posted on Sep, 26 2004 @ 11:01 PM
Something has been happening to me all too much lately, and I'm starting to get freaked out. I have read up, and understand what Night Paralysis is,
but my case seems strangely different and more severe. DEFINITELY becoming more like reality rather than being idly waved off as a dream.
Basically what is happening is at the point between being awake and asleep, I feel myself slowly slip away, sort of a sinking feeling, I can feel it
in my stomach as well. I struggle mightily, knowing that it is going to happen again; sometimes I manage fight my way out, and other times I just
can't. It seems like I am being involuntarily pulled into the Astral Plane.
I slowly become aware of new surroundings, even though I am in the same physical place. Maybe I'm becoming aware of different variations in energy?
It seems like an OBE, but it's different because I am still completely aware of my physical surroundings, including time. I am positive of this
because I even know what is happening on the T.V. if I happened to leave it on. I have even tested this by recording a T.V. show and making sure it
matches up to what I've been seeing during my occurance, and it does match. I even know if a friend came into my room, by verifying it with them
later. Another clue that it's WAY more than a dream.
Anyway, I begin to see odd things, hear haunting sounds, etc. I try to fight my way out the whole time but usually by this time it's too late. I
relax as much as possible, but when I finally realize that I'm stuck, things go downhill, fast. Some sort of entity will notice my presence and I am
overcome with extreme fear. I am totally paralyzed and helpless. I won't describe some of the things that happen to me, or some of the horrors that
unfold, but things get bad...
I have however managed to control myself on occassion and defend myself. I've developed methods to remove the paralysis and either hold my own, or
run. I can only rarely do this though, depending on the situation, but even when I can there is still the fear.
Relevant Info: A few years ago I used to medidate regularly, and developed a few abilities or Gifts, predominantly the ability to travel to
the Astral Plane. Astral Projection was always cool to me after I realized what it was, I loved it, the different sensations I would get, feelings of
freedom and pure joy. It was incredible. But as I have come to realize, not everything in the Astral Plane is friendly...there are some malevolent
presences. After a few horrifying encounters, I refused to use AP anymore unless I really felt compelled to.
I did do AP several more times, and each experience was worse than the last. Vicious attacks, stalkings, paralysis, etc. They would leave me
physically drained and tired the next day or that night. After a few of these experiences, I never voluntarily used AP again, and gave it up. Not
long after my Night Paralysis, half awake-half asleep problems began.
I think I am being involuntarily sucked into the Astral Plane by who knows what, and my semi-concious dreamlike state is only exacerbating the problem
even worse.
There has to be a way to make it all stop, right? Does anyone know how I can help myself, or what I can do about all of this? Personal experiences
would be great. Living in fear is not good.