I'm getting sick of this journey..

reply to post by OhNoItsCritical


You will come to learn one day that women are very dangerous if they are still controlled/consumed by their natural instinct (many many are). Unless you wanting a child then stay away. This is not sexist it's years, decades, centries of experience. Some are worried about government mind control. Nup it's the power of forces of natural instinct through women that is mind control. NOt the woman herself. Wonder why monks and stay away, it for a reason. these guys don't do anything without serious consideration.

Silver lining, if you can manage to get yourself under control you can learn so much from them, you can connect to god together, but even so you can only cage a lion so long before you get bitten.

Why does man refuse too accept and most woman refuse to acknowledge their mighty power over a mans mind? Survival Instinct. Pride. Ego. Years of conditioning.

Shed our need for sexual reproduction as the driving force behind our species in turn will shed every reason for war that has ever existed. I look forward to the day when we no longer are male & female but both. Hard to visualize I know but humanity simply will not evolve past war greed and control whilst separate sex exists.

In the meantime however If you want on the path stay away from love of a woman sorry. love as a friend as one but never as woman never as separate unless you both decide to bring another life into this world.

Good luck.

reply to post by OhNoItsCritical

Employment and balance in your life is happiness, bro.

You need both.

That's just the way it's.

I'm not being mean. Just stating a fact.

Our society wants to make it appear you can have happiness regardless, but it ain't so.

I can wish you luck, but all the hard work has to be done by you.

If you no longer want to live in this life then you shouldn't be asking for help at ATS. ATS is filled with paranoia and sensationalism anymore. People read your sh** just to feel less miserable than you. What you need are true friends to talk to and professional advice that you can depend on.

Here is a pretty good audio clip that highly correlates with what I am going through which sounds similar:
Dark Night

Although it is quite long, it was like he was telling my story. It appears I am at the dark night of the will where I am no longer able to open the “aperture” through will.

reply to post by OhNoItsCritical

I keep getting stuck in loops of thoughts and beliefs, and I'm just getting sick of it.

Beliefs are dangerous - riddled with pitfalls and half-truths.

Figure out what your principles are, and stick to those instead.

reply to post by NotAnAspie

continue to do things I don't want to be doing. hmmmm........ Not a piece of advice I can say i want to take.

well really you u got a few options but it all depends on your situation, married? kids? family members need $ help?

We still have to do what we have to do. If we have obligations here and have to work, well then we have to work. You can either do it with a filter of negativity or do it with complete letting go.

This is why I have opted to no have kids, which frees me to pursue mediation and enlightenment. My mother doesnt make enough $ so I help out in that dept, but other than that Ive been in the rat race chasing big $ doing work 12-16 hrs a day 7 days a week for 3 years. I wasnt happy, Sure there was big $ but for what?

Now its like I can do mindless work, sweeping, dishes, landscape, music studio stuff, whatever and Im just so cool and Zen about it, cause there is no me there, and when there is no me there in it, its like being in this zen zone, where instead of you doing it, its being done through you. Then at the end of the day, you go home and are just content and happy.

Its the dam mind that says "This sux, that sux, I wont be happy til _____" But when all that is let go of, then what ever situation your in, all is good and you still find a way.

Other than that, if you can afford to, work on getting of the grid somewhere a little further from a city as its all gonna come crumbling down soon anyway. Just do what you can.

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Hey Oh No. Your'e not the only one in this boat. But I do understand what is happening.

Everything that you believe is being tested. Have you ever heard of the dark night of the soul, the dark night of the spirit. Look it up. A good book to understand this phenomena is a book called "St John of the Cross". There comes a time when all of your light and belief is tested. The Earth will go through the same thing when Venus is eclipsed.

The love energy that comes from Venus will be shut off for a period. Earth and it's people will have to maintain with the knowledge, love, belief, and light that it has garnered. Hang in there. I had a horrible day yesterday and today is my birthday. I'm on a roller coaster just like you and millions of others. Go to the quiet within your mind. See a lake turbulent turn to a still reflection. When you can visualize that your mind will be still. In that stillness wait for the voice behind the curtain and just listen. Not to your mind's talk but another voice that will guide you through the dark night. I hope this helps. May God Bless

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Without those blocks you would not have any way of crossing the emotional stream.

Sometimes you can slip off the rock, sometimes you can walk carefully, and sometimes you can skip from rock to rock.

Eventually you'll be able to float over the stream.