain and that's a path nobody wants to follow.

I don't know if I had an abduction experience or not. When I was maybe four or five years old, we went to visit my uncle and because he had a full house, my parents, my sister, and I all put sleeping bags on the floor in the hallway upstairs and we just slept on the floor like that. Once everyone had fallen asleep, I heard a very faint sound of a soundtrack of sorts and I sat up to find Sesame Street, my favorite show, being projected onto the ceiling in huge dimensions. It was strange, because I tried to wake my family to ask them why the show was playing on the ceiling, but no matter how much noise I made, nobody would even begin to rouse. This made me wonder if I were possibly dreaming, and to this day I still don't know. But what I do know is someone was projecting a television show that only I could hear or see on the ceiling, or else I was in some sort of sleep paralysis that nobody else could see. I have always wished though for near 35 years I could know if I were dreaming about a zonked out family and some outside person trying to hypnotize me, or was I simply in a dreams gone wild shallow sleep?

originally posted by: Zandergrut
People need to be very careful not to revive false memories. Memories could be true or just creations of the brain and that's a path nobody wants to follow.

Interesting you think there is a difference.

originally posted by: ScarletDarkness
I'd love to be taken, but appearantly they take by dna line or such only and only then for a short period. The most I ever experienced was seeing a silver cigar shaped ufo flying slowly over my head in the 90s.

You wouldn't love to be taken. Trust me.

On a side note, by father once bragged that we were related to the Royal British family after some extensive research.

Does that mean I'm a lizzid people? Lol.