My friend and ATS member Iamschist has passed away.

a reply to: spacedoubt

That was somehow very poetic and very well said. I agree. She was a gem.

Threads aren't going to be the same without her calm & reason

I really don't know what to say, I would have never expected Iamschist to leave us in this kind of finite manner.

Always there with a word that was a smile. Yes, she was indeed a gem. Be well dear lady, be well.

I don't know what to say.
Everybody, I am so touched by all your kind words for Bonnie. And your understanding has made my grief a less lonely place to be.
Reading through the posts made me quite emotional. Thank you all.
Bonnie would be bemused at the fuss, but reciprocate the love.

I am weeping for my loss but I am smiling that she left so much positive energy among those she encountered.
Sad, but very proud of my sweet friend. Thank you for all your kindness ATS.

a reply to: HumansEh

HumansEh,
Thank you for sharing this news as we'd have no other way of knowing. She was the very first person on ATS to reach out to me via message when I officially joined after hanging out in the shadows for a couple years. So there was always that interest on my end in what she had to say.

I am sorry that she has left us, left you.

If you need someone to talk to, ping me or any of us "old crew" and we'll help you through to a sunnier day.

- Galadriel

absolutely heartbreaking.

we were friends through avatar creations, a community here at ATS that has really had a positive impact on my life. She is one such person. FortAnthem was another.

My heart is a little sadder, my heart a little heavier....but heaven gained a real angel. We'll miss you!!!

a reply to: HumansEh

Oh wow,
this is sad news.

Both my wife and I considered her a friend of ours.

That hit me kinda hard.... You will be missed Iamschist.... Thank you for letting us know HumansEh.

a reply to: HumansEh

Very sorry to hear, thanks for celebrating her.


I DREAMED that one had died in a strange place
Near no accustomed hand,
And they had nailed the boards above her face,
The peasants of that land,
Wondering to lay her in that solitude,
And raised above her mound
A cross they had made out of two bits of wood,
And planted cypress round;
And left her to the indifferent stars above
Until I carved these words:
[She was more beautiful than thy first love,]
[But now lies under boards.]

-William Butler Yeats

a reply to: HumansEh
That is some really sad news, she was one of the coolest people on this site.

Seen her on lots of threads, and a few times on chat, we chatted here on the chat program they used to have some years ago. Mostly just random things, oh and we just made fun of the people on chat, and on that radio show without them knowing it from what I remember.

I think we were chatting in the pm windows, once even told her if she wants to get more of kick out of it. To come on there when certain members were on, for more ensuing hilarities of what is a bunch of people all talking about different things at once. Particularly when danbones is on because the dude spells so bad, he would likely would spell better if he typed with his feet, she seemed to get a kick out of that semi joke.

Among other random things I can remember we were chatting on in our brief time there, and on other threads on this site I seen her on, particularly the music thread.

I don't try to get to attached to random people I meet online, but she was what you said. Never knew her name was Boonie. Now I know. And never did ask why she choose the screen name of Iamschist seems like it has many layers to it, that or she could just have been a rock lover. A sad day indeed.

RIP to your friend.

I am saddened to hear of her passing.... I remember her from chat. We didn't correspond often but I was always interested in what she had to say

I didn't know her, but after reading a few of the stories from her friends here and reading a few of her posts (see below), I wish I had known her.

A few quotes from Bonnie over the years:

EDIT: Just noticed Bonnie's comment below about 'Boldly go', well she has done just that...

originally posted by: Iamschist
Christians die. Death happens to all of us. Christians understand that death is not the end. Suffering can serve many purposes in a person's life. It would seem we are not much for learning or growing when everything is peachy.

originally posted by: Iamschist
Establishing meaning to life seems to be a journey that compels some of us. Rebels, questioners. Imho this is 'the divine spark'. So far as we know animals do not question their existence, only man. The journey is fun, scary, frustrating, exciting, wonderous. Lots of information out there, books are helpful, follow your nose. You have a built in guide with only your best interests at heart, trust yourself. Boldly go as it were. lol

originally posted by: Iamschist
This is just my opinion and worth about as much. I believe that repentance has more to do with our relationship to God. If I feel myself distant from God, it is me, not Him, and so I need to look to what I have done that is harmful to our relationship. Only by being close to God can I hear that still small voice that warns me when I stray off the path.

The responsibility for another's soul is a tough one. It is true that people look to us, and by our actions might come to know Christ. However, everyone is responsible for his or her choices. What God might find a sin in me, he may not in you. As Oprah has said, "When you know better, you do better." Often we are unaware and must be convicted by the Holy Spirit, that a behavior is a sin. Conviction is much different than knowing something is wrong or bad for you. Conviction brings about fundamental change. Just my 2 cents.

originally posted by: Iamschist
Congratulations on your first thread! The questions you ask have been asked by many people through time. Including Christians. Unfortunately I do not have the answers for you, only for myself. I am a Christian, to be a Christian is an act of faith, not logic. I do not want to argue and I don't think we can ever come to an agreement, but I would like to think that our differing views on Christianity is no reason we cannot agree to disagree.

I am so sorry for your loss and for that of her family's as well.

I did not know her the way some here did but I knew enough to instantly recognize her name when I saw it.

That just goes to prove that each of us make an impact on each other and the world around us even if we don't always feel that way. None are insignificant and all are needed in this world for our allotted times and it is tragically sad when that time ends because none can be replaced and all leave a void.

May you and her family find a small measure of peace in time and find the strength to smile at shared memories instead of grieving them.

a reply to: HumansEh
Blessed be your soul, miss you and wish for you ultimate peace and ultimate bliss. Hugs as always AT.

Her name was Robert Paulson.


Rest in peace.

I'm shocked and saddened at this news.

I was aware she was poorly and had to go into hospital at one point for a serious operation, though I never knew the details; I remember feeling relief when she returned to the boards. She was a special person who reached out to many of us over the years; she once PM'ed me to tell me how I had made her laugh in one of my posts, which was a lovely gesture.

She had a great sense of humour, and I hope she appreciates my little tribute.

a reply to: HumansEh

I am so happy that she came into, brightened and enriched my life so much even for these short few years. It was my privilege.

Well said sir

It was an honour to know Bonnie, a true light in the darkness and how many times we laughed at her username being misread.

We'll miss you schisty a privilege indeed

Cody

Rest in Peace

So sad to hear this. A great loss to the ATS community. My thoughts are with her family and friends.