When my grandmother died, I was 12. Her and I were never close until a couple days before she passed. We saw each other, but never spoke to one
another. I thought she hated me and she believed I despised her. We did not have any proof on why we would dislike each other, that was just the way
it seemed.
Days before her soul exited her body, the family and I were stationed in the hospice lobby awaiting for what was undoubtedly to come. At the end of
her life, those last couple days, Grammy and I became best friends, inseparable. I could not leave her side. We talked like we never missed a beat.
Days before that, Grandma told me that she wanted to be reincarnated as a bird.
Anyway, two days before her death, she became comatose and unresponsive
...The final early morning, about 10 hours before she passed, my uncle
and I were sitting bedside watching over her because we could not sleep. All of a sudden, her eyes opened and she slowly turned her head, looking
right at me and disregarding her own son. What was to come is chilling and could never be forgotten.
"Danny, help me" she spoke out softly. "Grandma, I cant, I don't know what to do", I responded. After my reply, her eyes closed right away and back
to a comatose state she slept peacefully until her body gave up. Later on, that day I was again by Grammies side by myself as the other members of the
Titus family were in the hospice waiting area just waiting this thing out. Out of nowhere came the fatal gasping for breath. Even at the age of 12, I
knew this was it. Her time was now...
I ran as fast as i could out of her room and yelled to the family, "Grandma's on her last breath." We all sat beside her and witnessed this
unfortunate event that only took a minute after we collected into grandmas room. She passed away.
I could never forget this, I am 24 now, going on 25 and this still haunts me to this day. From the last words to watching her final breath. It's
chilling and a real sad thing for me to have witnessed. The harsh part is that I had to see the whole thing two days before hand with my grandfather.
He too, passed away in the same hospital. At the age of 12, within those two short days I literally watched both my grandparents pass before my
eyes.
The oddness and coincidence didn't end there tho. The day after she died, my family couldn't afford a real service for her that she deserved.
Basically, we just said our goodbye's at the morgue and waited outside as she was cremated. The kicker is, do you remember me saying how after she
passed, grandma wanted to be a bird???
This is what happened...Outside, i stood pacing and walking around in circles as her body inside was getting turned to ash. The craziest thing ever
occurred as this process took place. For the 1st and ONLY time in my life on this planet, a bird flew right over me and pooped on my head. Could be a
coincidence or maybe the darnedest thing. Maybe this was Grandma's way of saying "Hey Danny, I am alright, at peace, and I am always here watching
over you." To me, she got her wish. She was soaring and became the bird she wanted to be.
As we fast forward, 9 yrs later I was asleep at my house on the living room couch. I awoke and the way the couch was, you laid facing the front
windowsill. As I opened my eyes, I saw grandma standing, floating there outside of the window watching over me as I slept. I guess this would be in
the same way I watched her in her hospital bed. Difference being, me there physically and her being there, spiritually...
Next thing I knew, almost like a snap of the finger, I woke up again to the sun facing me shining bright through the window. It was like it had to be
a dream, but either way I knew it wasn't. Am I crazy? No, Grandma's my guardian angel watching over me. I thank her for this. I know that when it's my
time to cross path's, she is going to be right there meeting me at the light. In the sense of things, that is the only way I could cope with the
thought of me, myself dying. Thanks to her, I believe death will be easy on me. I fear the thought, but I know she will make things seem right like in
Heaven..I will be right at home.
Its crazy how the last moments of her life, we became best friends and makes it a shame we weren't before she left. I am happy I got to be there for
her. I accept her becoming a bird and pooping on me for a sign of luck, fortune and guidance. I appreciate she watches over me as I sleep at night. I
could never forget you, Grandma.
You have placed signs to me that this life I lead does not have an end. There is just eternity. For this, I cherish you.
I end this note now with just a lot of recognition and respect rewarded to a woman who didn't have anything and cared for others. While being alive
and than still in the afterlife. I love you, Grandma and I accept every sign that you placed before me. Again, Thank you for being my protector, my
Guardian Angel...Goodnight
*i just want to thank the person who made a thread pretty much on the same topic and inspiring me to write about the topic on my Grandma. This is my
1st time, talking about this. Thank you
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