I am The Monster, from Eminems song on radio, also I was on the song "Underground" from Eminem ( R

I was just going to my thread to post one last time about last night. I was tired and already criticized twice about religion by you religious. I am tired taking a vacation. Was sleepy when last posted wasn't thinking and ....whatever. WHATEVER I am tired of you super religious trying to ruin my life.

Great more people posted on my thread. I am taken my meds, you know this is a good place for keeping secrets and I guess no one told you two.....about this. Taking a mental wellness day and getting away from all you tin foil hat people.

I am getting back to the two posters who posted. I am fine I take my meds. You can read too much into things and how they are written and what they say.

I am writing in perfect English, to the person who said I wasn't , whatever I forgot it was pages ago. Eloquent . My writings weren't eloquent. I don't spend hours social networking or read everyday. I work from 9-5 . I like to relax when I get off work. Because I was almost KILLED and resemble some vague prophecy people think I committed some " Sky Crime" or something. I am just a normal person. If anyone knows me or of me and remembers old writings " I" never really said or did anything that was all that bad. And people wanted me dead and tried " marching" or something.

I know who I am , I got involved with the government wasn't mentally ill till 5 or 6 years later and it could've been cause of the meds they gave me. I saw them all behind the scenes pulling the strings and I have proof. You had to be there though and I can't really explain it believable ly . I just wanted to come on and say this.

The other day when I was waiting for a bus transfer at the mall, this lady came off the bus and said, " the Theif, your still alive, I won't be at your funeral" just as she was walking buy. So many great gifts I get for coming online and telling my story, when first did say men were trying to get money off of me and coming on to me, and then meet someone who tries touching me when asleep. This is my story from my point of view, and being connected to the Freemason circus. I have seen proof , so no more you're crazy posts or listen to music I provided on YouTube.

I know who I am, I am Sith, like Darth Vaders secret apprentice. The bad guy dressed in black. White and Black Draggoon Dragon Knight, Alyssa, Jason, Freddy, and Pinhead I guess if looking to art with your Third Eye open. At the end of my tenure , I am left alone to reflect. Marilyn Mansons art. The bad one. I said to someone, " the crown of thorns for the bad one and the damnation is problems with women. The first one, born of light, the second one the other side of the coin, the devil wasn't a God so people made his Christ out of blood. I am young and feel like I am going to live forever. At the end of " American Idol". There are people here who know, so maybe ask around if feeling the need to tell me I am crazy. I saw a guy from the government looking up during a press conference in 2008 like all the pieces aligned and was waiting for something. " They" treated me like a slave or a prostitute and cattle and never told me anything. I remember thinking I am not going to be the women if they wanted me to have sex with men for money in the hospital, I don't really care about other people's money. A massive head injury as a child and head spinning and they tried to make me walk the path of the damned through sex and relationships with people. As I wrote in 2008 I think some one said something about Mystery Science Theater 3000 or something, and if a scenario was recreated in the future. I was applying all sorts of breakdown of information into code. I kept thinking what if he knew someone who had a massive head injury. Can struggle to survive in society with deformity. The teachings of the Bible, I saw in a paper Hillary Clinton saying something had been a tradition for 2000 years and she was wearing a wedding ring. I am writing this late at night and smoking.............cigarettes*****. Maybe no one will see this.

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i doubt the dude is illuminati or anything, because the thing is there is no hard proof that illuminati and nwo even exist, there are theories, just like your theory about eminem and theories are like buttholes, everybody has one

I was smoking the other night, I have no idea what the prophecy could've meant, I haven't even read it in years. I have friends who check up on me here , I guess I was just writing to them. Trying to wrap my head around it for years. I remember reading a Bible and it said," Jesus will be at your wedding" and someone I was talking to said what they meant is," Jesus is Lord". There are tons of encryptions over the years planted by the powers that be. I am just trying to get on with my life, the youngest member of the whole illuminati circus. We all created something and caused problems , they messed up my life first.

I remember their was a false prophet and a beast, and someone who survived a near fatal head injury. It was written in colorful way, very descriptive. I don't know what it means. War was waged on me for just showing up, with the circus following me around. Something I had to do when I was young. Someone once told me a friend that his father was a helicopter pilot that the movie " A Perfect Storm" was about.

If I was going to write a book, I met the Virginia Tech shooters family when I was in a hospital. The father said ," I turned on the TV and my son was dead". He wrote a piece of paper then walked away one time and it said," don't be like me". He worked there. I recognize d his brother because I saw him in the paper.

I met the son of the guy who created Sim City, or at least that's what he said. Was saying " he tried to kill himself cause sex hurt so much". I don't know if he was trying to manipulate me in some way or what , seemed like an intelligent kid. He wasn't cool though , tried frontin or posing.

I got jumped by a cop at this psych waiting room, and blacked out . When I was talking to the guy he said we put you on this table and injected you with stuff. Then a helicopter showed up with this lady in fatigues. I knew that room was bugged anyway.

I saw this guy from CNN the first time I was in psych he was up at 10 North with me and walked by laughing saying," I know more about you then you". He was a young guy used to be on in the morning.

Lots of great times being a grunt in the government, go on psych wards and see lots of doubles and doppelgangers planted there and then people who tried to get money off of me by coming on to me. Where oh where does the time go. When your on the outside, act like John Connor and go inside and one time the staff at a hospital tried to set me up with this girl who had AIDS. Fighting to survive so these musicians can belittle me in there songs.

Remember My Chemical Romance in the video for " SING" I think, showed a little kid getting a fake gun......yeah that's what happened. Where's all my money from the inspiration. I went online. WHAT NOW, WHAT NOW, and everything went crazy. Eminem talks on new album he can't be a regular civilian , well I can and I am going to. Stay out of psych and kept down a job for three years.......I can disappear.

LordOfDestruction
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i doubt the dude is illuminati or anything, because the thing is there is no hard proof that illuminati and nwo even exist, there are theories, just like your theory about eminem and theories are like buttholes, everybody has one

I worked inside with the government, with the illuminati and the NWO they are not just theories . SkepticOverlord the site owner has in his avatar, right now at least, don't give into the Beast.
Morpheus is fighting Neo, everybody come quick.:-) I don't know why I came online, maybe just to say my peace. It wasn't going to be long, just wanted to say a few things from my point of view. Being a slave to the government.....I don't think I am coming back. Tried to clean up the mess the illuminati left in another thread, I don't really care. They ruined my life and made me a prostitute so I flipped out and burnt the thing to the ground. Losing my mind in process. This will get buried in old threads and maybe looked upon at people as another John Titor was it John. Whatever. Goodbye and Happy New Year.

NavyDoc

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Why oh why does ATS attract all the nutballs.

Instead of encouraging this behavior, perhaps ATS can get him some help before the voices in his head make him do something terrible.

I honestly believe that people like this need to be institutionalized for the safety of people.

ATS should not encourage people like this.

I agree. It is a liability issue, really. If and when he snaps and hurts someone, this thread may make ATS liable. I'd delete it if I were a mod.

Liability issue ? That's absolutely ridiculous. No matter who anyone talks to or may be influenced by we are all solely responsible for our own actions and the choices we make in life. I can understand that may be a moral issue for some people which is fine, but no one is responsible for your actions but you as well as what you choose to be influenced by.

As far as ATS being sued for the actions of others, you wouldn't have a leg to stand on as per the user agreement.

I am not going to do anything, or Snap. I am under no pressure. And there is a stigma for the mentally ill, meaning bad first impressions. I have schizophrenia I gave to myself after OD ing or taken psychotropic meds I didn't need. I am a productive citizen who works and contributes to society.

I came back on to edit last post. After I went online on Facebook it eventually got around to every one around me. People would criticize me everywhere I go. I said I was exploited and people thought I was antiamerican and a lot of people had a problem with religion. I talked with these people and got feedback. People told me during the past people got killed over religion. I was like what the hell did these people think I said. I showed up at a really bad time I guess.

I don't want to be hit whit shi* everywhere I go, so most people are not going to find out I went online. I also don't want to be a martyr for crazy people. I really like life. Because of project Phoeinix or as I like to call it project " I Kick @ss". I almost died, got stabbed by this kid IN MY LIFE, not the government thing. It was supposed to be like the Truman Show with Jim Carrey. I was supposed to live a normal life and get a girlfriend and never know of the musicians. Because I didn't have a girlfriend after high school the government threw me away. Then I became Neo and fought them and learned Code. They brought me to court and forced injections of meds I didn't need and wasted three years of my time.

The " wardrobe malfunction" , I had a trench coat. Someone said I got molested, the kid who stabbed me. That also wasn't supposed to happen. There was this graduation , I went up there to fight this kid the last day of high school someone said I was going to get jumped. I went home and got weapons and came back and they never showed. So I went up there looking for him. I thought it was in the gym it was on the field , I was really hot in coat and said F it, went home. They called the cops and people saw me up there before my disappearing act. Nothing divine or needing ten years of music following me around. Listen carefully to lyrics if you want.

Got some kind of monster, by Metallica at cd store the other week. Has the Four Horsemen ( live), Leper Messiah ( live) , and some other songs 8 in total. I used to look on the back of CDs at song titles for clues as to what is going on. Some kind of Monster is off of Saint Anger. The songs I listened to them keep saying "you're going to die" or " it's your time" or something like that.

I am the real thing I am not crazy, I gotta take off cause some things are not safe to talk about .

Not going to comment on the content of the OP, but I must say I really enjoy your style of writing.
Got a sort of beat poetry style to it (reminds me of Jack Kerouac), I really enjoy it.

Also if you struggle with mental issues, writing can be a great way of relieving some pressure. Don't know if a public forum is the best though, but if you can handle the feedback and at times mean comments from other members go for it.

Again, love your writing OP.

Take care.

i am jack's raging bile duct.

to me honestly, sounds like a case of schizophrenia, and quite a bit of social anxiety.. getting this caught up seems to be leading you down a very self destructive path.
p.s. big jedi staring to get the creepy rapey frat guy with a roofie vibe... dont feed into this kids dilussions he clearly needs help

I am perfectly fine, I don't need help. It's been a long ten years with things going on and I can't explain in a few pages. I stayed for awhile to show that I am a normal humble person, I thought it might mean something. There are lots of grandiose threads about the anti Christ and the NWO and people refer to scripture and other things. It was just an accident I got stabbed by 8th graders over comics I read and a girl. Then I just happened to be enrolled in CIA service, which I didn't get paid for. It went back to the fifties and three generations in my family and I don't know why I was picked.

After finishing high school it was decided I needed to be silenced while the musicians had a field day with a little help, they didnt need to write their own songs they had a topic to write about. I just got a bunch of Rob Zombie and White Zombie CDs . On this song I think 1000 corpses he says " with this we can discover how it works, I think then, but I am holy too, I am just like you I am holy too". Off of Sinister Urge album. Something like that.

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While the music industry is indeed perverted by a very dark agenda, there is one fact that people are continuously misunderstanding.

The "artists" are NOT the illuminati nor are they in the illuminati.

They are, however, being USED by the illuminati.

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Yes, I was just watching this Nicky Minaj DVD that came with a 3 cd set of her new album Roman Reloaded I think. In the DVD she was talking to little Wayne and using double talk saying " him" when he was right next to her. Saying the " president ", and I talk differently to you then I would " prince".
There are things people aren't allowed to talk about.

I liked her album , first song ," take your medication roman, go on a short vacation roman". It was good but I thought her first album was like every song is a single.

My grandfather was in the Air Force and contacted by the government in the 50s. In Behold a Pale Horse the author says this is a very old idea they shouldn't of went through with. I have to look for clues, that might make sense and might not. Like the movie National Treasure where a treasure map is signed in invisible ink on the back of the Declaration of Independence. The treasure was moved around for centuries I think. If since the 50s the powers that be had an idea to mess around with. Or the Terminator series, killer cyborgs from the future come back to assassinate the people's leader by getting to his mom or him when he is younger. If you start thinking where these ideas come from or if heavy symbolism is used or subliminals. I don't know just a thought.

For some reason my food stamps aren't working. I was supposed to get them on the 3rd and I didn't this month. Called EBT hotline and my account is 0.00 , probably the powers that be cause I came here. Talk about things you're not supposed to talk about. My family sort of needs them , we are just getting by as it is. I make about 500$ working full time off the books a month. The government probably crippled me or almost killed me to go along with their space opera. Do you think anyone's is listening? Well we just want to make sure. No it was just a coincidence that was covered up.

Why don't we have some more multi-million dollar movies or music that can say I am gay or I get to play the role of a " girl" . Like Da Vinci Code, he even said in the second movie his first book was about the illuminati. Or Meaning of Life by Monty Python coming out before I was born. They got one scene where police try to find this guys missing " leg" and in the brush two guys are wearing a tiger costume, and singing a song about his missing leg or something. I guess you had to see it to know what I am talking about. Please the space opera isn't over , come steal from me and my mom some more and then don't pay us and blame all the worlds problems on me personally.

I had a bad weekend and some problems with my last thread that was deleted. I want to follow all the rules and sorry I got a bit off topic or sidetracked if any one read it. I was dealing with pressures in my life from some people I used to know , and I am going to cut off all ties with them if they don't stop. After some careful reflection. I also got reprimanded by staff and was thinking I better not mess up again or I won't be allowed to be a member here.

I was listening to Eminems last 3 CDs a lot recently , looking for anything I could use as evidence of subliminals. Not really the whole albums but parts of them. I was contacted by the government ....sort of screwed over for awhile and locked up because they had some sort of stupid problem with me. So I rebelled and got all or most of my answers, they treated me like less than a human being or lesser of a person who doesn't need to know things and could be left oblivious.

In 2005 I was asking questions about a song by Eminem. He says don't bring my name up or something on an album. " if" he was talking to me that would be an inside joke I guess. In 2008 I went online with a bunch of songs asking questions and people "decided" I was trying to do something else. I was talking about my point of view from my perspective. Now Eminem is on his " Rapture" tour . He might have been forced to do certain things like it was his " duty" or something.

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So! You ARE ADMITTING you're on meds! I knew it...

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Eminem is Illuminati and part of the New World Order.

Really, cool cant wait to see him at the next meeting (behind closed doors obviously)

He mentions the NWO on a song " Lose Yourself" .

OMG I mentioned the NWO in a post once, I hope I didn't give too much away.

Other musicians and skilled artists or workers are being made by the Government to follow an old possibly Freemason or Illuminati goal.

Yes, not Freemason however.

We play cricket against them at our annual get together with other societies.

My story has not yet been really made public, I was thinking of trying to get a book deal and try to make some money .

We make the money, you can earn it if we allow you to.

About a spy from the government, who was wronged by the rich and powerful and had his life pulled apart and driven to madness under the pressure of trying to survive.

sorry mate this story has been told numerous times, numerous movies and tv shows have also been made about this story.

It's not a book and may never be , but I wanted to share what I know with anyone who will listen.

So share away, why wait and not put your story in your OP?