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Originally posted by Amanda5
reply to post by FoxMulder007
I hope you have recovered ok from your nosebleeds and such. When i have my warning signs that remind me of 'them', i try to be a better person in a instant. As i do fear 'them' . To quote the joker from the first batman movie 'it takes power to inflict pain'.
Originally posted by Amanda5
As to why i am afraid, i would have to explain part of my story, and i will never do that on this forum, as it would take forever, and to argue with every 'skeptic' that chimes in would be useless. Well my life changed for the better because of 'them'. I now try to focus on what i consider the bigger picture. My scariest moments were the missing time.And a few other momments. I never wanted them to leave, as my only hope of being a better soul , was with their help. But i did feel like my body was giving out, and when i felt they should leave, it ended shortly after. Im not a complainer, and money cant buy the experiences i lived through, everyday was amazing, I actually woke up excited . Like a kid about to go to disneyland. I know what you mean about approaching things from a neutral point of view. Funny you said that, as i try to model myself after a entity i communicated with. It was indifferent. Didnt get happy or mad. Much better to live like that, as i never regret any choice i make. Like if your mad, or in love , you look back and say, why did i do that. Its taken me soo long to get good at it, and im getting better.
. ....... ... In regards of thinking you were being electronically meddled with, I did consider my experience was just some government experiment. Like some scientist figured out how to tap into our sight and sense and they need test cases. I don't believe that happened to me, but it did cross my mind at one point. I totally understand about not wanting to tell your story. Every time I told my story, I never got a response I was seeking, although what response was I wanting? My life was worse before my experience. I actually was excited to be living through my 'abductions'. Sure I lost the respect of all my friends and my family. But I looked at it like its a price I had to pay. I always wished I knew if there was something else out there. And I found out.
Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer
I thought i was being contacted by a visitor that was in my house one night at age five.
i also considered that i was being electronically meddled with by someone deep in the government who has been telling me all sorts of crap all along from within the shadows. never face to face communication.
in different threads i had been reporting things that have been happening to me... very paranormal experiences.
it almost came to a complete halt. i don't know whether to be relieved or terrified. i don't know if something terrible has happened to someone I know and felt i was communicating with or if a nutcase is just taking a break.... or trying to break me rather. crush my compiled emotions. the things that happened right before the halt... so messed up. i am so bent about this i can't even begin to talk about what i feel because i don't know. it's not going to come anywhere near to sending me over the edge though because most of what i feel is anger. just old, stale, diluted anger. I am so pissed off this is all happening and REALLY pissed off that i couldn't have just been told things long ago. this is bull#. i feel no love in this area. i'm glad things in other areas are going better. It just seems to sleep as of right now but the processes that i am experiencing right now are taking me back to a very familiar feeling and it isn't good at all.
I would try to explain but i'm afraid I'm not making myself clear.
Originally posted by FoxMulder007
. ....... ... In regards of thinking you were being electronically meddled with, I did consider my experience was just some government experiment. Like some scientist figured out how to tap into our sight and sense and they need test cases. I don't believe that happened to me, but it did cross my mind at one point. I totally understand about not wanting to tell your story. Every time I told my story, I never got a response I was seeking, although what response was I wanting? My life was worse before my experience. I actually was excited to be living through my 'abductions'. Sure I lost the respect of all my friends and my family. But I looked at it like its a price I had to pay. I always wished I knew if there was something else out there. And I found out.
Originally posted by BlackSatinDancer
I thought i was being contacted by a visitor that was in my house one night at age five.
i also considered that i was being electronically meddled with by someone deep in the government who has been telling me all sorts of crap all along from within the shadows. never face to face communication.
in different threads i had been reporting things that have been happening to me... very paranormal experiences.
it almost came to a complete halt. i don't know whether to be relieved or terrified. i don't know if something terrible has happened to someone I know and felt i was communicating with or if a nutcase is just taking a break.... or trying to break me rather. crush my compiled emotions. the things that happened right before the halt... so messed up. i am so bent about this i can't even begin to talk about what i feel because i don't know. it's not going to come anywhere near to sending me over the edge though because most of what i feel is anger. just old, stale, diluted anger. I am so pissed off this is all happening and REALLY pissed off that i couldn't have just been told things long ago. this is bull#. i feel no love in this area. i'm glad things in other areas are going better. It just seems to sleep as of right now but the processes that i am experiencing right now are taking me back to a very familiar feeling and it isn't good at all.
I would try to explain but i'm afraid I'm not making myself clear.
Originally posted by EmceeTrick
Well, Im not sure whats going on, but I can tell you I have had some really weird dreams. Just last night in my dream there was a woman the appeared with giant black sunglasses and was very thin and she just stood there looking at me.. it frightened me so much i awoke from my dream shaking. There was also a strange scent in my apartment, like sweet smelling coffee... mind you i live on the first floor with no one near me so it wasnt a smell from another aparment. This was also about 335 this am. I know it seems vague but it was just really odd and honestly scared the ish out of me. I wonder if its prepping me?