Was there a certain event, or experience that you remember that you believe altered how you thought

Hi all, what I am trying to say is that it could be something like watching ants, or bumping into someone and they treated you well, it could be the smile on there face.
I am curious.
I don't like seeing people angry, I grew up in a very angry enviroment, I could have grown up angry but I'm mostly calm, and patient.

Children are reflections of there parents, I am not.

Could it be genetics?

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I grew up in an angry zone. Its not genetics its just being exposed to the wrong enviroment most of the time. The only way forward is ahead, and accept whats good and reject what is bad for you.

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Hi AthlonSavage, so what made you reject bad, do you know how you determined bad was not for you?
It seems like a silly question.

Not that I can remember, I have always been strange! Hehehe! Well, compared to my brother and sister!

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Lol, not strange unique.

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Hi AthlonSavage, so what made you reject bad, do you know how you determined bad was not for you?
It seems like a silly question.

Bad is like being around angry people, like feeling bad in health, like seeing yourself in a stagnent situation with no avenue for advancement. What we all all need in life is a compass that points to Evil. Least then we know without doubt places and people to avoid. Does that make sense?

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Yes you make a lot of sense. thank you.

Ok, I'll be serious! The only factor that I can think of is that I had a father who drank and was very unpleasant, to say the least, in that condition. I knew that I didn't want to be like him and I will never be! But even as a child and I am a good couple of decades past childhood, I was interested in the weird and the wonderful and the downright bizarre. ESP, Ghosts, Telepathy, Esoterica etc, but my sister and brother are both just "normal people" when compared to me!

ETA: I agree with AthlonSavage!

I heard my name called, but no one was there. It was clear as day and I only heard it in one ear as the other was on the pillow. It altered how I thought about the paranormal. I wasn't a disbeliever before I just had no intrest in it at all. Since gaining an intrest though, I notice things I would pay no attention to before.

I had an experience at around age 8 which did not change how I thought, but made me realise how I thought and felt.

The experience is immaterial but it made me reaslise I am without emotion, I only display faux emotions which others wished to see or to gain an outcome I require.

My background is stable and wealthy, my parents truly wonderful; I believe I take closely after my father who is now deceased though I've always felt I was slightly more defunct of emotion than even he.

When president kennedy was assassinated.... the country and world changed ... became a much darker place after that...

I have an endless number of important moments, which were point of profound change or revelation in my mind.

One of those I can share didn't actually happen because of an event ouside, but what is funny about it is that it was so striking for me, I remember exactly what I was doing at that moment-

I was in my car, backing out of my driveway.
I suddenly hit the brakes hard because my mind had been turning, an inner narrative was analyzing certain ideas that I had come to realize lately and it hit this insane moment of realization that there is no good or evil.

I remember I gasped outloud, braked, and began to ask myself outloud, "How can that be? What does that mean? That can't be so!"

It was like jumping off a cliff without a security net- at least that is what it felt like. With time, this conception began to become clearer and I got used to it and realized it wasn't as horrific as I thought- in fact it was a real opening into true joy and appreciation of the world.
But all that, just in backing out of my driveway.

My earliest years were in a violent and chaotic home, but it isn't true that kids are a reflection of their parents. In many cases, generations swing from one extreme to another because they end up the opposite. In the case of aggressive hostility and abuse, the children often end up repressed, introverted, tending towards submission, passivity.

Often their ego could not properly form with the exagerrated oppression. We develop our ideas of good and bad upon what we experience and whether we found it pleasurable or not. You could just change the words to "desireable" and "undesireable" .
What you find as you get older is that often we catagorized things according to experiences that were limited in scope.

A good example you can find is the belief that "aggressivity" is bad. That was in response to negative aggressivity. As we get older and experience more things, we eventually come to the realization that aggressivity has a good side to it- that not only feels good, but can be beneficial for others too!

Like in a sport, when you get a wind of aggressivity to beat your last performance and od better,
or to overcome a challenge or difficulty. These can be very constructive forms of aggression.

All is relative. We are always learning.

For me it was magic mushrooms. After that first trip I knew I'd never be the same again.

meeting a black guy named wane in highschool changed my life.
i grew up in a rural area where there were only white people.
i woke up one day at the age of 12,and knew i had changed somehow.
now wane introduced me to punk rock, and that changed my whole outlook on life!
even to this day! and i'm glad for it. it helps me see truth.
i took wane to my house after school one day,and i didn't tell my folks he was black. i din't think it important.
well,the look of surprise on my parents faces was priceless!
it all worked out good though.
i haven't seen wane in about 30 years,and i often wonder what he's up to,and if he realizes how much
he had an affect on me.
probably not!
but hey,i'm not complaining!
cheers

I've told this story before, but it's well worth repeating.
I was riding the bus home after a very gut wrenching day. I was so emotional that I couldn't hold back the tears.
A homeless man got up to get off at the next stop, and he saw me crying.
He turned and said to me... " I'll give you my smile if you'll stop crying. Look at me, I've got nothing else, but I'll give you my smile if it will make you happy. "
So I smiled at him.
THAT was one of the most profound light bulb moments of my life.
this man truly had nothing but the clothes on his back and the small backpack he carried. I should be thankful for what I do have because someone else is still happy with far less.
That small gesture from a stranger will stick with me my entire life.

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Amagydala fear overload that started a spiritual seek mode in my brain that resulted in answer from other side and an instantly opened crown chakra and third eye that was scratching. It is hard to belive that something more do not exist when you can feel the ONENESS and know that something on the other side is listening. Still annoyed that I do not get a manual on how the body really works and what the limits of mind/reality connection is . The other side is playing hide and seek when it comes to give specific information but likes to give blissfull feelings.

People who have not experianced it do not know what they are missing. Listening to music is intense sometimes from the sensory overload of the body when the body feel the music.

Originally posted by chloe2850
Hi all, what I am trying to say is that it could be something like watching ants, or bumping into someone and they treated you well, it could be the smile on there face.
I am curious.
I don't like seeing people angry, I grew up in a very angry enviroment, I could have grown up angry but I'm mostly calm, and patient.

Children are reflections of there parents, I am not.

Could it be genetics?

edit on 23/11/12 by chloe2850 because: (no reason given)

edit on 23/11/12 by chloe2850 because: (no reason given)

Spirit over mind?

There can be bad things that affect how you think, too.

Not spiritual things, but just stuff that sort of inevitably happens to you as a function of choices you make.

I think everyone has the piles of little things that build up to form their personalities - wondering what Dad was doing half a world away, realizing your parents weren't infallible or really all that different from you, realizing that one day you, personally, were going to be dead and there was nothing you could do to stop that. Realizing that everything you ate that day had died to feed you. And every bit of it didn't want to do that, plant or animal.

Getting a peek behind the scenes and realizing that there were some seriously screwed up people turning the wheels, counterbalanced by other people who didn't have to have any integrity since they had no oversight, but they did anyway.

And there are the big personal things, which I won't talk about because they ARE personal. But there are things you can do that really screw you up for a while, and you just don't quite feel the same after, ever.

Originally posted by Bluesma
My earliest years were in a violent and chaotic home, but it isn't true that kids are a reflection of their parents. In many cases, generations swing from one extreme to another because they end up the opposite. In the case of aggressive hostility and abuse, the children often end up repressed, introverted, tending towards submission, passivity.

edit on 23-11-2012 by Bluesma because: (no reason given)

That's very interesting, I can definitely agree with what you have typed.
It is very sad that many children have not the chance to truly be who they are because of that very reason.