21/12/2012 (12/21/2012) is anything strange happening to you on the countdown to the end?

reply to post by Chamberf=6


Don't worry..all of us "new-agers" will have the urge to throw our breakables around on the 22nd and then you can have your ATS back.

reply to post by NarcolepticBuddha


You seem to have had a hell of a year also. The anonymity of ATS can really help to get things off your mind. That is what I am trying to get at with this thread. Whether you believe that the world will end on the 21st or not is not that important, but I do believe that this year alone is changing a lot of people, and judging by what you have all said it is not for the worse either it is infact for the better.

I can really empathise with you all.

reply to post by Chamberf=6


nice save!

(on topic a couple of nights ago I found myself lying on the couch speaking aloud, to no one in particular:

"I am ready to go. take me now", etc,etc. there was no reply.

maybe I am just being a drama queen, but i feel like I am about to break.

Reply to chamberf

Have you not noticed any fundamental changes in your life recently???

Originally posted by tgidkp
reply to post by Chamberf=6

 

nice save!

(on topic

a couple of nights ago I found myself lying on the couch speaking aloud, to no one in particular:

"I am ready to go. take me now", etc,etc. there was no reply.

maybe I am just being a drama queen, but i feel like I am about to break.

You are not going to break. You are stronger than you think. You did get an answer: no one took you; it wasn't your time. Just my two cents worth.

Originally posted by chelsealad
reply to post by NarcolepticBuddha

Have you not noticed any fundamental changes in your life recently???

Edit: I guess this quote wasn't directed at me--disregard

Of course I have--read my posts in this thread. If you're still not convinced then feel free to look up all my posts and threads that drone on and on about all the miraculous changes I've witnessed in my life.

I was just batting the ball back to a non-believer. I can still be nice and laugh with people who I disagree with, right?

Originally posted by olaru12
reply to post by chelsealad

 

Sorry about your string of bad luck.

I don't think it's the "end" but certainly global changes are going to manifest in the near future.

I have noticed a change in my animals. They seem to be shivering a lot even though the weather is very mild.

Synchronicity events are on a huge upswing.

I hear a constant rumbling sound, nonlocalized, some of my friends hear it but some don't.

I'm resolved to live one day at a time, make life a big party with more love making, dancing, drinking, playing music and being thankful for the blessings around me!

When and if the SHTF............I'm ready

Yes the rumbling sound has really increased the last couple of days. I hardly mention because it seems to really piss certain people off.

I agree with your approach to all of this. Live, laugh, and love.

subjectively, right now, to me the days seem to last a little longer. same 24 hours per day as per usual, measured on the clock, yet i feel as if time has begun to pass ever so imperceptibly slower recently (or at least it feels that way to me).

Originally posted by chelsealad
Reply to chamberf

Have you not noticed any fundamental changes in your life recently???

edit on 4-12-2012 by chelsealad because: Replied to wrong post

Nope.
Sure haven't.

Im calm nowadays, less easily agitated by things not going to plan. I read a poster mentioning the days going slower but to me its the opposite. Day to day, week to week seems to go past in the blink of an eye. I used to be easily bored but now I dont have the time to be bored yet seem to be doing nothing.

One thing I have noticed is that so many of my friends and people in my area, as well as hundreds of people on social networking sites are complaining of not sleeping well, or not sleeping at all. This is interesting because those who mention it have never mentioned 21/12 and probably dont recognize its importance.

As regards changes to work routines or jobs, I work for myself and am kept busy.

The past year has been a toughy. A year ago this month I had gone to a holiday gathering. I had a couple of drinks and dinner. I left early because I had to take my kids to meet their dad for the holiday break and it was going to be 6 hour drive there and then back. On the way home I was going to top off my gas tank. I went to pull into the gas station and ended up in the wrong lane. Had a head on collision. Totaled my car. I was so confused when the police showed up, I kept asking "why is she in my lane?" I was arrested for DUI. Come to find out I had actually had a stroke. Didn't know it til a couple days later. Regardless, I had had a couple drinks. I was charged and convicted of DUI. I no longer had a car. I now had fines to pay, court fees, etc. Had to take a course which was $600...all together it cost me about 4 grand when all said and done.

At the end of December I ended a 6 year relationship. Things just weren't going well. I felt like my kids would be better off with out me. I had no car, live in the middle of no where, my relationship was over, child support was not coming in very steady...I was screwed! With tears of complete defeat, I got my gun out. I sat there with it loaded and ready to go. Just as I was about to the pull the trigger I heard a voice tell me "put the gun away". I finally did and cried myself to sleep.

The next day some thing happened. I felt a peace. I didn't feel that life was so bad. I started reading things I had never considered before. I started playing around with energy, as in Reiki or energy healing. I was so fascinated with this ability. After weeks of reading and learning about energy I started helping people who had aches/pains/discomfort. And they would comment on the relief/heat/tingling they felt. Eventually, I started my own practice. I love what I do. I love helping people. I volunteer now for Hospice. I may not have much, but I have never been so at peace and so happy. I don't let life stress me out. It's all about giving. Helping others where you can. I could have ended my life that evening...I am so glad I didn't!

From previous replies I read I wanted to add that my dog has been shivering even in this mild weather. Very strange. All the kids noticed it as well.

I and 2 of kids have noticed a high pitch frequency that rings in our ears. I. at times, have had not only the high pitch but also a low . "drumming" type sound as well.

Namaste

I have a ringing in my head going on that I noticed in the last two months. I say head because it is not my ears ringing. It is a high pitched non stop frequency. I can go on about my life just fine and sleep fine. It is just so strange.

I keep having a deeper feeling of detaching from all social aspects of my life and have had this feeling of needing to get in tune with my true self. Been doing meditation and a lot of studying on books that have to do with self growth and consciousness.

The world and all the current events as well as the weather is proof that some change is happening. Forgive me for not having the resources but I read that even the other planets have been heating up in our system. So what ever is happening is universal.

As for synchronicity and dreams I have been having very lucid dreams and have been writing them down. In one dream I was with my husband and two of our friends that are married. We were sitting on the edge of the Grand Canyon (a place that is very healing and peaceful to me). My friend slipped into the canyon that was suddenly full of fast moving water up to the rim. It was pure panic and terror as I thought she was going to die. Then a strange man grabbed her and pulled her to safety. All ended up being OK.

I emailed her my dream the next day and it turned out she was having skin cancer removed and ended up being OK.

The last two weeks I keep seeing serpents. In dreams. In random images everywhere in my day to day life. Not sure if it is a fluke but it feels important.

I don't know. I don't have the answers. No one does. But trusting your gut is the best thing a person can do. Mine tells me something is going on. And that is is moving fast. I hope we are all just overreacting. I really do.

Humanity as a whole is heading down the wrong path and I only hope 2013 brings a new awareness of living a more self sustainable life that nurtures the earth. If it is not Dec 21st it will surely be in the future if we keep on living this way.

reply to post by summer5


Your story really spoke to me... Last december, I too got in trouble for driving without insurance and my license got revoked because it was the 3rd time in 5 years.. I was unemployed by the post office and have not been able to pay alot of bills.. I can't find a job to save my life.( overqualified/underqualified) I have been very desperate and taking loans I cannot repay. The court and fines cost me over 1500 that i'm still making payments on. I'm not getting child support at all, I had to go on assistance which depressed me like nothing in this world.. When I mention the high frequency tones people look at me like i've lost my mind or i'm undiagnosed with tinnitus. Still I have some hope that it means nothing but that this year is almost over and my bad luck is up and only good things for next year.

reply to post by chelsealad


Well, things aren't exactly great in this wee country at the moment, (BTW spent many a great night playing in the Crown and elsewhere in the 'point), and can be depressing for a number of reasons. What you are describing though is something that we are all subject to, and not a good idea to mix reality with imagination, stuff happens, but I hope your Mum, and yourself will be okay.

I have been feeling a sense of calm lately. Like everything is going to be alright. Things that used to bother me, don't bother me as much anymore.

I had a physically and emotionally abusive past. Only within the past few days have I been able to push my way passed it, and finally start to heal. I believe that my motivation for this change is the fact that I must look passed myself, and look into the world as a whole. Earth needs healing, and looking into the past isn't going to help.

But I have also felt negative side effects as well. I have been feeling more sick lately. Nausea, headaches, aches and pains. I'm not sure what it means, but I would love to know if others have felt like this as well.

Light and Love

reply to post by gnosticagnostic


Hugs to you! You will be fine. I know how hard it is raising children with no child support coming in, it SUCKS. However, we will get through this. Know that you are not alone. I know some days are tougher than others and its easier said than done to stay positive, but there is only UP from here, right?


I am still paying off my mess too. Still no support coming in. I am lucky to be using my sons car, still have not been able to replace mine. Electric and internet are way over due, my clothes dryer is not working very well, my heat pump crapped out on me (glad its not too cold)...BUT life is GOOD. I will not worry about tomorrow today. My 4 daughters are learning that life is what we make it. We could look at what we do not have, or what we do have. We have each other, we have love, we have a roof over our heads, food in the cabinets, our health, and we have love....that's more than some families have who have more money and material things than we do.

One saying that always comes to mind when things look bad....if everyone threw all their problems in a pile and you could take anothers problems...you would want yours back. It's not as bad as we think. It's how we deal with it that matters.

Things have been going downhill for about 5 years, this year really bad. Depression at an all time high. I am a firm believer in karma and fairness. But karma seems to be punishing the good while the bad go happily along. My mom always said we live in the alternate world where greed is good and honesty etc is bad. I am beginning to believe her.

This world and humans generally suck, my eyes are more open to this everyday.

Also I have had a constant gnawing pit in my stomach for the last 3 months or so, I usually only get it for a few minutes to a few hours before something unusual, good/bad happens.......like an accident or a big hit on a slot machine. But this time it hasn't stopped. Weird.

Originally posted by tgidkp
reply to post by Chamberf=6

 

nice save!

(on topic

a couple of nights ago I found myself lying on the couch speaking aloud, to no one in particular:

"I am ready to go. take me now", etc,etc. there was no reply.

maybe I am just being a drama queen, but i feel like I am about to break.

My girlfriend and I had a similar experience, like it's all too much. We talked and decided that we've had enough. Not suicidal or anything, more like how can we change what we see out there everyday for the better.

We are both coming to terms with the fact that we wouldn't want to bring a child into the world with the way the world is. So much greed and propaganda and destruction and how many more ands do I need to add?this is unfortunate as we used to feel like we never would want kids, but now nature is kicking in I guess.

All quiet on the western front...but the wife is acting a bit strange.

Originally posted by timetothink

But karma seems to be punishing the good while the bad go happily along. My mom always said we live in the alternate world where greed is good and honesty etc is bad. I am beginning to believe her.

I feel EXACTLY this same way. At one point I was really heavy into researching principles like karma, dharma, moksa etc

If I recall and understand correctly, karma doesn't exactly enact its effects on this particular, current lifetime based on what we do in this lifetime. Rather, karma is the culmination of many lifetimes and deeds. Some believe that if they do a good deed today it will be rewarded next week, or at a time when they need good fortune. The sages have always insisted that karma's effects are beyond the scope of anyone to see and know. It is a giant, woven tapestry in which no individual or deva (demi-god) can see its full picture.

I believe this "alternate universe" feeling is asking us to make a choice. We must choose goodness and righteousness without the benefit of being rewarded for it. It eliminates any disingenuous efforts.

It is not in this lifetime that the good/evil deeds of this particular lifetime will be addressed. We are here to answer for the past, I think. What we feel in this life is the result of past karmic effects. One must continue to choose righteousness no matter what the cost; that is the lesson, I believe.

Otherwise we'd just end up finding ourselves doing good with expectation of fulfilling our personal, selfish desires.

The bad/evil have made their choice and see no immediate consequence. Likewise, the good make their choice and see no immediate reward. Karma will work itself out, but it isn't really our business or privilege to see its full effects. Some view karma as a dynamic system that achieves equilibrium when the lessons are learned and the wrongs are righted. Some view karma as a kind of bank account where good and bad deeds add up to a net gross which accounts for our future experience.

I have been kicked around quite a bit in this life, but I still continue to believe that we must just be patient and continue to choose what we know to be right in our hearts. Would you do evil if it was rewarded, or if it appeared to lack a consequence? Please answer, "No."

(sorry that I can't cite my sources here. Those books are numerous and tucked away in my bookshelf. Much of this post is blended with my own speculation as well.)