posted on Feb, 27 2005 @ 12:45 PM
I hope you still check this board.
Ok, I have a few "gut instincts" that I want to lay out here for the original poster:
You say that "My dad can't be trusted", but I have a strong feeling, based on all you have said, that what you haven't told us is that you say he
can't be trusted, but are roughly about 20-24 years of age and live with your father still.
You say you were "teleported to the dome", after having a serum injected in you. And that you were "teleported" back. What you haven't said was
that you found yourself laying in your bed when you "teleported " back and that part of you questions the fact that you may have simply been
daydreaming or asleep.
You say there is a "chip implanted in your head". But you know that you have no true reason to believe this, and this was a mechanism you yourself
created to justify the voices you hear "inside" your head.
You say the FBI gave you a "self destructing CD" that contained reams of info on you and your situation. Again, you know that you have no true proof
of this, and that you built this idea to help support the delusions you are experiencing.
Your ego is the problem here buddy. Your ego is causing a mass resistance against the thought that "you may be going insane". Your ego wishes so
badly to believe that you are not" insane", that it is helping you to make false realities in order to support your situation.
What I'd like you to do if you are still reading this(probably quit after the first sentence), is to do the following:
1. Look at yourself in the mirror.
2. Say to yourself: "I'm too old to be making up stories to support my fantasies" "I need to find a way to fix my problems and live a productive
life." "I need help from those who care for me."
3. Resist the voice in your mind that tells you your father cannot be trusted.
Either sit down with a notebook and write a letter to your father saying: "Dad, I really need your help and support. I believe in things that are
unreal, and hear voices in my head. I wish for these things to stop, and I need you to get me medical attention to make that happen. I may want to
resist you when it's time to confront this, but deep down I do want to change my life for the better. Please help me."
Or print this post out on a printer and walk in there and take it to your father now.
4. Try as best as you can to resist the urge to fight your father and any medical professionals who try to help you. If you feel that you are angered
by their questions or words, try to turn that anger into sadness, into tears. You will get help much faster if you refuse to take a violent or angry
approach to this. It is better that you blubber like a baby for now, than be committed to an institiution due to violent tendencies. Repeat that, your
ego will agree and allow you to whine.
Best of luck to you, help is there for people in your situation, but you have to take the first step. It can be done, good luck again.
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