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Originally posted by sickofitall2012
reply to post by TheGrandWarlock
Very great to hear!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know, I couldn't sleep last night. I was too worried about you. So glad you decided to stay with us.
Just remember, anytime you want to talk, or have any problems, u2u me. I'll try to help in anyway possible. All I ask is that you not use a ouija ever again, please.
Originally posted by MrUncreated
reply to post by TheGrandWarlock
Yes, you almost made the tiger sh*t himself. Or herself. We are all 11:11.
Why don't you get Guild Wars 2 when it comes out? If'n you're into that sort of thing.
Originally posted by TheGrandWarlock
i am bored of this life.
yes im young, yes theres still much for me to see, but im just not interested in worldly pleasures anymore (physical, emotional, etc). Yes theyre great and all but idk, i feel like theres something better out there.
i realize my life will never be as glamorous as i want it to be, and because of that, well i want a new one.
so before i go on i should say that yes im depressed but i personally believe that depression is one of the necessary steps to do this. I mean why would you want a new life if you're happy with the one you got?
but there are things keeping me from reaching my goal.
theres my ego, it just wont let me die. I dont want to be seen as that person who couldnt handle life and killed himself, i dont want to be a coward and abandon my family..what if they need me? I guess i grew up thinking that people who kill themselves are weak and selfish and i dont want to be seen as such.
but why is suicide taboo? we all die eventually, so why is it frowned upon?
then theres the process, how would i end my life, where would i do it?
i dont want to make a bloody mess nor do i want to surprise my family when they find a corpse in the house. I could tell them beforehand but i cant just say "so yeah i love you guys but im going to kill myself soon" because i would probably get locked up in rehab
then of course theres the fear of the unknown..no one really knows what happens when you die... i like to believe that our souls are eternal and that this is just one of my many lives..but who knows.
so the more i think about this, the more excuses i keep coming up with and i think, well do i really need to die?
Sure my life sucks, but it has its moments..what if the day after i kill myself everyone gains superpowers lol
if you werent happy with your life, would you kill yourself in hopes of finding happiness in the afterlife or would you just deal with the fact that you will be unhappy most of the time and hope that somehow along the way, you find some happiness here?
Originally posted by Murgatroid
Anyone wondering WHAT "mumbo jumbo" really looks like:
Originally posted by Popular
Eh, bible quotes = don't even waste your time on that junk.
PROOF OF ALIEN JESUS!
Ordinarily I would keep it to myself BUT when it comes down to a person's soul and destiny I would recommend AVOIDING any advice by the "Popular" people who may be dishing it out and instead go with the advice from "yourmaker" posted below:
post by yourmaker
Originally posted by yourmaker
warlock, you should do something AMAZING.
ALWAYS remember: "yourmaker" has YOUR best interest at heart, the "popular" people do NOT...
edit on 19-5-2012 by Murgatroid because: Added link
Originally posted by TheGrandWarlock
alright well i wish i could reply to you all but 2 pages is quite alot.
i did read all of your replies though and i've realized that they must mean something. i've decided to stick around. i'll try to enjoy this bumpy ride, dont complain if i get vomit all over you though
Originally posted by TheGrandWarlock
if you werent happy with your life, would you kill yourself in hopes of finding happiness in the afterlife or would you just deal with the fact that you will be unhappy most of the time and hope that somehow along the way, you find some happiness here?
Originally posted by NorEaster
Originally posted by TheGrandWarlock
if you werent happy with your life, would you kill yourself in hopes of finding happiness in the afterlife or would you just deal with the fact that you will be unhappy most of the time and hope that somehow along the way, you find some happiness here?
I'm not a kid anymore. I'm in my mid 50s. By now, I've lost every dream I've ever had, and I honestly have no vision of a future that pulls me forward. It's pretty odd, and I'm still trying to get used to having most of my life behind me, and nothing at all that I see as a goal ahead of me. I've never been successful, and that's certainly not due to a lack of ambition. Hell, I've gone after the brassiest brass rings there are (rock stardom, published novelist, the ultimate TOE question) and have literally nothing to show for any of it but the songs, CDs, books, and impossibly unassailable reality notions that have become evidence of a life that "missed it by that much" and nothing more than that.
Some people might look at my life and suggest that I dust myself and see what the hereafter offers, but to be honest, there's a grandeur in taking a roundhouse shot and being able to remain standing. I'm actually kind of amazed that I have taken the hits and come back for more again and again over the decades. There have been moments of harrowing failure and bitter disappointment, but there have also been moments when I've seen it all as the kind of elite training that has made me impossible to conquer by anyone or anything.
I watch some candystriper on (take your pick) American Idol or America's Got Talent (or any other Chase Your Dreams show) and when the kid starts crying that he has been wanting this his "whole life", I have to smile and shake my head. Maybe this is what a Navy Seal feels like when some idiot starts some sh*t in a bar with him. You smile and walk away, because you're not even in the same universe as that kid. That kid can't even understand the losses you've gathered together in your life in pursuit of who and what you are at this point.
If you just pursue the wildest dream imaginable (hell, why not. You don't expect to succeed anyway) and survive the hell of it all, you'll be invincible when you're finally ready to cross over to the eternal realm. The bars over there will be full of all kinds of success stories, but when you walk in, the entire atmosphere will change and every one of those heroes will quiet right down in deference to you. Your brutal corporeal existence will hang off you like a million medals, and you won't have to say a word.
You want to be special? Earn it. Do good when there's no goddamn reason to do good. Be strong when it makes no sense to be strong. Take the hits and smile. Confuse the hell out of life, and gather enormous amounts of power as you do. You'll BECOME special. That's what special is and how it comes to exist. You're already blessed with the lack of contentment. Do something wonderful with it. Take it all on for decades and build an amazing eternal self as a result.
That's what I've been working on, and I'm already bulletproof. Imagine if I get to live on for 20 more years. With all that physical deterioration to appreciate, I'll be superhuman when I'm done.
i lust for magic.
Originally posted by TheGrandWarlock
reply to post by Darkblade71
or..or.. you can teach me.
tell me your secrets.
The right topics for this realm: Learn how to master money. Learn how to defend yourself. Master ONE subject (Buying and selling real estate, or computer programming, or auto mechanics). Just choose one so that you will always have a skill to support you.
Originally posted by Darkblade71
reply to post by TheGrandWarlock
Then perhaps you need to focus on something other than magic.
Stalemates happen.
If you have already done these things,
you would not be a teenager, or you are one with a very short attention span.
(Not that it is a bad thing, just trying to figure out where you are coming from)
Sounds like being caught in a funk, where you begin to feel nothing was worth the time or effort.
Originally posted by TheGrandWarlock
Im very impatient.