The Shed 3

a reply to: WalkInSilence

Hi Walkin,

I have to ask, and I hope I am not being to forward.....

Are you a Bermardine, as in St Bernard?

I know very little of Cisterclans. I guess I should do some reading.


I just wanted to add, I too am a morning person. It is the best time of the day.

a reply to: Night Star

I gotta tell ya, I am soo glad to have time off. I feel like I have been mentally over exhausted myself. I have been trying so much to understand my surrounding and try to fit in.

It sounds easy, but moving into a new world is harder than I even imagined. Some folks around here consider people like me who have moved here as "Aliens" I am very high strung because I come from a fast moving socialty. Up here, things are slow moving and folks like it like that.

I want to live at a slower pace now, and it really is harder than it seems to change.

However I must say, I know I belong here and I am very willing to go at a slower pace. It just takes alittle getting used too.

BUT DON"T ANYONE WORRY!!!! I still LOVE JAMMING MY MUSIC. I will be 100 years old and I will want to hear some 'QUEENSREIGH' IF it makes sense, I'm all for it.

Walkin, love the kitty pick and I will keep him in mind when I go to the doctors tomorrow. Thanks! Like Kat, I don't know much about that order, but would like to hear about it. That castle must have been so amazing!

Hey Cody and Gordi, is there really a Saint Andrews day in Scotland? Do you do anything special in honor of the Saint?

Hello folks!

My son came over on Sunday, and as much as I love the fellow, he is a very tiring chap to be around. He spent the segment of the afternoon which did not consist of either dinner, or his homework, attempting to pull off my arms so he could "eat " them. As you can no doubt imagine, this rather took the wind out of me for the evening following his visit.

Monday was spent in total dedication to the cause of functioning our business, as there were jobs to do both within the store itself, and indeed on the road, more precisely at a residence, the front door of which required my total, and devoted attention for most of the afternoon. I ate a very late lunch as a result, and when the working day was done, I threw myself down in my pit in restful repose the moment I arrived home.

I foresee today's adventures will be somewhat less envenerating though, so there is a chance that if no further contracts are secured today, that I may well have time and energy enough to poke my head around the door of the shed with more regularity!

Much love to the lot of you!

a reply to: TrueBrit

Hello my dear friend! So happy to see you back home at the Shed! OMG, kids have so much energy, I don't know where they get it from! I wish I had half that energy, or even a quarter! LOL!

Having a hard time waking up this morning and trying to function! Think I'd better have another cup of coffee. Weather has been cold and staying cold. Makes me want to hibernate under warm blankets.

Have a good day True and Sheddites and lurkers!

originally posted by: crappiekat

Hi Walkin,
I have to ask, and I hope I am not being to forward.....

Hay Crappie, not to forward. Thanks for asking, at least you didn't insult me as most people do, so I rarely mention it

Are you a Bermardine, as in St Bernard?

I think you are referring to the Benedictine order (there aren't any Bermadines, shh)
Cistercians are "deflectors" of the Benedictines in 1125, I seem to recall, they wished to observe a stricter rule.
No. I am not cloistered or in an order. One of my big regrets.

St. Bernard of Clairvaux was a Cistercian monk 1112 and became a doctor of the church.
My history is a little shaky.

I know very little of Cisterclans. I guess I should do some reading.

I just wanted to add, I too am a morning person. It is the best time of the day.

Hay most people don't know any thing about Catholic orders, especially Catholics. Wiki is a reasonable source with good references. If for nothing else the history of the Church explains a lot about the failures and progress, minds and psychology of our past.

Mornings are bliss. 4:30 I am up and runnin.

originally posted by: crappiekat

Crappie, hope you don't mind these comments, I just want to give you a little consolation.

I feel like I have been mentally over exhausted myself.

Don't ever exhaust your self. Be selfish once in a while other wise people will eat you up like piece of free pie.

I have been trying so much to understand my surrounding and try to fit in.

You are never going to fit in to "their" concept unless you show your true colors. That also means you have to be a chameleon at times.

It sounds easy, but moving into a new world is harder than I even imagined. Some folks around here consider people like me who have moved here as "Aliens"

I moved "Back Home" ten years ago. I thought my birth right gave me a free pass to enjoy the last half of my life with a bunch of credentials so I could make a solid contribution to "My Homeland". This beautiful country was built by pioneers, right?
It has been nothing but a struggle. I still contemplate handing people a written "Curriculum Vitae" so I don't have to answer all their insidious, stupid judgmental questions over and over again.
Most peoples eyes go blank when I answer them, others think I am making it all up and covering some dark past.

However I must say, I know I belong here

It is your damn choice. Not theirs. I uprooted my life (very comfortable) moved four-thousand miles or so and darn it if any one is going to tell me "Who I Am". I know who I am.
If you don't like it, that I have traveled in multiple countries with my job, because you haven't. To bad.
If you don't like it that I just want to settle down now after twenty five years of travel. To bad.
"You put me in one of your ignorant boxes, I will jump out at you and you won't know what hit you"

This is my land, this is where my bones are, the rocks the water, the sky so high. This is mine whether you want to share or not. And you will share it one day when I'm gone.
The last laugh is on me. When I breath you inhale my molecules, my tears will rain on your great, great grandchildren.
We pushed the natives away and now we segregate each other, how ironic.

Thank you for listening Crappie. This felt so good to write. I hope it gave you a little courage.
WIS

Night
Did you manage to over come the "evil" doctor?
I don't know why you fear him/her. Do they hang you up side down or water board you?

My story line is brewing. But I am a terrible perfectionist and rather intimidated by the ATS audience so I want it to be perfect. Well close, you know?
I wake up before the alarm, thinking "Should I start with this scenario? and how do I make it inclusive for the other Shedders"

Oh, and thank you I shouldn't have invited myself for Christmas. Perhaps we could have a "Shed Christmas Potluck"? It wouldn't be fare to leave the others out of a celebration and not much fun either.

originally posted by: WalkInSilence
Night
Did you manage to over come the "evil" doctor?
I don't know why you fear him/her. Do they hang you up side down or water board you?

My story line is brewing. But I am a terrible perfectionist and rather intimidated by the ATS audience so I want it to be perfect. Well close, you know?
I wake up before the alarm, thinking "Should I start with this scenario? and how do I make it inclusive for the other Shedders"

Oh, and thank you I shouldn't have invited myself for Christmas. Perhaps we could have a "Shed Christmas Potluck"? It wouldn't be fare to leave the others out of a celebration and not much fun either.

Hahahaha! My doctor is actually a sweetheart and I think she is great! My anxiety just gets the best of me. She increased the dose of my anxiety med as I was on a low dose. She also changed my blood pressure pill because my heart rate is always way too high and she thinks that could also help my anxiety. I have to get an echo cardiogram for my heart and a bone density test next.

Hell yeah, we will have a Christmas party in here with the gang! Sounds awesome!

Now about that story of ours...If I waited for the perfect entry, I never would have written a word. LOL Just do it! Come on, I dare you! LOL I am really looking forward to it! And because I have been lagging behind, if anyone else wants to make another entry, feel free. I'll take it from there.

a reply to: Night Star

Hehe! I know where my lad gets his energy from, unfortunately.

The more I get to know him, the better I understand myself, the more of my childhood I recall. With the benefit of hindsight and the increase in wisdom which is only possible through aging (although not a certain result of it), I realise that I too had certain tendencies for manic and irrepressible behaviour, activity which was driven by overloaded senses and a lack of certainty as to how to respond to those stimuli.

I say it is unfortunate, because I understand that it will require a significant effort on his part, to engage with the mental training that I have been providing over the last little while, and intend to continue with for the rest of his life. Meditation, exercise, exposure to advanced concepts in the myriad realms of science and even mathematics...I will give him objects upon which to ruminate and cogitate, and over time I expect he will learn to spend his energy in thought, rather than in trying to remove my limbs for the purpose of nourishing himself! After all, it is a running joke amongst my clansmen that I only have one muscle in my arms, and that its name is Triceps. The rest of the arm, if taken for the purpose of consuming it, would be left to waste, too stringy by far!

As for the weather, my dear Night Star, I have been having the opposite problem. At present all the wind we are getting is blowing out of the western half of the compass, and is not nearly as cold as it ought to be at this time of year. I fear that this will be a warm, wet, and boring winter, comprising of little to no snow in my locality, and too few days of minus figure temperatures to make it worth calling a winter at all. It was my sisters birthday yesterday, and we had some folks over to celebrate. The apartment became unbearably warm by about 11:30, and I had to make an exit to my bedroom, there to disrobe and cool myself in front of my tower fan. There I remained until the next morning, and of course, by the time I awoke, some enterprising individual had turned the heating on, so I awoke almost as muzzy headed and baking hot, as I had been when I went to bed!

a reply to: TrueBrit

Ah, so our young Ashley takes after his Dad. Better watch him in those later teen years! LOL Is there anything special that he wants for Christmas? Do you and Mom have a Christmas tree up?

Some days around here aren't bad, but at night it gets pretty chilly. I bought myself a new wicked soft purple bathrobe. Soooo soft and warm.

On my new medication and on the increased dose of another. I'm really hoping they don't make me sleepy. That would be fine at night as I can't sleep, but I don't want to sleep the day away either. LOL

Oh, Happy Belated Birthday to your Sister!!!!!

A little magic for you all.

Double post!

a reply to: Night Star

Yes indeed! Ashley certainly is a chip off the old block, as they say. As a result, I have a keen eye on all matters pertaining to his life and progress. The wonders of modern communication allow that to be the case, even though I see him once or twice a week at most, just at the moment. No doubt the frequency of our achieving close proximity to one another will increase for a time over the holidays, or at least, I would hope that is going to be the case.

Last year was a pretty special year, Christmas wise.

As to the matter of Christmas trees, we used to have somewhat of a tradition in our household, of always somehow managing to acquire a genuine tree, and dressing it in all manner of strange and ancient, and to be utterly honest, completely tasteless and tacky nonsense. The last two years however, have reminded us that rigid models, from a psychological point of view, can be harmful to the mind. For example, myself and my mother have been going through what I can only describe as an entirely terrible time, over the aforementioned period. Between making the new business work and dealing with the tail end of the old one, not to mention dealing with the part of the fallout from the judgement which has no paper trail, but none the less leaves a wound track in the flesh of our lives, we simply have not the time, nor the energy for the level of messing around that would ordinarily ensue at the end of the year. While it would be wonderful to indulge ourselves with a real tree, and hours and hours of fun with tinsel and baubles and God alone knows what else, forcing ourselves to make the time will have a deleterious effect on our ability to function the priorities in our lives. A shame, but not an insurmountable loss. Dinner is still on for Christmas, and that is the main thing!

On the matter of your bathrobe, I congratulate you on finding a garment which allows you the correct measure of protection from the elements for your liking! I myself find that somewhat difficult, owing to the fact that there are only so many layers a fellow can take off, before being arrested for public obscenity.

As to your medication, I do hope that you find a mixture that works well for you, and allows you both the sleep you need to rest well, and the energy you need to live life to as full of a capacity as you can possibly muster. These things are vital. Tis hard enough to leave the comfort of ones mattress, without being chemically induced to remain in repose for longer than is healthy!

a reply to: TrueBrit

Hi True! I have never ever owned a real tree and never found it necessary. I have a small simple fiber optic one that is just enchanting. I just have to drag it out of the closet and put it on a table. LOL I also have this cool octagon shaped aquarium/terrarium thingy that I used to have lizards in. I have silk plants and my woodland porcelain faery and tiny lights in there. I need a bit of magic even when I feel down. My parents always loved Christmas and I know they would want me to continue with normal little traditions. I have Angels set up in their honor and memory.

Yes, your family gathering for a lovely meal is the most important thing and I am sure that your Christmas will be beautiful and special in spite of whatever happened in the past.

Earlier I felt that deep worry leave me and felt normal and peaceful... then I needed a nap. LOL

You sound like such a great and loving Dad! I was so surprised when I first heard that you had a son and so very happy for you!

a reply to: TrueBrit

Hi True!!

I found this and thought of you.

www.independent.co.uk...

I think it would be awesome, if I had young ones, to be able to show them this. Good learning, and a good giggle for us adults.

Night Your video was enchanting. Saved.
Since we are doing a Shed Christmas should we start decorating?
Please tell me if I am too assertive, I have a manager back ground and tend to "take control" I am working on it. To not take control that is.

Are you sending out invites?
Perhaps in consideration of the non Christmas people we could do a combined Solstice, XMas thing?

TrueBrit You should join the Shed XMas party.
I do hope you can brush off the trouble with your Mother, you have had enough turmoil this year.

Crappie Did I offend you with my last post, it wasn't aimed at you.
Hope you enjoyed your days off.

To all of you. This is where I chill after a stressful day, every one is kind, sharing and make me smile.
Night it is a tribute to you, you have made this safe haven.
I love the terrarium concept and so would my naughty cats.

a reply to: WalkInSilence

No No, I am sorry I haven't replied. I started thinking about what you said, and I got side tracked with real life stuff.

I am sorry if I hurt your feelings. I do plan on replying to you, I have some questions.

But right now real life has got me by my neck, and I can not consentrate. So I am just staying very lite headed right now.

a reply to: WalkInSilence

Well WalkInSilence, it is probable that I will be hitting the net for at least some of the day on Christmas Day, and will no doubt drop in then to wish everyone a stonking good time. However, in addition to seeing my family, including the concentrated ball of madness that is my son for some of the day as well, I will also be heading out at some point during the Christmas/Boxing Day period to make merry with the rest of my clan, which promises to be what can only be adequately described as a ripping good laugh!

However, for what time I am available to the ATS community over that period, you can be sure I will be making merry in The Shed with all its various residents!

a reply to: WalkInSilence

Tried to post twice now and something funky is going on with the site or maybe it's me. LOL

So glad that you enjoyed the vid!

Feel free to decorate, we can all help you. FUN!

Sure, we can have a Christmas and Solstice celebration together!

I didn't create this safe haven, it began in other threads and Syx and I continued it and kept it alive until people returned and new people joined us. I hope that if something ever happens to me that someone else will keep the place alive. we need our magical place. It is safe and filled with magic and wonders and so much love. Always leave the doors unlocked and the lights on so people can find their way 'home'.