I'm considering going back to sleep.

reply to post by ALOSTSOUL


yo, I just made a film for people exactly like you...again, it may not give you all the answers, but I just put together a documentary for how I got an understanding of what this all means. Please check it out.

youtube.com... or ageofdeceit.com...

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by InnerPeace2012

 

Truth is I don't even know the question. I have this feeling, I don't know what it is or where it comes from. I just feel different to everyone around me, Out of place if you will. I feel as if I'm meant to do something or be something. This feeling doesn't get me down in fact I like it, it compels me to search for things I other wise wouldn't look for.

This 'feeling' started to disappeared when I started researching conspiracies, then completely disappeared when I joined ATS. You only have to look at me name to know why I joined. But now I am starting to feel the 'difference' within the conspiracy world.

ALS

i know exactly what you mean...i lost my purpose when i joined ats also........but, i think i'm slowly regaining it and that all that i'm doing is part of the journey....although, ats is candy for the masses...

reply to post by patternfinder


i think your right buddie ... if only it was easy ... but .. if it was easy and we all went along then it wouldnt be living... we wouldnt be living... for example .. i recently got diagnosed with crohns and while finding clean foods online im finding stuff on microwave ovens, gluten, aspartame causing cancers, depression and a lot of modern things that are growing in the developing world... telling friends these things im the weirdo... but they know they are being ignorant ... they dont want to know because it is easier... im giving them videos and links but they wont watch ... because their words " oh no id never eat that again if i knew that " ... madness ...

reply to post by patternfinder


I didn't lose my purpose. The point is I thought I had found it when in fact I now believe I haven't. I guess I should keep searching.

ALS

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by patternfinder

 

I didn't lose my purpose. The point is I thought I had found it when in fact I now believe I haven't. I guess I should keep searching.

ALS

here's the deal dude. I can relate to you for sure. There are three buckets where we put our lives. Opinion, Beliefs, and Convictions. We all have opinions and they change often. We all have beliefs, and I would say for many of us at a forum like this one has some firm beliefs about the "conspiracy" the world is under. But, everyone is seeking convictions. I found myself rotating different belief systems etc, to see whether they will fall into the bucket of conviction. Only one thing has. It may not be for you, but for me it really was the truth. And the truth has set me free.

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by InnerPeace2012

 

Truth is I don't even know the question. I have this feeling, I don't know what it is or where it comes from. I just feel different to everyone around me, Out of place if you will. I feel as if I'm meant to do something or be something. This feeling doesn't get me down in fact I like it, it compels me to search for things I other wise wouldn't look for.

This 'feeling' started to disappeared when I started researching conspiracies, then completely disappeared when I joined ATS. You only have to look at me name to know why I joined. But now I am starting to feel the 'difference' within the conspiracy world.

ALS

I can only tell you this, I was no different than you. Pls do not think I'm in the know of any answers. As each individual has a unique perspective of the truth whichever it maybe.

I can only offer my experience of how I found my answers and share with you in the hope that you can find yours.

I realized that focusing too much on the negatives for me, lowered my conscious vibration, and that I became depressed myself because of this illusion of a reality I discovered.

However, as I went on in search for my answers, I finally realized that I had been looking the wrong way.

There is really no answers as I realized, I was searching for something I made myself believe existed.

I freed myself from any self imposed beliefs and there I was, free from any mental oppression.

There is really nothing anyone can do to change me but myself.

I quite being depressed and life has never been any better.

I hope my experience is of some help to you and others.

Peace

Originally posted by InnerPeace2012

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by InnerPeace2012

 

Truth is I don't even know the question. I have this feeling, I don't know what it is or where it comes from. I just feel different to everyone around me, Out of place if you will. I feel as if I'm meant to do something or be something. This feeling doesn't get me down in fact I like it, it compels me to search for things I other wise wouldn't look for.

This 'feeling' started to disappeared when I started researching conspiracies, then completely disappeared when I joined ATS. You only have to look at me name to know why I joined. But now I am starting to feel the 'difference' within the conspiracy world.

ALS

I can only tell you this, I was no different than you. Pls do not think I'm in the know of any answers. As each individual has a unique perspective of the truth whichever it maybe.

I can only offer my experience of how I found my answers and share with you in the hope that you can find yours.

I realized that focusing too much on the negatives for me, lowered my conscious vibration, and that I became depressed myself because of this illusion of a reality I discovered.

However, as I went on in search for my answers, I finally realized that I had been looking the wrong way.

There is really no answers as I realized, I was searching for something I made myself believe existed.

I freed myself from any self imposed beliefs and there I was, free from any mental oppression.

There is really nothing anyone can do to change me but myself.

I quite being depressed and life has never been any better.

I hope my experience is of some help to you and others.

Peace

edit on 18-9-2011 by InnerPeace2012 because: (no reason given)

ditto

I came to different conclusions but it's interesting how we all find truth somewhere...I by no means are claiming to know it all though...Don't think you are either, but just saying. We can only be the best we can be, and from my worldview, we've been given a down payment for a brand new body and a lasting life as part of the kingdom of light.

Being aware of the "ugly truth" of our current existence is only one level of awakening. It is important to see behind the screen into the "truth" of things.

Another level of awakening happens when you become aware of the spiritual and energetic nature of reality

Yet another level of awakening is actually experiencing a feeling of unity from a sub-atomic level on up.

These dark deedsters, as devilish as their deeds, play a necessary counterpoint in this world of duality.

Take a nap if you must, but once you've gained an awareness of awakeness you can never truly go back to sleep again.

Something ATS taught me VERY quickly is that when you start asking questions, you're opening up the floodgate for more to follow.

But look at it like this. Before you found 'the world of conspiracies', you had NO answers. Not even a single thread of an answer to grasp hold of.

Now you have found it you have about as many different answers as you could imagine. A very intricately woven carpet, if you will - and in keeping with the thread analogy!

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by InnerPeace2012

 

Truth is I don't even know the question. I have this feeling, I don't know what it is or where it comes from. I just feel different to everyone around me, Out of place if you will. I feel as if I'm meant to do something or be something. This feeling doesn't get me down in fact I like it, it compels me to search for things I other wise wouldn't look for.

Perhaps the something you were meant to do was find the answers about yourself? Gain an insight into yourself as a person, after exploring many and various scenarios, belief-systems, ideolies and the like in the pot at the end of the rainbow.

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL

Ahhh my head is spinning, I thought I had found my answers but it's seems I was just side tracked from my journey.

ALS

Perhaps the process you've been going through, including questioning truth/validity/faith etc is your journey?

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by InnerPeace2012

 

This 'feeling' started to disappeared when I started researching conspiracies, then completely disappeared when I joined ATS. You only have to look at me name to know why I joined. But now I am starting to feel the 'difference' within the conspiracy world.

When you first joined the community, I would guess you were overwhelmed by the volume of information available in your particular areas of interest and, indeed, the number of other members with similar interests. I know I was. I still am.

But you no longer felt different. Because you weren't any more.

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by patternfinder

 

I didn't lose my purpose. The point is I thought I had found it when in fact I now believe I haven't. I guess I should keep searching.
ALS

Go for it, what have you to lose? I intend to keep striving to learn my purpose.

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by tritoneblues

 

Only once in a blue moon do you see a glimmer of hope and truth.

ALS

The exact reason I intend to keep searching.


Best wishes on your journey

reply to post by ALOSTSOUL


there is your problem right there. there is nothing to search for, its all right beneathe your feet. you take a step wherever you want. then take another and another, and get to go wherever you want. life has morals it seems, and they appear to be inescapable. you may reach your "goal" whatever that may be, just to find its not what you wanted. or that you may have even given up what you wanted along the way.
you have lessons to learn all along the way, whichever way you choose, rather or not you even know you are choosing

this is your story, you pick it. believe nothing of what you hear, half of what you see. most people get deceived, obviously. sometimes over and over. but that doesnt mean the truth is out of reach, no matter how worthless one "feels"

that, to me, is like a cattle prod. you get this feeling when you hesitate. when the ethical lessons stretched out before you seem to much to handle. something has to push us or we will never push back harder

reply to post by ALOSTSOUL

I thought I found a place where truths became honor and lies became the Axis.

Its the other way around. The lies are the honor, and the truth is the Axis. That is how the world Elites are actually doing us a favor in a way.

Live the lie, and you live a fun productive, meaningful life.

Live the truth and you live a miserable unproductive meaningless life.

Its not fun being a conspiracy theorist. But someones gotta do it !!!

Good luck. I tried going back to sleep when I was still in denial of being awake. Didn't work out so well.

reply to post by Mouldilocks


I guess my answer is to keep searching. To keep striving for truth and knowledge of who and what I am, who and what we are. I guess somewhere along the line I forgot this. Finding the answer is not the answer, it is in looking that I feel truly at peace. Haha I see it now I genuinely do. Damn I'm proberly gonna get called a women for this but I feel like I could cry.

I must say this thread has helped not only renew my faith in ATS and it's members, its helped in waking me up for the second time.

I'm not going back to sleep, ever.

ALS

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by Mouldilocks

 

Damn I'm proberly gonna get called a women for this but I feel like I could cry.

There is a very fitting line in the film The Big Lebowski I will offer as a response. It goes something along the lines of this:

"Strong men also cry"

Originally posted by ALOSTSOUL
reply to post by Mouldilocks

 

I must say this thread has helped not only renew my faith in ATS and it's members, its helped in waking me up for the second time.

I'm not going back to sleep, ever.

ALS

You were never asleep, just temporarily sidetracked.

Explore

Comparison between theorists and the elites?
Lol if you think that way, well you might as well go back to sleep, strong ignorance is strong with this one.

reply to post by ALOSTSOUL


You like onions?

I like onions. Conspiracies and ATS are like onions. You just gotta suck up your tears and peel away at the layers one at a time to get to that center. Once you eat all the layers and eat the center you move on to the next onion.

Sometimes, one onion can take an entire lifetime to peel though.

I am too, literally and physically. This news makes me depressed, I might've had mental problems all my life but this honestly made it worse. It feels like I'm just going to wake up and snap one day, I am physically as well as emotionally drained. It never gets any better, it just gets worse. I'm at the point where if it ends, take me out, just #ing take me! You can have me!

I am with you OP, I am considering going back to being a sheeple. I wasn't this angry before, now I just want to lash out at the world. This is one of these decisions that if I make it, I probably won't come back to any conspiracy site. I am at my wits end.

Originally posted by RadeonGFXRHumanGTXisAlien
Comparison between theorists and the elites?
Lol if you think that way, well you might as well go back to sleep, strong ignorance is strong with this one.

Yes i see many comparison between CT's and the elites. Atleast in the sense of propagating a lie for power and profit. If you cannot see it than perhaps it is you who is ignorant?

ETA: I see you are a new'ish member so I won't call you ignorant just not yet seasoned.

ALS

I feel led to post some advice for you.

You do have a purpose. And you know you do, because you can feel it. When did that feeling disappear? When searching conspiracies. What are conspiracies? They are things going on around you, outside of you. Beyond your control.

I would like to suggest that you now take some time to focus on yourself, rather than the rest of the world. Give yourself the same attention you give conspiracy theories. What's going on in your mind, your body, you soul? How can you make yourself better on those levels? Let go of the negativity of conspiracies while you do this; it will still be there. Do this, and I bet that sense of purpose comes back to you.

Originally posted by Heartisblack
I am too, literally and physically. This news makes me depressed, I might've had mental problems all my life but this honestly made it worse. It feels like I'm just going to wake up and snap one day, I am physically as well as emotionally drained. It never gets any better, it just gets worse. I'm at the point where if it ends, take me out, just #ing take me! You can have me!

I am with you OP, I am considering going back to being a sheeple. I wasn't this angry before, now I just want to lash out at the world. This is one of these decisions that if I make it, I probably won't come back to any conspiracy site. I am at my wits end.

Come on cheer up!!!

We all are no different, if me and others can handle it, I'm sure you can too. You should read some of the replies and stop and think about it for a moment...

It's all happening, there is really no point in being depressed at the end of the day...

I'm sure, you'll get over it....

Peace