something to think about. I was hanging out with a fellow ATS buddy and he pointed his finger at my hand and mentally told himself he was projecting
energy at me, well my hand did get warm in concentrated spot, and warm energy usually isn't that good. It's hard to explain rather it is real
temperature or just perceived that way. Yin = cold. Yang = Hot. Left nostril breathing = cold, right nostril = hot. You may feel sweeping sensations
down your body. This is is vague and random, just experiment.
But I practise Qi Gong and one of the things I do is take time out of my day to feel my nerves. Like put your attention in your hand, feel the fingers
in your mind, trace the edges, relax it. You may start to feel tingling sensations. Now you work on doing this for your whole body. I've heard that
once your nerves become well trained, your reflexes increase but so does your sense of boundaries in your environment.
Anyways.. so i can put my attention in my hand put the intention to pull energy/ pull magnetically from say my arm. And I can move this hand up and
down the arm without touching it, and a discomfort / slight pain will follow it. That's from consciously doing to myself.
Imagine what other people's thoughts are doing?
I don't consciously make up sensations that aren't there. We meditators are trying to elminate all perceivable dysfunction all the time. I've spent
much effort trying to smooth out the effects other people have on my sense of "physical / energetic" well being. It would be easier if it was just
a delusion!.
This kind of sense I find diminishes with a few beers in me.
. What i'm trying to say is, i feel like my life of feeling this stuff is a more
heightened sense of SOBRIETY that some may not be used to. Just like are more attentive, discerning, or even mathematically skilled, some are
artistic and free flowing. I just feel more AWAKE.. When people say "wake up". I find they take offense like its a blatant insult of their ignorance
when really i take in the context of the state of their self-awareness. I'm not implying anyone here is "ELITE", just different. Remember, these
people who meditate and such are purposely TRAINING their awareness, you can do the same. Just like you would train at a sport, where I would be
disinterested and wouldn't care. If you focus on training your sense of awareness.. it will be like being MORE AWAKE, more ALERT. The very notion
that energy drinks are supposed to do that I think is ridiculous. I feel useless as hell after one of those and even after a cup of coffee I am making
mistakes and can't focus myself.
If you are more self-aware, you will notice more things, whether they be physical or otherwise. Me personally I don't see the separation.
That being said, man.. people have some serious 2nd chakra issues! Thats ok, I did too. But it always seems to be that I feel, and no i don't have to
try.. if anything I try to avoid it once its noticed. Being around them is like being drained. So even though they aren't purposely causing harm,
they are in a sense.
Also something to consider, people so miserable that they parasitically NEED people around them, they NEED people to do things for them. They need
attention, they need you to make them feel BETTER. These people feel like a walking vortex depending on their mental state. But that's ok, if you
like these people you are willing to deal with it and want them to get better. I've noticed now when I am the parasite. I'll know when an area of
my energy is depleted and walk in a room and feel myself being the one doing the draining, i don't like the idea but what i've just come to
"believe" is that the universe needs its balance, this how it goes about it.
As this cool teacher dude said to be. "The more intention, the more WILL.. you put somewhere, the more GONG.. the more YIN, then the more it will
need to pull YANG to follow it to balance it out." - Talking on the concept of how these Qi Gong masters sort of "fling" attackers away.
anyways. YUP. Awareness is interesting.