Quantum world, hacked brain, or just crazy?

reply to post by TerrorAlertRed


riiight,
like the person who asked, "do you think damaging the car parts is ok?" (or whatever)
..and you don't understand this?
so you probably don't understand how telling the cop "it's only a $20 infraction, sir" only makes a further mockery of the whole situation aswell..


"everyone is exactly where they are meant to be.."

reply to post by UNIT76


OP needs a check-up from the neck up. maybe it's not his fault. I'm sure they said the same thing about Ghengis Khan, adlof hitler and jeffery daumer. do the world a favor. het a check up from the neck up! SOON! if they find anyhing? leaping from the golden gate bridge is fool proof thearapy. just make sure you do it at off peak hours. backing up the traffic is nothing compareted to a total non-waster of human flesh, somone who is a total obamanation, and gives physcotics bad names ! ...

Look you sound like a person who's in trouble and needs help. You'll find people who can help you and people who'll exploit your condition. The key is knowing who to trust and whom not to trust. But you've gotta change your habit of destroying other people's property. C'mon man. That way you'll further distance yourself from people who care.

I go through 3-4 years of being threatened by law enforcement, called crazy and a conspiracy nut by close friends and driven into isolation....and I make one mistake by acting out in a mischievous, destructive way so I'm automatically scum of the earth because of this one incident. I think not. The only time I act out after years of being poked at and I'm judged by this one event. Some people need to look at the bigger picture here...

reply to post by TerrorAlertRed


You were threatened for a reason. It's common for local authority and even citizens to group together to take out what they perceive to be as neighborhood trash.

I can't say exactly what it seems you were doing, as it's against T & C, suffice it to say, you didn't just do one bad thing. You were doing "shady" things by your own admission. You were doing things which were illegal, that could be traced to your computer. Do you realize what kind of things that brings into the minds of the average viewer here on this site? Not cool, man.

Then it's your language. You have no clue how anti-social your views of some things are. It's what you'd find in someone who's taken large doses of meth for a while, and fried specific parts of their brain. You indicate an fMRI showed your brain is messed up, and say it's just from an herbal product? Maybe so, but I have my doubts.

At any rate, you're not thinking clearly, and are viewed as a threat to the community. I'd suggest changing locations, changing your lifestyle, and giving yourself time to change your mindset by taking on prosocial habits/hobbies and eating well.

It's up to you. Do you really want to be viewed this way the rest of your life? Do you want to fight against society, or with it?

I'm having my own struggles as well. 3 weeks sober today. I've chosen to integrate. Nobody here can make that decision for you.

webedoomed
reply to post by TerrorAlertRed

 

You were threatened for a reason. It's common for local authority and even citizens to group together to take out what they perceive to be as neighborhood trash.

I can't say exactly what it seems you were doing, as it's against T & C, suffice it to say, you didn't just do one bad thing. You were doing "shady" things by your own admission. You were doing things which were illegal, that could be traced to your computer. Do you realize what kind of things that brings into the minds of the average viewer here on this site? Not cool, man.

Then it's your language. You have no clue how anti-social your views of some things are. It's what you'd find in someone who's taken large doses of meth for a while, and fried specific parts of their brain. You indicate an fMRI showed your brain is messed up, and say it's just from an herbal product? Maybe so, but I have my doubts.

At any rate, you're not thinking clearly, and are viewed as a threat to the community. I'd suggest changing locations, changing your lifestyle, and giving yourself time to change your mindset by taking on prosocial habits/hobbies and eating well.

It's up to you. Do you really want to be viewed this way the rest of your life? Do you want to fight against society, or with it?

I'm having my own struggles as well. 3 weeks sober today. I've chosen to integrate. Nobody here can make that decision for you.

Never have and never will touch meth so you can definitely throw that out. But I do live in Kentucky which is known as the meth capital of the US and I have a close family member and quite a few people I had contact with that have been involved with the drug for the past 20 or so years, since high school days.

It is pretty easy to spot someone that uses meth that was cooked up in a bathroom with plastic soda bottles. On the other hand, those meth heads that have organized a closely knitted group, use high quality materials, and have a 'prefect' method of processing... as far as I can tell don't show typical indicators of meth users. And its next to impossible for law enforcement to gain entry into the drug ring.

Over the years, in the back of my mind, I did worry I was being 'targeted' for being in contact with some of these people.

And I did find out that I was a suspect for the string of 60 home burglaries. I was profiled.

I have an question:

you said in your 1st post, that you felt beeing watched.


my question is :

have you heard/liked the

music pretty often that time ? has it played alot in the background, or have you even sung it ?

just answer the question please, without blaming anyone or anything yet please. i dont want to start anything against michael jackson.

Hombre
I have an question:

you said in your 1st post, that you felt beeing watched.


my question is :

have you heard/liked the

music pretty often that time ? has it played alot in the background, or have you even sung it ?

just answer the question please, without blaming anyone or anything yet please. i dont want to start anything against michael jackson.

edit on 21/1/2014 by Hombre because: (no reason given)

Lol. I'm not that big of a music buff and I find the song amusing more than anything.

Maybe being watched isn't the correct terminology. More like my online activities and money habits were being monitored...they were keeping tabs on me. I never went around being suspicious of the postman.

TerrorAlertRed
I always felt like he was there to keep an eye on me.... Why? Because I'm no angel by any means. I earned an honest living delivering pizzas to support my online poker addiction as well as other addictions both real world and on the net. Quite a bit of money and some interesting information was flowing through my computer every night when I was online. I always felt like Dave was watching my activities.

How is this not self explanatory?

You were "no angel", had a range of addictions, real world and online, and had a lot of "interesting information" and money flowing through the computer, and yet you're concerned about people who may be hacking into your computer, and think you're wrongly being persecuted?

Are you not seeing how this adds up to you doing things not legal, and maybe so maybe not being particularly watched, and yet the paranoia is real because deep down you know society doesn't accept whatever it is you're doing?

What is not to get?

Either come clean, or live with the paranoia and potential to be harassed by local authorities.

If not meth, it's sounding porn related. Again, I don't want to know.

webedoomed

TerrorAlertRed
I always felt like he was there to keep an eye on me.... Why? Because I'm no angel by any means. I earned an honest living delivering pizzas to support my online poker addiction as well as other addictions both real world and on the net. Quite a bit of money and some interesting information was flowing through my computer every night when I was online. I always felt like Dave was watching my activities.

How is this not self explanatory?

You were "no angel", had a range of addictions, real world and online, and had a lot of "interesting information" and money flowing through the computer, and yet you're concerned about people who may be hacking into your computer, and think you're wrongly being persecuted?

Are you not seeing how this adds up to you doing things not legal, and maybe so maybe not being particularly watched, and yet the paranoia is real because deep down you know society doesn't accept whatever it is you're doing?

What is not to get?

Either come clean, or live with the paranoia and potential to be harassed by local authorities.

If not meth, it's sounding porn related. Again, I don't want to know.

I have changed my ways and behaviors. Back in Nov '09 I did a total 180 and tried to live a better life the right way, but weird events were still happening in my life and they weren't a result of a mental disorder or drug use.

reply to post by TerrorAlertRed


It can take years for the brain to repair.

Stay clean, and try to hop cities.

Best advice I can give you, bro.

I'm struggling, as well. Keep your chin up.

So, here's the problem, someone else brought this up as well.

If you are being targeted, in such a way as you're describing it, it would mean that a coordinated conspiracy, which can be traced all the way up from local police to the FBI and possibly higher, is constantly spying/experimenting/harassing/gangstalking you for no real reason other than your personal chemical habits and an online gambling addiction.

or

You have a case of paranoia, or some form of mental illness.

I know which seems more likely to me. From your writing, you seem like a guy who needs some help. You should seek it, without feeling victimized or anything like that.

*Sigh*.....

a reply to: Mr Headshot

They stole my glasses because they thought they were 'magical'.
Next they'll go for my eyes, which would be a huge mistake.
My secrets are in my mind, and nobody will ever know them.

Where are the cameras? LMAO