Why do you feel chosen?

- Did you feel you always were different?
- Did you feel you always could relate to animals better than humans?
- Did you feel what a human told you instead of hearing the words?
- Does electric shortages happen nearby, lightbulbs, Tv , elevator opens?
- Do you feel classical music?

- Does maths, chemistry, physics and biology, come in pictures as a solution.?
- Do you hear voices ?

Most important question:

- Do you feel alone ?

a reply to: Temudjin

You sound like you are caught in the fight or flight response, it's a normal reaction.

Looking at personal ID happiness may be helpful.



Cheers!

a reply to: Treespeaker

No not for me im reaching out

a reply to: Temudjin

Yes and there isn't a job position for such a thing either, just more questions and isolation. Until you just don't talk about it and move onward, life tends to do the same.

If I get along with someone, or have common interests, then that someone is most likely online, as meeting in the flesh is either elusive or just taboo.

Why are you reaching out?

And chosen I don't know about, a better word would be " different "

a reply to: Tranceopticalinclined

why did you choose to move forward tho you didn't feel you fit? Was it the loneliness?

a reply to: Temudjin

Not really another direction to go, unless you give up and I'm ex-military, I just don't give up.
I'm not anti-social, I'm actually very social, I just don't meet many who are open and scientifically motivated like myself in person, so have found the internet to be my social playground.

So I moved forward because regardless of what I feel or think, life continues to happen, therefor I will continue to grow and learn. I would say my loneliness isn't typical lack of physical encounters, but lack of intellectual encounters. I don't watch sports nor do I drink so I've already singled myself out from 75% of the human race.

So i guess with the internet, it was easy to move forward.

a reply to: Tranceopticalinclined

Any ideals? Or do you prefer instincts?

a reply to: Temudjin

Mostly instincts, if I had to have one ideal it would prolly be " nothing is impossible, only improbable "

a reply to: Tranceopticalinclined

I'm in a similar boat.. Also ex military..

I got over it, that I am trapped in the matrix feeling.. Like why did I end up on this planet anyway?

I'm cool now, but I prefer to only have a very few close people I can trust.

And then I come on ATS to actually talk about what I really think. Talking to any one person about my weirdness seems to hurt them too much.. So I try and avoid it in person.

But I can't get away with being selfish either.. It just won't work.. I care about everything..

So I try to help if I can.
Lately I have been the one in need of a little pick me up.

a reply to: Temudjin

Having read several of your posts, I'm delighted to see you have ventured into some soul searching. I wish you much success, and I hope you are open to accepting guidance from those who offer it.

Peace.

a reply to: KnightLight

Hey that's what I've been up too, and works wonders. I've soul searched and really came to terms of things in late 2003, diving further into the IT sector and programming.
I'm sure many people have thoughts or feelings like this, but man does the feeling never go away. I could have everything in life and still feel that something is wildly off, especially since I barely have what I need and still have the feeling.

I just keep having the thought of forest animals all running the same way from a forest fire, many of the animals never to of seen the fire, but sense the urgency of the other animals running away.

Just stay awake and aware.

a reply to: KnightLight
There is nothing wrong with you that a little time won't cure. Be good to yourself. Eat well, rest well, exercise until you sweat profusely, drink tons of water, and surround yourself with people who have good sense, and have acquired the ability to see beyond their own whims and needs. Everybody has the blues sometime.

That's my two.

a reply to: ladyinwaiting

Thanks Your post actually made me feel better on it's own..
Got to remember to take the world off my back..
Since april everything has become so much more intense for me.

@Tranceopticalinclined

That thing you said about forest fire and animals..
It's how I feel..
I can't shake the feeling that I need to stop the fire somehow..
Or not even that, but make the other animals feel safe..

Your post also is helping me out..

@Temudjin

great thread you have started here.
Whether you are reaching out for you or for others like me..
Oh whatever here we are..



Thanks guys and/or ladies.

a reply to: KnightLight

Of course, life is hard already without humans making it even harder by never really talking to one another.
best way to handle it is to carry on with your life as you can, develop yourself. But always keep those feelings at the top so you can identify with anything that comes along.

Life is a very interesting thing, everything is connected.

You are speaking directly to me. Yep. Im the guy your looking for!

a reply to: KnightLight

I can't shake the feeling that I need to stop the fire somehow..

That is nothing but anxiety. Maybe take a break from here for a couple of weeks? I do it prn. But don't lose sight of the fact that you can control what you do, and you can control your emotions, even though anxiety can be a tough customer.

Get back to basics for a while. That always helps me. BAIL on the complicated for a while; simplify your life as much as possible. Plant a shrub or a tree. Seriously. Do something WHOLESOME. Go for a walk in the woods and look at birds and junk. : )

Anyway don't mean to cover you up with suggestions -- I just think you are a super-nice guy and I want you to be okay as quickly as possible.

*so you'll know, I am quite gifted in complicating my life.... so I am experienced in digging my way out.

a reply to: ladyinwaiting

Why April?

Is it a question or an answer?
a reply to: Temudjin

a reply to: ladyinwaiting

Hi, just listen, please

a reply to: starswift

Both