I win all yet remain a loser

In my own country I am in a far off land.
I am strong but have no power.
I win all yet remain a loser.
At break of day I say goodnight.
When I lie down I have great fear of falling.
― François Villon, 14th century

That poem was written hundreds of years ago but it might as well have been written today by me. Except, of course, for the fact that I lack talent in poetry writing. Or much else.

Lady Fortune has smiled upon me and I have been blessed with everything I could want, materially speaking. Success in business, the hero gets the pretty girl at the end, smiles all around. Yet inside I remain a loser.

I don't expect you to understand. I'm just letting out the pus. Isn't that what a rant is for?

I have everything a man could want, and thus no right to complain.

I live in a beautiful house, but its a poison trap because places like this are where dreams go to die, smothered by their own success. Drowining in sugar is no different than drowning in quicksand, I suppose.

The stale stench of excess clings to me. No matter how many showers I take.

I win all, but remain a loser.

reply to post by FailedProphet


All I can offer you is this from one person to another...

Be yourself, be true to yourself and once you do that, offer yourself to others.

If you do that, this feeling will no longer be there, there is no such thing as losing or being a loser.

Express yourself from within and be who you are, shine.

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You are what you eat.
Change your diet.
Metaphorically speaking.

I like this because I think I am in the completely opposite boat.

I live in a world of < Snip >. I continue to be < snip > on by life. I live paycheck to paycheck. I am in the process of being fired, I just wrecked my car.

Yet I always win.

According to my logic.

reply to post by FailedProphet
you use the word "I" 15 times
the word "Me" twice
You never mention anyone else such as your family or others you care about. If indeed you do care for anyone other than yourself.
This was my observation of your little one man pity party.
Perhaps you would benefit from a little more "we" and a lot less "I"
If not, keep your self complaints to yourself since no one else will value you as much as you seem to value yourself.

reply to post by watchitburn


Many and strange (and mostly unpleasant) are the lessons I've learned over the last decade or so.

One of the most important is that people are happiest immediately after they get something they want. They tend to be misearble both before and starting a short time after.

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reply to post by grubblesnert


That's all good advice.

I know where your at.

There isn't much else to do but go jet skiing.

There is nothing else on Earth that will light the fire of life in you like a jet ski, launching off a wave.

Originally posted by watchitburn
I like this because I think I am in the completely opposite boat.

I live in a world of < Snip >. I continue to be < snip > on by life. I live paycheck to paycheck. I am in the process of being fired, I just wrecked my car.

Yet I always win.

According to my logic.

edit on 11-5-2012 by watchitburn because: (no reason given)

I'm sorry for your recent and ongoing misfortune. Truely I am.
I think i got your point. Point being if you have people that you love and care for and people that love and care about you You do, indeed, win
I hope that's true for you

Hope things turn around for you and yours

Nobody's going to pity you or cut you some slack, man. Nobody. It's a bitter lesson because only after you lose all human sympathy are you going to realize how essential it is to human life.

The only people you are going to be able to trust are people who've known you a long time...if them. Heck, you probably won't be able to trust too many of them. At the very least part of them will resent your success.

You're pretty much #ed. The last and cruelest joke of all.

Two things bring happiness to a man in your position: doing things for others, and having something that you can lose yourself in, a focused hobby that you can pour all your attention into and forget yourself. Something that requires skill and practice to master.

Ironically, those are the same two things that bring happiness to men and women in any position.

Life's a funny old thing, isn't it.

Originally posted by grubblesnert

Originally posted by watchitburn
I like this because I think I am in the completely opposite boat.

I live in a world of < Snip >. I continue to be < snip > on by life. I live paycheck to paycheck. I am in the process of being fired, I just wrecked my car.

Yet I always win.

According to my logic.

edit on 11-5-2012 by watchitburn because: (no reason given)

I'm sorry for your recent and ongoing misfortune. Truely I am.
I think i got your point. Point being if you have people that you love and care for and people that love and care about you You do, indeed, win

I hope that's true for you

Hope things turn around for you and yours

Oh,not at all.

I neither care for, or need any other person.

When things fail to go as initially planned. I just change the rules and adjust the definition of winning. Then move on to the next thing.

Therefore, I always win.

Perhaps you are a success at what you DO
Rather than what you WANT to do.

What do you want to do? Or be?

Originally posted by FailedProphet
reply to post by watchitburn

 

Many and strange (and mostly unpleasant) are the lessons I've learned over the last decade or so.

One of the most important is that people are happiest immediately after they get something they want. They tend to be misearble both before and starting a short time after.

I have no advice or insight to provide to you.

But yes, After getting what I want, I usually find I am already bored with it. And start looking for my next goal.

But, I am sure if you think on it enough, you will find what your looking for. And be pleased with it.

Originally posted by FailedProphet
In my own country I am in a far off land.
I am strong but have no power.
I win all yet remain a loser.
At break of day I say goodnight.
When I lie down I have great fear of falling.
― François Villon, 14th century

That poem was written hundreds of years ago but it might as well have been written today by me. Except, of course, for the fact that I lack talent in poetry writing. Or much else.

Lady Fortune has smiled upon me and I have been blessed with everything I could want, materially speaking. Success in business, the hero gets the pretty girl at the end, smiles all around. Yet inside I remain a loser.

I don't expect you to understand. I'm just letting out the pus. Isn't that what a rant is for?

I have everything a man could want, and thus no right to complain.

I live in a beautiful house, but its a poison trap because places like this are where dreams go to die, smothered by their own success. Drowining in sugar is no different than drowning in quicksand, I suppose.

The stale stench of excess clings to me. No matter how many showers I take.

I win all, but remain a loser.

It appears that you are mining this earth for petty baubles and trinkets that please the flesh yet corrupt the soul.

Try using some of that excess to relieve the suffering of others around you, thus storing your true treasure where moths do not devour and rust does not corrode.

If one is a King, care for your kingdom.

Sell off everything you have and follow Christ .

You have a hole in you that no matter what you fill it with will never satisfy you. Only one thing will fill that hole, his name's on my avatar.

Have a little fun with that excess. Find people you know are hurting, and give them an unseen hand.
You might be surprised at how much fun it is to not only make people happy, but to come up with novel ways to secretly help others individually. Not through a charity.

Then give of yourself to those you love, and who love you. Not for what you have, but for who you are.

I'm glad you're successful. There's nothing wrong with that. But success by itself isn't happiness. There's more to it than that. But it sounds like you've already figured that one out.

We are all losers...ask death...guessing he'll be more than happy to tell you. We all lose, so might aswell help each other out.

Originally posted by watchitburn

Originally posted by grubblesnert

Originally posted by watchitburn
I like this because I think I am in the completely opposite boat.

I live in a world of < Snip >. I continue to be < snip > on by life. I live paycheck to paycheck. I am in the process of being fired, I just wrecked my car.

Yet I always win.

According to my logic.

edit on 11-5-2012 by watchitburn because: (no reason given)

I'm sorry for your recent and ongoing misfortune. Truely I am.
I think i got your point. Point being if you have people that you love and care for and people that love and care about you You do, indeed, win

I hope that's true for you

Hope things turn around for you and yours

Oh,not at all.

I neither care for, or need any other person.

When things fail to go as initially planned. I just change the rules and adjust the definition of winning. Then move on to the next thing.

Therefore, I always win.

sounds very pathological and deluded