Hi all,
I wrote a thread a while back about a crystal ball as I have always known I have had some psychic abilities (please do not ask me to prove this as I
can't) but sometimes they seem to be more of a curse than a blessing.
Anyway to the point of why I am writing this thread, for a few years now I have lived at a cross roads, the local shops, there is a lot of history
here. The flat I occupy above one of these shops has a very jaded history...from tattooists, parties, drugs, bands, the lot have lived in this flat.
Only one family has lived here and they moved out as they felt uncomfortable & a relative moved in. After some time he started to lose his mind, he
tried taking his own life on more than a few occasions, despised all and himself. Eventually he was sectioned under the mental health act and
relocated upon release. I never knew any of this before I took up post here but over time I have learnt THE HARD WAY!
With a Grandmother considered a white witch, a mother who said she could hex people, a father who was...a nasty, evil, cruel person I began to wonder
if I could use any of my ancestors abilities myself as I was of their blood lines. I bought myself books on the occult, read as much on line as I
could, invested in crystals, a crystal ball, oils, incense the job lot I went all out on Spiritualism. I went for late night walks in the Cem's,
haunted places, murder scenes & practice'd with my ball after charging it under every full moon.
One night in January I decided to use the ball, focused, used all the ways taught to me by the books and a few like minded people I had met & sure
enough I saw mist in the ball, it was a psychedelic mist though. I tried to see something, make something out only to see a friend who had died
recently in a dark place with what I can only describe as a hooded torment'r tormenting him. He got one message across though that my daughter
needed my guidance & help then was gone as fast as they had manifested. Just as the ball became clear there was a bang from the shop downstairs that
had been closed for around 5 hours, then footsteps up my stairs to the room I was in. I tried to communicate to this spirit but it did not want to
communicate at all, it just made the atmosphere cold and breathed heavily, I felt its stare cold & dark upon me so I asked it to leave, cleared the
ball and flat to the best of my abilities then slept.
I kept the ball far away from me, stopped using it & thought that whatever had entered the flat that night had left...until three nights ago that is!
I was sat watching a DVD (no TV ever for me haha) in the early hours when there was a tapping noise from the empty flat next door, this flat has been
empty for over a decade and I am unable to find out the history behind it. I thought darn rats as may be in an empty property but no after those
tapping's the noise moved above yet in front of me, in my attic to be precise. I spoke out aloud to it (huge mistake) asking it to give one tap yes,
two taps for no to which it didn't reply the only noise it made was to throw a small rock (maybe) at the wall above me in the attic. I then thought
its presence had left and continued watching the films until it was time for sleep in the very early hours. Going to sleep was as normal, I had the
usual dreams as one does but at some point that old menace I had been rid of for some time 'sleep paralysis' kicked in & I was awake. It began as
other episodes have over the years with me being pinned to the bed with a presence upon me holding me down and almost sucking the life from me. This
is where it gets strange...if you's are still with me, I called out for an angel to save me, most times I have called out in Jesus name but this time
I was specific and cried out for an angel. What happened next I am unable to put into writing (I write quite a lot too) I have no description for
what I witnessed other than a battle for my soul between a shadow being & an angel. When I write angel you see a pretty picture with wings don't
you, well some angels are not all that, this angel was dark, menacing even, hard as nails & tough as bricks. I was wide awake during this whole
episode, eyes open, sweat rolling down my face but almost cross realms, I could feel my body & see the room but I could also see another realm too.
When the angel banished the dark one back to whence it came I remember it communicating with me a bit. It told me its name (I'm not allowed to give
that sorry) & that I had a purpose on the planet, things left to do only then could I join my family in safety. After those few words I was awake &
crying my eyes out, reaching for a bible I have & reading from it.
I have suffered S.P, as I have said for years but got over it almost with faith in good, a greater, higher being, a spirit & Jesus. I am not a devout
Christian but I do believe in him, all the saints, angels and the family, I am a spiritualist & asked people I know and trust about this episode.
They told me that the ball can't open a portal or invite a negative being in if I have protected myself (which I thought I had), I must have done it
unknowingly invited something in.
Please what I would really like is opinions as to whether or not the place I am at may in itself be a portal as it is a cross roads, has a lot of
history around it, has much blood spilt upon & around it, even my own blood when I nearly lost my mind here too here some time ago, picked up a knife
and sliced myself open. Could my blood spilling have helped whatever that was banished from me or the place gain strength over time and my speaking
to it when it had made itself known given it yet more power to the point it almost dragged me from this life into whichever realm it had intended for
me to join it in. Had my dog and I showing it fear on other occasions helped it too, I know this is an open forum but please could I have some help,
answers from believers in light, angels, Jesus & Spirit.
Oh and by the way I am set to leave this place asap into another home as it is not a nice place, all who enter here say it has a depressing vibe.
I'm asking my fellow ATS members for their fifty pence, cents, euro...whatever please.
Thank you for taking time to read this thread...
Peace, love & unity to all from me.