Novelty happens when you do something new.
ATS is old.
So are ghosts and aliens and god.
Where's Bebog to say "nothing new under the sun?"
Member how I said I made myself more random?
Hard? No thats you reading something into my transfer from idealism to realism.
More correctly doing things for myself.. figuring things out myself.. is what makes me happy. Easy or hard.
And my dreams are top shelf. I had my 5th dream this morning it was from 10:58am to 11:05am but it was a full blown adventure.. I was awe struck... i
lived 3 hours in 7 minutes.. I still had time to go back to sleep twice an hour each time with even different dreams.
Im just doing my thing.
Its getting harder by the way.
Much harder.
I deal with it.
You have no idea about today.
It was heavy in 10 different directions.
I actually also like being that dude in both worlds.
A rock for people to anchor,
And a slippery fish you can't catch deep in the darkest depths.
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"...We're not doing those things because they're easy, but because they're hard..." Mr. Tough-guy aye? ESA is going to mercury now. I'm heading
towards worklife. On the way. To novelty and beyond.
I have so much energy and nothing better to do than arguing with strangers on the internet. I left home today Three times and was walking around
totally without a plan. Now I make a cake because I don't know what else to do. I can't wait for the job to happen because of it. Which is truly
amazing because usually I'm the laziest person on Earth.
I take you as role model. Be flattered. Because normally I'm not the kind of person who is fan of anybody but now I am yours. You have a fan. How does
that make you feel?
I was just wondering, why are you up, is it super late for you, or super early?
Something is always changing. But it seems the group of people which used to be ATS is gone now. Maybe it would be time for us to quit too? But I
don't care if it naturally happens that's fine but I try to learn not to force things anymore. Did that long enough and it's been making me sick.
Easy living is all that I care about now. And adventures. But even for that I'm lacking ideas. Tomorrow I'll go to the egyptian museum and I'm kind of
hoping something lovecraft will happen...
Haha it was super late.
I didnt get home until after 3am, and after the rush of working at a fast pace you cant just turn off quickly. That was a LOT of people at the
restaurant party thing.
Quit ATS?
Like a drug?
Whats the point? Come not come whatever.
I just sort of do whatever I guess.
A homeless guy just gave me a beer, and then further along an indian woman asked me if I meditate and gave me a book titled something like you are not
your body.
To me ATS is very important, the first thing I check in the morning, my most important social contact site. What gets me through the day. I know
that's kind of sad.
Why do strangers give you books was she from a sect? She probably thinks you look stressed out.
It's 5:45am and sunday, look what I'm doing checking ATS even before coffee. Ja eyes are getting bad I don't really see what I type.
Oh it was some singing dancing people.
When I opened the book after getting home some first pages showed singing dancing people.
Its a vedic religious thing hare krishna..
Basically its the same as jesus.
"Believe in the lord by saying his name in prayer and spread this to others."
Still I will read it anyway cause I love universal random.
People just engage with me. Something about me people notice, I guess im open. Non judgemental? Friendly. ...Compassionate...
The homeless guy I gave a ciggy to like 2 months ago. Hes said thanks like 3 times. Its crazy how many people will have my back, even someone with so
little to give. Gave him a smile to give me a beer, and ill drink a free beer walking down the street anyday. oh and somone gave me a pack of cigs
when i asked for one to smoke haha.. and ya know i lost acccess to my funds until my new card gets here, so its funny just being broke people dont
even know it but they give me things.
I don't know if I believe in karma or anything like that, but my life just shows treat others how you want to be treated and you will be treated
well..
I like ATS too, and as well its my only social online interaction its my only news. Besides like searching physics things..
I'm still not sold on the concept of karma but as long as it works for you. Funny you mention compassion I just wrote a thread about it. And maybe I
just don't go out enough to experience karma in action.
But I plan to go to the egyptian museum today, maybe a first step for my resocialisation. I really hope for one of the relicts to trigger a lovecraft
experience. That would be so awesome Cthulu! A portal opens to a different dimension. Or a holographic record of an ancient ritual starts
playing...
I really do hang around ATS too much and got too much weird phantasies in my stupid little head.
Yea a sect.. I don't join groups. They don't bother me though either.
Im not sold on karma, I just care about people more than I do my own property.
Nah I have the same ones.. fantasies.. well i imagine I have similar ones.
Maybe you'll recognize your old sarcoffacus pharoh peeps! The memories come rushing back and bam.. "I must get back to the great pyramid if Im ever
going to get that portal to the greater reality open!"
Oh and ...compassionate... was a poke saying I saw your thread haha.
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That would be cool. If I wouldn't be such a Scared bunny I'd consider egypt as my next destination. But alone as woman in a Muslim country... I don't
know, seems unsexy.
I saw your reply, thought it was synchronicity while you sneaky read it. I'm even too scared to go to the museum now. Gut I'll swallow that because
nothing weird will happen, I just hope it does... trigger woo with artifacts.
Artifacts is a fun word.
Well I woke up at about the same time as you lol came on ATS and youre the top thread on my first page refresh haha.
Yea Egypt is probably bad timing wise, but in the fantasy others realize it too and you start seeing into a mirror version of this world you can move
in and out of to sneak beyond everyone. You have to be in the mirror version anyway because the pyramid is complete in that plane.. no capstone, no
juice.
It opens in 3 hours and I'll be the first in line, hoping that one of the exponates in-spirit-s me. Get it inspire? Ah I'm so funny... I hope I don't
catch the curse of a mummy. Oh if they have mummies there? One that's really pissed it ended in a museum? Da da daaaaaaa, dramatic drumm roll.
My meds are really working I don't feel depressed anymore at all. Yesterday I jokingly said that since I'm on this stuff I don't support Trump
anymore. Fun part is, it's true. Less fear less hate, it really is that simple.
Love has more than one type.
I doubt I would ever love again you know.
Call it caring or something.
It was explained to me in a dream a long time ago.
There was this huge dark tank of water I was in. A side door opens and through the dark green glow of water I saw a giant killer whale.. regular size
but much bigger than me.
Instant instinctual fear kicks in it opens its mouth i see its teeth and my guts feel so exposed im dead.. at the last moment i changed my emotion to
"love" think of it like emotional smiling.. and it turned out he was fearing me fearing him.. then he rubbed me with his "nose" we are friends.
Some of my dreams have actually changed my life ya know?
Ive been taking vitamins and im just super happy. Take me with a grain of salt if you like
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I would bite you because your full of vitamins. That's what you get for being healthy: you get eaten.
I love your dream. Don't take me too serious I'm in such a good mood I'm 80% joking.
The old greeks had a word for the one concept of love I can get behind: agape. Love for the world in general. That's what we all should focus on. But
there's so much bitterness.
The discussion around the Caravan are full of it, it's what compelled me to write about compassion. I'm not a lost cause I do feel agape I just don't
like to call it love. It still makes me crazy to think about this one guy.
#neveragain