posted on Jan, 25 2012 @ 04:42 PM
Over the last few weeks I seem to have slipped into a very deep point of reflection.
I have PTSD and one of the natures of the beast is turning inwards.
( What you do when you go inside yourself is up to you really with this disorder. It does have many advantages to it)
I tend to reflect. I have lived with PTSD my entire life. Once I found out what it was, it explained so much to me about how my head works. A little
psychology can go a very long ways, and I suspect most psychologists got into it because they had a deep need to understand their own minds. All I
needed was the tools to alleviate the symptoms, and I did the rest.
PTSD does something special to the person who gets it. They might not realize it, but they know people better. They pick up on so many cues that they
don't even know they see. It all goes into the subconscious mind and swirls there in abstract thought, reprocessed and fed back to the conscious. It
is a beautiful process if viewed psychologically. Although to the person with PTSD, it sucks. Hyper vigilance is a bi otch. I've lived with it my
entire life ,although I have learned to tone it down and tune it out so to speak.
The USA in particular, but I think much of the world, is suffering from GTSD. I can see it in what appears to be irrational decisions being made by
not only my country, but others as well.
The world has been shocked into a heightened state of alert.
How did we get here?
Well obviously a lot of it was 9/11. For many people in the USA it was so shocking that to this day, the thought makes them shake, but there is
more....
We bombard ourselves with negative media CONSTANTLY!! When you understand what PTSD is, what I see people doing every day is a form of PTSD. Through
media they relive negative images over and over again, reliving someone else's trauma,death, accident, even fictional imagry, and they think they are
desensitized to it? They are not. It resides in the subconscious mind and will come out as nightmares, irritability, misplaced emotions, irrational
decisions,and just a bad sense that something is wrong. I think this has spread to the masses in such a way that every strange noise, every rumor of
war, every element of life in general, is effecting everyone on a much larger scale than we realize.
Hyper vigilance is a bitch.
It will make the world over react.
The scary thing to me is that I don't see a fix for global consciousness.
So that is my little rant. People wonder why the world is so messed up? It is because you watch it over and over again just like someone with PTSD
who views their trauma over and over again. It beats you up and keeps you down but you cannot stop looking...over and over again.
end of rant.