posted on Jul, 7 2012 @ 11:50 PM
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Day #Fourteen - 1st Entry
The Chonicles of the Red Sun
Day #Fourteen - 2nd Entry
So, here is the story. Apparently the National Guard is being deployed in major cities all across the United States. So....I am not sure what this
means. Do I panic? Or....should I feel more secure? I am so confused about everything that I just heard right now. I cannot believe this. I do
not understand what anyone wants me to do. I am just one person and I have to look after and raise a little girl who was supposed to have a beautiful
life and I was supposed to shower her with everything that I never had this is not fair for her how is this fair?!? GOD MUST BE DEAD!! How can he
allow this to happen?! I want to know where he is and why he is allowing this to happen. This is not fair this is just not fair to my daughter or to
all of these innocent people this is not the way things are supposed to be I never asked to be born into this! I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN, PERIOD! Why
I am forced to live through this?! What have I done? This is of HIS doing, NOT ANYONE OF ANYONE ELSE! I am starting to really freak out right
now. i am writing this sentance to calm me down i am writing this sentance to calm me down i am writing this sentance to calm me down i am writing
these words to help calm me down marcy marcy marcy calm calm calm calm calm DOWN writing helps writing helps writing helps gotta go gotta go gotta go
gotta go....