posted on Jan, 2 2013 @ 08:50 PM
My whole life I'be felt old, older than my peers, older than my elders. I'm not religious, I walked away from religion years ago, I don't believe
in Hindu, yet reincarnation is about the closest I can come to explaining things in my life that I can't bring myself to understand. My whole life
has been a never ending battle, I feel like I've been around for too long without rest. It feels as if I lived one life and died, but instead of
getting a chance to rest I was thrown right into another body. Like as if I've been forced to lived two or more consecutive lifetimes. One thing that
might be considered odd, as it confused my parents, is I was born giving the world the finger. When I came out my dad said I came out flipping the
bird right at the doc. I asked him why he thought it was weird being as many babies have a finger sticking out or something, but he said it was a
perfect bird, unmistakable every finger was folded just so even my thumb, he said the doc was caught off guard, like as if I was angry. Another odd
thing is my parents said I was a good baby, I barely cried, I was quiet. As a child I was oddly mature in many ways, I acted older, I respected my
teachers, respected my fellow students, I knew things like cooties weren't real, I was nothing short of strange. I've always been the thinking type,
instead of paying attention in school, I taught myself most of it. Most people my age have thoughts clogged with getting drunk and acting like apes,
but mine are sophisticated, anything from how the big bang theory is incomplete to how one could seperate ones possible soul from their body. Alas, I
digress
The reason I'm asking myself this is, I feel as if I've not only lived a past life, but dozens maybe hundreds all consumed with war. I feel like war
is part of me, it's my calling, my fate. It's hard to put it into words but it's like as if youve done something so many times that it becomes
second nature. And even if you lost all memory of it you'd always find your way back. I'm not a vet but yet I feel like I am, the thought of combat
doesn't scare me, instead it feels like its the one thing I should be doing. I feel old older than my peers, older than my elders, I talk to people
my own age as if their much younger than I.
One time I read an article about 'ancient souls' I never gave it much thought until one day I was had a conversation with my father. He doesn't
usually take me seriously ( not that I blame him) but he at least humors me. My dad is a skeptic, I can't even convince him that ghosts exist. I've
never told him about any of this, not even scratched the topic, which is why I why I was utterly shocked when one day he randomly said " maybe you
have one of those "ancient souls" I was just telling him some phosophical thought I had, I just played dumb and asked him where he heard of that. He
said that I sounded like my uncle, who supposedly always acted a lot older than he was. I just left it at that, I dunno where he learned the concept
but I surprised me that he was serious, I thought he was being sarcastic.
I dunno if reincarnation is real or not but it makes more sense than none. Maybe you guys can offer some sort of explaination, I know theirs no
evidence to support the belief but I'm open to whatever opinions that can be tossed in. I know ats isn't really the place for this sort of thing but
I'd rather consult this site than pay some con 150 bucks to tell me I was a magic leprechaun in another life. I'd rather hear honest opinions than
con jibberish. I apologize in advance for this thread jumping all over topic. As I'm typing this on a rather unreliable iPod that won't let me
scroll up to see what I already wrote without deleting it.