A time before human existence

a reply to: TechniXcality

Thanks for sharing. I love hearing about people's paranormal stories. When I was younger I remember seeing shadow figures and my mom also recalled me telling her about them on several occasions. It was nothing negative, but also nothing completely positive; I guess a neutral experience. I also feel like I'm forgetting something that happened to me when I was younger, which is kind of odd. Almost as if something was blotted out of my mind in purpose; it's hard to describe.

Nothing fancy, but those are my only real experiences with what one would consider paranormal. I find that there is always a lot more paranormal activity around charged circumstances - anger, conflict, death, etc...

a reply to: Aedaeum

Thanks, I thought it would be a contribution at this point and different then the political threads.

I was about 2-3 years old when I happened to be molested by my 14 year old brother, and I still have nightmares about it. My parents told me that as a child I had night terrors and I now wonder if the night terrors were an occurence of that horrible act. I believe that our bad memories from horrible childhood experiences can affect us when we become much older which is unfortunate but I do know that when u confront them head on it most definitely helps. My brother is now 33 and has a child and is a great dad and when I asked him about what happened he was very apologetic and since then we have had a great relationship. I eventually forgave him

a reply to: andyr1112

I admire your handling of a situation no one should ever have to be in.

a reply to: CantStandIt

yes, I second that.

a reply to: TechniXcality

I wonder every day why we chose this BS. But oh well, we're here, and we can try to make the best of it together

Hang in there, dude. Keep pushing forward.

I am in no way shrugging off your story...who know what it all means. I am throwing out a possibility is all. Humans don't like not being in control, particularly of their lives. Perhaps, this memory is to make you feel like you had a choice, you made the noble choice being it was going to be hard, you were brave. A young mind is very open so who knows, perhaps in our innocence, we are In touch with something greater. I had a rough. Childhood as well, it has made me a pessimist so I tend to believe it was your mind telling you that you are the decision.

a reply to: Hr2burn

Yes I agree with you, some kind of trauma memory mixed with a real memory, that's where my logical mind puts it anyway and where I fall, still rather interesting that such things can occur in such vivid detail.

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a reply to: TechniXcality

We learn, and grow wise and compassionate through our hardships. There is definitely something to be gained from this "choice." It is something can only be learned through experience. It is called empathy.

a reply to: TechniXcality

You could try a Life Between Lives regression. Or just a past life regression. The hypnosis session could also help you to remember this event in your current life. If you are still in Philly, here is a link to an LBL specialist there:

www.carolbowman.com...

a reply to: TechniXcality

+1 star for sharing a personal story . Very interesting. I have little to no memories of young childhood. It's great that you do though.

Is it possible that you saw your journy to reincarnation? That you saw a life being presented before you with entities by your side?

I made a thread about this a little while back. It was pure speculation that our possible reincarnation is due to entities seducing our souls into reincarnation on problematic and painful human existance.

There is also the chance that we simply desire to experiance the full length of dueality on earth. You know.. all the suffering and pleasures..

Either way... thats very interesting to what you feel you have experianced. I am of a very logical mind, like yourself. Although, i do entertain spiritual ideas.

Good story man. I have heard a few childhood supernatural stories to think that children are much more open to these things. I believe the problem rests in the mind and our interpretation. We may often interpretate and remember things with much bias.

Your childhood experiance could have been a dream or fantasy or it could have been real. How can you really know? Everything is magic when you're a kid.

They always grow up the day you die... when you visted that grave your mother was reborn. If she's drinking again she maybe hiding it within the very shadow of duality that presents itself we soon forget in a separation not of oneness of being.

You didnt mention your father or brother in the present so who needs the gift most these days?

Your brother would make a better husband to her as a conscious protecting like apprehension but beyond the framework of knowing called birth and death.

In the light we are all individuals with a soul that grows and leaps with the shadows from the spark of life... in the darkness the only way to recall such is the moon or any light you see... as without such light there is only the void of darkness and not knowing such separation as form.

When the whole world is in your hands? To whom does your form belong too? It's always you and in such there inside lay a darkness beyond all light that seeps out when the dawn unfolds... awakening is wiping the crust from the earth as the void of sleeplessness yawns a chasm... gravity and the weight of such matters not.

I've experienced a few episodes of sleep paralyses, I'm able to wake up very quickly by now, but when I do I always see an entity hovering over me, I usually sit up straight as soon as I can (almost instantly by now) and it's always above me and a little bit in front of me. I can't describe it as anything over than an entity, it dissipates quickly and has no specific shape or form.

I wright it off to a hallucination caused by the sleep paralysis, but who knows, maybe it's the same being

a reply to: TechniXcality

The flaw with words is that they always make us feel enlightened, but when we turn around to face the world they always fail us and we end up facing the world as we always have, without enlightenment. For this reason, a warrior seeks to act rather than to talk, and to this effect, he gets a new description of the world where talking is not that important, and where new acts have new reflections. Don Juan Matus

Seems like you got a glimpse of the Nagual. Children are much more sensitive especially if left on their own without too much external influences (brainwashing). Dreams are random? How would you call seeing things you never saw before or couldnt possibly have imagined because no prior life references? There are no coincidences. The world is magickal in a way one who is stuck in the current matrix cant imagine. How can one perceive the totality of such eternal wonder when one is separated from it and closed to most of his inner potential to the point of denying it out of, well you name it, fear, ignorance,..

The lack of faith in one's own experience is one's downfall. There is a reason you remember it, is there not? You dont remember any details of your vision of your future life, i'd wager? This is so common in entheogens experiences. One can touch the Truth and even merge with it to understand the totality of the whole for a microsecond but you can be sure that he will forget everything once back in his body. You may argue some will write down everything they can but funnily enough, the words are lacking to describe Truth, hence why i will always see the verbal language as inferior to intuition. Very interesting.

a reply to: andyr1112

Those experiences have a lasting effect on us, to process trauma takes a lifetime... I still have a lot of trauma to work through, to identify how it affected my persona. I believe a lot of mental illness is caused by unprocessed/repressed trauma.

Bettering ones self is not an easy task, and it's never ending.
I find it amazing that you could forgive your brother... I can forget many things, but forgiveness is a different story...

What I love about this post is the openness of people. No judgements.

I believe whatever happens whether its "imagination" or not its still a personal experience meant for you.

I remember back to being a baby, I can remember my mother (she passed away when I was 3) picking me up out of my cot and singing happy birthday, I remember being bathed in a baby bath and crawling.

I also remember being visited by the "lightening people" as I used to call them from a very young age. I remember them being very kind and loving, they used to watch over me. I thought everyone saw them! I was always reported to daydream or have an overactive imagination, which I did... I used to want a cloud when I was little like how you yearn for a pet, well I yearned for a cloud! As I got older the visits from the lightening people stopped however I started meditating about 5 years ago and the first time I meditated I saw a lightening person. I have always had dreams of other worlds, worlds that make more sense to me than this one... looking at the stars has always made me feel homesick, I used to cry and ask my dad why couldn't I go to back. Life is certainly an experience!

a reply to: TechniXcality

Wow, i had a similar dream. Terrible childhood. Too much to go into, but my dad was the better parent. I was actually dying, in hospital, the priest from my church came in and gave me last rites.

I truly did not expect to live. I had a dream, that 3 maybe 4 lighted beings told me that they made a poor mother choice and we're bringing me home; I begged them to stay, and told them I could do it.

Woke up the next morning fine.

Still can't connect with mom much, and do everything I can to protect children.

a reply to: TechniXcality

The same sort of experience wth a different twist. The entities discussing my life were faces on the wall, the big clown head was above my head board, leading the discussion. At the end of two nights of this I was offered a choice, but said I had to go to the bathroom first. When I came back all the other entities around the room had gone and the one over my head was now a person who sat and talked with me at some length. I don't remember what the talking heads or the one in charge said to me at all, just the experience.

My oldest son, when he was maybe 3- 4 years old, often asked me when we could go back to the planet we were supposed to live on. He would even get emotional about it. About that time, I sometimes saw a bright blue flash light up our apartment. I thought it was an electrical problem at first. One night, my husband was the only one still awake and was on his way to the bedroom in the dark... I woke suddenly as if someone had spoken to me and knew that I should open my eyes and look toward my door/hallway. The brightest flash ever, lit the entire apartment! Then I hear my husband on the other side of the door (he didn't believe me before) "Are you awake?" I replied, "Yes, I saw it too." Then he calls for me, and he's picking up our son, bringing him to our room. He said the "thing" was hovering in our son's bedroom (just down the hall) when he turned and saw it flash. He was too afraid to let him sleep alone. This turned into more than a year with our son sleeping in our room.

My youngest son at around the same age would tell me that he remembered some random thing from before he was born. He said lots of things. I usually paid little attention, but he started giving more details that surprised me. He even told me that he remembered me before he was born. I asked him how he could remember me when he wasn't even here yet. He acted like I was silly for asking, because of course I wasn't here yet either. He told me that before I was born "this time" I used to have a job (I'm a stay at home mom). He described vividly some kind of laboratory setting that I worked in and said I had to wear a long white shirt (lab coat?). It was a little strange.

I had an experience with my middle child as well, but it is much more difficult for me to share. Maybe all children are inclined to imagine these sorts of things, or maybe there is some truth in it that we have forgotten. I am certainly open to it. It would be comforting to know that you chose your own path. Things will never be worse than what we knew we needed to endure, and there must be something waiting on the other side of it all. I don't know what to believe, but if I could choose an explanation for the suffering in this world, a spiritual learning experience sounds nice.

Thanks amigo. The way i look at it is, we are all human. Sometimes we make mistakes. It hurts me alot though, i still have a very hard time coping... it's really screwed up for me. I've had alot of suicidal thoughts through growing up because of this. It happened when I was a effing 4 year old. Yet I still remember it and had night terrors till I was 13 then had nightmares still to this day. The reason I can forgive him is because he admitted it 2 me and we worked our issues out. Between us. No one else in my immediate family will and can never know. Sorry 4 the rant its just i have nobody i can really talk 2 about thisa reply to: GreenGunther