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originally posted by: Eunuchorn
"Feelings" are severely overrated.
You say he's been a good provider at least? He will be an even better provider now with forced alimony & child support
PS. To women everywhere: Men Are Scum.
Long term conditioning won, we lost.
originally posted by: sirlancelot
originally posted by: Anyafaj
originally posted by: sirlancelot
originally posted by: Anyafaj
originally posted by: mblahnikluver
At least you learned early. It took me 18 1/2 years to wise up. Through most of those years, it was me with the job, and him being the schlub. I tried to get him to go to counseling too. I have severe PTSD from childhood rape and stalking. I was told HE didn't need counseling. I couldn't get him to understand if it's affecting one of us, it's affecting both of us. His solution? Go cheat on me THEN ask for the divorce. He went about it in such a classy nice guy way too. He took my daughter with him when he went to cheat on me. Brought home an engagement ring for Valentine's day. When I had a miscarriage (my 5th), he decided that was it! How dare my body not be able to bear him more fruit! So on my birthday, yes, my birthday, he asked for a divorce. I told him he was a jerk to ask on my birthday, his classic response? "I forgot it was your birthday." Gee, thanks for caring. He then proceeded to tell me that when we renewed our vows 8 years prior, he wanted a divorce then, he just stayed quiet for 8 years. I said, "So what, for 8 years I was just friends with benefits? Gee thanks!" I threw my wedding dress away, the flowers, everything associated with that day. I was so disgusted that was used in such a way by that jerk. It's been 4 years since the separation and December 18, 2013 was the date of divorce and I have never been happier. That's my date of freedom. Slowly but surely he beat me down and got me to stop doing the things I loved over 18 years, now I am learning to love those things again and slowly finding who I am and I'm enjoying every moment!
Geez, no words! Glad your free.
Thank you. His emotional abuse took a slow toll. I don't know if it was I didn't WANT to see it, or I was just blind period. I honestly feel like an idiot for not seeing it sooner. In the end he physically assaulted me twice before he left. One resulted in a pregnancy that ended in a miscarriage. To think I trusted him to never do that given he KNEW my history. I could have charged him with marital rape, but the true irony is he's still mad at me over it. How, why, who the heck knows. If anyone should have the right to be angry, it should be me. I was the one held down while I punched his chest screaming. I have since forgiven him though. For the sake of our daughter. I know she would never understand why her father was in jail, so I never pursued it, for her. I'm ok with my choice. It's his misplaced anger that sometimes rehashes things and makes it a little difficult to move on, but therapy is helping. I have a wonderful therapist. My daughter has even gone on two visits with me and she loves her as well.
My ex had the same thing happen to her and it manifested itself after a year together into our relationship. I thought if I loved her so much she would forget the past. Sadly it didn't happen. She could not get past it.
Any man that is ware of a woman who has had issue's that forces himself on a woman is not a man at all. You most likely are traumatized and it will take time to get past it but please know not every man is is like that!
I wish you well.
originally posted by: Eunuchorn
"Feelings" are severely overrated.
You say he's been a good provider at least? He will be an even better provider now with forced alimony & child support
PS. To women everywhere: Men Are Scum.
Long term conditioning won, we lost.
originally posted by: Eunuchorn
"Feelings" are severely overrated.
You say he's been a good provider at least? He will be an even better provider now with forced alimony & child support
PS. To women everywhere: Men Are Scum.
Long term conditioning won, we lost.
originally posted by: AtcGod
Although I sympathize with the OP on some of her post, there are always 2 sides to the story. The guy is only home 9 weeks a year? Not really much of a relationship to begin with IMO. I mean what do you expect to get out of a relationship like that?
My advice OP is to stop making excuses that he in some way has kept you from being what you wish to be.
1. Go to school. So what if he was not supportive....you could still have applied for an online school and TA.
2. Don't use your kid as an excuse. The whole "my child is my life" should go without saying. You sure do use alot of language that insinuates me, me, me. And then you say its all about the kid? To me thats just a cop out for some sort of sympathy (another excuse).
3. Take responsibility! It is not his fault that you are in the situation you are. The decisions that were made with regard to YOUR life are yours and no one else's.
Just my 2 pennies.
And shame on you Eunuchorn. You lost and still lose because of the attitude you portray in your post.
originally posted by: LittleGreenAlien
a reply to: mblahnikluver
Marriage is a team effort, if your the only one putting in the effort then there is no team.
originally posted by: Eunuchorn
"Feelings" are severely overrated.
You say he's been a good provider at least? He will be an even better provider now with forced alimony & child support
PS. To women everywhere: Men Are Scum.
Long term conditioning won, we lost.
originally posted by: semperfortis
Do what you need to to make yourself happy lady... Trust me, no one else ever will...
I applaud your perseverance, your motherly love and most of all your COURAGE!!!!!
originally posted by: Masterjaden
a reply to: mblahnikluver
you're bipolar and you want to be happy??? Well at least half the time right???
me thinks we are only getting one side of the story here.