posted on Dec, 23 2011 @ 04:38 PM
I am in the Navy. I sought psychological help due to the stress of my personal and career. Not to go into details, I on nuclear reactors. I was first
in my class in A school and received a military excellence award. I my second school right afterwards, I was top tier of my class and received another
military excellence award. The third school, I had the highest test scores out of my group and was picked up to be an instructor. When I came to my
sea command, I just got married to woman whom I have a child with. We went through a cancer scare, suicide attempts from my mother, foreclosure on my
childhood home, identity theft without about 50,000 worth of charges made by my mother. All this while working 12 hour days at least, mixed in with
duty days, also excelling in my quals on the boat, then also having to pay for food, lodging, and travel without compensation for training states away
from where I was stationed at the time. Also, the unfortunate truth is that those who are suppose to have integrity, don't always have integrity when
it comes to log-taking, maintenance and having to do work. With the stress of all this, I was having problems with my wife and I was exhibiting anger
issues at home. It started off with yelling, then cursing, then smashing things in my house. I talked to my chain of command about my issues. My chain
command literally said that maybe I should just divorce my wife and get it over with. They also stated that any problems I have better be solved on my
own time. And the money I spent for training was taking one for the team and if I should take that up any further, I might my find myself hard pressed
to have any free time or advance in my rate. Needless to say, I had choice words for my chain of command and I will admit, I crossed a line a bit when
I lost my temper and told the XO some choice words. Although they did try to mast me, they ultimately failed, but I had to see shrinks for depression
and anger issues. I lost my NEC in the Navy and now I technically do not have a viable career. They will not approve me for a rate change, will not
let go to back to my rate, and will not separate me from the Navy. I am currently paying back a bonus I recieved at $700 a month and if you know
anything about military pay, an E-5 does not make the best living, although not the worst.
My situation is not that bad compared to some of the others I have seen. When I went through my schooling and my time as an instructor, I knew of well
over 10 people who committed suicide. And we don't even hit the front lines. I can't imagine what those soldiers go through. The military and
government act as though they care, but they do not. We are just tools, property to the government. The leadership is apathetic and anemic. I am not
proud of my military service, nor do I think it made me a better man. I didn't need the military to know what integrity is or how to work hard. I do
it because it what I think is right, Unfortunately, it depends on which way the wind is blowing when it comes to it being the Navy way. I truly do
believe that the programming of the military is breaking down and we are realizing the waste, fraud, corruption, and abuse that is going on within the
government, Many of the military are just trying to survive day to day and many of us are not proud the wear the uniform. As I have stated in other
posts, exercise your rights and get this government changed out. We'll protect the country as soldiers and sailors because it is our duty. American
citizens should protect theirs and our freedoms and liberties by voting and getting involved. If it comes to do revolution, I have no doubt that the
majority of the military will stand on the side of the people if it came to government sending us after the citizens.