Spiritual 'block' - seeking advice

Text YellowI have been someone who has had fairly constant but gradually increasing, what I would call, spiritual experiences since I was in my mid twenties ( am now 39) . These experiences are very personal to me and I am not comfortable discussing them with others in ' real life' , apart from my long suffering husband! It's just that in the last few weeks, just as I am feeling ready to come to terms that spiritual occurrences are in fact real not my imagination and try to embrace the contact I have, suddenly - nothing!

To explain as briefly as I can my experiences started years ago - the defining moment was on loosing my beloved dog who used to wander off every now and then. Basically, he was gone for hours and I almost gave up hope of finding him after much searching in my car around the neighbourhood. I was sat at home when I got an overwhelming urge to get in my car again. It was dusk and it was almost as if someone were in my head telling me 'turn left', ' now right' and just for the hell of it I followed the guidance and there he was in front of me on some park land!

This is the jist of what happens to me - I get urges, not actual voices but strong thoughts that I have learned not to ignore. If I tap into these voices and ask them guidance, I get it, from finding a parking space to many other more specific occurrences that literally made me shake with shock when they happen - as you can gather I am quite a reluctant believer in spiritual matters but sometimes they just bowl me over!

Just to give a clear picture, I also, since age 17 ish, have had dreams of people who pass away at the time they pass away - sometimes people I know, sometimes not - I may have just heard of them. I have very vivid dreams of friends and relatives who died, sometimes with messages involved, sometimes not. I am a nurse and I have also come to have a sense for someone dying as in if death is imminent - even if it does not appear so at the time.
To highlight one case, I was called in by a nursing agency one night shift to look after a man in his home who was terminally I'll but by no means expected to die before a few weeks. His doting and exhausted family were doing shifts by his bedside and as everything was stable and uneventful with the patient, I sent them to get some sleep. In the middle of the night, I don't know how or why but I swear I got a hugely strong urge to wake the family so they could say goodbye to the patient. I wrestled with myself about this because I risked looking like a real idiot if I woke them up for no reason, but I just could not shake the feeling and so woke them. Not long after the patient began cheyn- stoking, or taking laboured breaths, and within a couple of hours he was gone.
I learned pretty soon to respect those urges.

This really is the tip of the iceberg with what I have experienced.

My problem now is - something seems to be going on spiritually for me. I am ready to try to connect with whatever with me. I once had a vivid and unforgettable dream of my guide / guardian angel at a time of huge emotional turmoil in my life. If this is what is happening to me, ie I have a guide, I would like very much to connect with him/ her/ it.
I have tried to meditate. I find it very hard to focus and usually fall asleep or just can't quieten my thoughts.
I havevtried asking whatever it is around me to show me themselves. I need and am ready to have evidence of whatever is happening to me to prove to me this is real. I guess without this, the stubborn sceptic within me refuses to shut up!
But - nothing. The last few weeks I have not remembered any dreams. I usually see flashes / shadow like fleeting objects in my peripheral vision that disappear when I turn suddenly. In the last few weeks, again, nothing.

I have also felt very low in my mood, something not common for me, very tired and no motivation. It might be worth mentioning I take a low dose of Prozac for post natal depression and am happily stable on that. But All of this seems to come hand in hand with the spiritual block I am experiencing.

I feel I don't know where to turn or what I need to do to connect with the experiences I have. I am, as it were,
lost in a spiritual sense!
I hope I have the correct forum and would so greatly appreciate the wisdom of anyone who feels they can advise me!
Thanks for reading if you made it through ! X

reply to post by Lovely1973


Hey! I'm sorry to hear that you feel lost

I think you shouldn't make any distinguishes between what you perceive as "spiritual" and what you think of as "real". Perhaps the problem lies in that you think too much about your spirituality. Try to detach yourself from it. If you get one of these urges, just let it come, observe it and try not to analyze it. Also, you're already connected with your spirit guide; you don't have to make an effort to connect to her/him. You should try to "go with the flow" without stopping to think about it, and in this way the blockage that you feel will float away and you'll be filled with life and clarity

Hi Lovely

First, welcome to ATS. It's a great place.

Now. Don't worry. Your not blocked or cut off. I'd like you to turn on the world news and check out what's going on all over! Not just the wars, earthquakes, outbreaks, flooding, things going boom! It's not gone, it's just busy. You've stated your stable - I think you'll be okay until everything settles back to a more balanced state.

I too these past few weeks have felt the ebb and shift. When it's always around and your aware - you feel it when it moves away - when it's tasked to more urgent matters and focused points. There are lot of prayers for assistance going around right now. You aren't blocked or cut off - the energy is redirected for maximum benefit to those who need it most right now. You can benefit this energy and it's work - by sending your own energy out in assistance. (Most do this in the form of prayers or devotions.)

Just hang in there, continue with your practices - and when things settle down you will see. The universe is much more connected - and we with it - than most can imagine!

Blessings,
Cirque

Perhaps you are experiencing "the dark night of the soul". It's real. Mother Teresa even experienced it. Many spiritual seekers go through it. Google the phrase and see if perhaps this is what you are going through. Best wishes.

reply to post by CirqueDeTruth
Hi Cirque - thanks for your reply and what you said actually makes lots of sense. I've been addicted to the news in the last week or so, especially with the Boston events etc. You are absolutely right, it's a time of great tribulation for many and the Universal consciousness, while a fairly new concept for me, is something I've been studying a lot about recently and believe in wholeheartedly - so your reply struck quite a chord with me in that respect.

I guess I'll hang on in there. I also can't shake this feeling I am here ( in the Mid East - near so much trouble) to DO something. I don't know for the life of me what it is. All I can do for now is pray.

Thanks so much for your time x.

i've read this in a couple of places, obviously not mainstream, that the entities classicly known as archons, or even reptillians (spirit like ones, not actual lizards) are suposedly leaving this plane of existence at this general time.
i've got no links or hard info at all for you.
but here is a general description of what i am talking aboutlink
possibly enough of us have made peace with them and they have moved on?

reply to post by Funafuti

Oh I wish I could stop analysing! I drive myself crazy! I come from a family where this type of thing, spirituality, is dismissed as nonsense and that attitude is somewhat inherent in me! However I know for sure it is real!
I felt a strong urge to be living where I am now, in the Middle East, and I am among more spiritual people who think more like me so I am learning to go with this....I guess I am a die hard sceptic inside that needs proof!

Thankyou for replying, I will try to go with it a little more. X

reply to post by queenofswords


Wow! Thank you. I googled this and obviously there's lots to read but two things immediately struck me -

- deconditioning from the ideals of the Western world which is self and ego centred, plus

- realisation that the ego demands instant gratification and proof from spiritual matters

I have a lot to read! I wouldn't dare to be presumptuous enough to say that this is definitely what I am going through but I do know that this detachment and lethargy that I feel seem to be on quite a deep level.

I can't thank you enough, L x

reply to post by Lovely1973


Whatever you do, do NOT take Prozac. The main ingredient in that drug is flouride and flouride is really nasty stuff. Anti depressants are just going to help to cut you off from anything spiritual. TPTB have been doing it for decades to an ignorant public by lacing the water with flouride to make us docile and numb.

reply to post by Lovely1973


Cast into the world in the physical machine we know as the human body, we all arrive about the same. But as time goes on... with a lot depending on our childhood environment and certain beliefs we are exposed to, different parts of the connection between the physical and the spiritual begin to grow and evolve.

My personal feeling is that we should embrace that which we seek and accept that which we experience. This is not to suggest that we should venture down darkened paths on whim but, rather, try and expand our ability to understand all that which is around us both from without and within.

It is easy to turn away and, on the flip, often even easier to gallop ahead. But, in the end, it is all part of the curriculum, learning as we go.

Well #1 you are very intuitive.
I'm glad to see a woman of science, listen to those urges.
Seems like they have served you well so far.

#2 you are about to turn 40.
Blow that off as many do, but there is no escaping
that this is no trivial event.
Ask me how I know, haha..

#3 as another poster said you are not alone.
There is a disturbance in the force for sure.
Many people are feeling it, especially ones as sensitive as you.

My thought is we as people, are at a cross roads.
We can continue to work tirelessly for the profit of those at the top
and continue buying more crap that we don't need OR we can start;
Living.. A garden,some solar panels and an artistic outlet will be the
name of the game in the future . Family & Friends.

I truly believe a lot of the restlessness we feel is because subconsciously
we know we can't keep this 24 years of school and 50 years of work then dying thing,
going much longer.

Your lucky you have such great gifts .

I think Funafuti offered some great advice - just go with the flow so to speak - flow literally.
I think a lot of people feel similar things - it may be that we are all beginning to question our personal values - material things etc which we once held dear now appear - well pretty much inane and useless. Trivial things which used to seem oh so important - well they don't fit so great either - do they? All this can lead to a feeling of detachment from the world we believed we had built around us.

Best wishes

reply to post by Lovely1973

My problem now is - something seems to be going on spiritually for me. I am ready to try to connect with whatever with me.

Patience is the virtue that in the end will pay off. If it is meant to be, it will be. But not when you expect it, not when you want it, but when you are ready, and it is meant to be.

Besides waiting for something that may never come to reality, consider this, it has already happened. If you have a heart that vibrates, then you are already there.

In any case, enjoy life the best you can, with what you have, and no more can be asked of you, whether you connect, or not.

Here is to your dream.

reply to post by Lovely1973


I am sorry to hear that you feel "cut off" from your (shall we say) spirit guide.

What struck me about your OP is that you indicated that this guide was there for you when you needed it, or when you asked for help in the past, You seem to have reached a point where you feel a desire to connect with this guide, but, from what I see in your post you haven't asked yourself if you need to.

In every other experience that you indicated, the guide was there out of need. Whether it was your need or someone else's.

Your desire is a need as well, but you have to ask yourself what is at the root of that desire? What type of need is it?

But, it could be much simpler than that.
Every time you have connected, for your personal need you have asked, but help was only given when you really needed it. Now that you are attempting to connect, and that isn't the same as asking for help, or asking for answers and solutions. It's asking for interaction, not directions.

Connection is a mutual desire.

Think about how you "connect" with people and the reasons why you connect with them. You don't connect with anyone until they are ready to connect with you, and you with them. The invitation must be there, and it must be mutual for a connection to take place.

The most effective way to make a connection with someone is to let them know that you are ready to connect with them.

Keep this in mind the next time you ask for a connection.


Try this simple statement that puts all of what I have written above in a single statement and request:

I want to connect with you, and when you are ready I am open to receiving you.

reply to post by Lovely1973


Hey lovely1973,

maybe you all went through this, so you would make this thread here, so I would be able to read it, and I did.

I hope life will be whatever you want it to be (again), from now on. Don't mind, it was just a short 'loss of ability'. You'll be up in no time.

Sincere!

reply to post by Angle

You'll be up in no time.

I hope your interpretation of "no time" is not the angelic, no time. That could be billions of years lol lol

Originally posted by sealing
Well #1 you are very intuitive.
I'm glad to see a woman of science, listen to those urges.
Seems like they have served you well so far.

Nursing has taught me many HUGE lessons in life - lessons I will remember for ever and have definitely shaped who I am now and to some extent where I am now. It seems these lessons go hand in hand with the increase in the intuitive experiences I have.

#2 you are about to turn 40.
Blow that off as many do, but there is no escaping
that this is no trivial event.

Thanks for reminding me! I only have one more week of being in my thirties! Not easy when you still think you are 25! Am definitely planning to ignore this birthday!

Materialism and being happy with what I've got are quite big challenges for me, something I am addressing and I think I am being led to address also. There has to be more to life than what we own and the daily grind, as you rightly said.
Thanks so much for your reply.

L x

reply to post by Angle

Ah! So that's the reason Angle!
What can I say? Am truly honoured that you read my post!

Am sure I'll be up and running again in no time!



Thanks x

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