Tell me, does anybody know what's really going on?
Do we (can we?) even begin to know the first thing about objective reality?
Do we even know, with any degree of certainty whatsoever, just who and what we ourselves really are as "human beings" (that's just a label for the
form), what our "role" is
supposed to be, or even what is happening around and in a sense TO us, even if we ourselves were inert objects,
nothing more, an it-self walking around, presuming to be "self aware" or at the very least aware of what's actually happening or what's really
going on.. and thus in a state of utter blindness and ignorance (stupidity).
Is this state of absolute uncertainty not an utterly
absurd predicament? What do you think?
And what can be done about it? Nothing. That's the amuzing part of it, when you realized the degree to which you ARE "trapped" in a phenomenon that
you cannot possibly even begin to understand (see my avatar).
Science? Science, in measuring bits and pieces only (or you can't DO science to begin with) produces ever more hypothesies for every so-called
"truth" (each replacing the last one of course). It moves with the times, but it doesn't really get us to the point of clear understanding, with
perfect clarity and comprehension, just what the heck is actually occuring, not just locally, but non-locally, from the deepest depths to the highest
heights. What is it? And if just an eternal, cosmic evolutionary process, what does THAT mean, or signify, and if nothing then why in God's name are
we even here to begin with?!!!
And whether we opt for some sort of faith in a supreme being, or flee in the equal and opposite direction into ever more
absurdity, in EITHER case, we are made
crAzy by the sheer FACT of our own existence.
We just don't have the first clue what it means, or signifies, in any sort of absolute, objective sense. We are seemingly
imprisoned in a
subjective isolation chamber that we were powerless NOT to build, in the fact of this absurdity we call reality and existence (as it REALLY is).
Me I like getting present to that space of unknowing. It gives me a strange smile, and a calm assurance that "everything (whatever it is) is ok",
and then there's peace, at the end of the need to keep THINKING all the time about BS and other ridculous nonsense to try to frame or box up this
thing called "life" into something we CAN deal with, and it's very small and constraining, that space, until you also get present to IT and how
ridiculous and absurd IT is, by comparison (to the limitless space of unknowing). Me I'd rather lose my sanity and be based in reality, than hang on
to something that's outmoded and no longer workable at the cost of truth and reality itself, but it still leaves me flapping in the breeze because
that (truth and reality) by its very nature cannot be understood! It's almost comical, like a riddle that cannot be solved, but one that, at the same
time, you can't help but continally inquire into, driving you either sane or insane depending on how you look at it.
So you just give up. And there, sitting in the "corner" beaten, or perhaps laughing out loud for no reason like a madman, you watch, with eyes wide
open, in shock and dismay, as the prison door (of your subjective isolation chamber in isolate consciousness) slowly swings open, and through the door
a new light (of understanding and awareness) beckons, as if by a welcoming hand. It seems to say" don't worry about it, just play and have fun and
be happy and GIVE "it" some meaning yourself why don't you atfer all what else is there to do..?" but it's friendly, not indifferent AND it's
you, your truest self as you really are and the voice of reason itself, which, combined is the only REAL knowledge that a person can actually possess
because it is the knowledge of personal experience. So it wasn't nihilistic, or vacuuous after all. Our very intuition tells us, in stillness, that
all is well, or that it's fundamentally good, and that's really something in my experience, to be able to touch into that sacred space, and in the
end discover one's own self in relation to the Absolute (whatever it is, it doesn't matter, only that it can be related to, at ANY level at all).
There's a touchstrone there within I am certain of it.
So what it is (what is happening) we can't really say, but that we get to be included in it, even if only for the time being, and get to share it,
with one another and at any and every level no matter how big or small, well that's really something special I do believe, if we only we had but the
first clue as to what it really is and what's actually going on, and 'round 'round we go, like an involving spiral, into increasing domains of
potential growth and increased awareness, of that which we know we don't know..
Best Regards,
NAM