posted on Sep, 18 2011 @ 12:55 AM
I got stuck on the numbers 9 and 19 after an experience too detailed to explain.
At first, I saw them everywhere. For weeks on end, everything was a 9 or 19 or totaled up to those numbers.
Then it went away. But I kept thinking about it. It made me look for it more; researching everything I could about the numbers... realizing it was the
sum of the characters in my name, my social, and my birth date.
Then, as time went by, and the numbers stopped showing up, I stopped thinking about them as frequently. But then, it's as if the numbers started
finding me. When I stopped looking, and when I wasn't thinking about them, they started showing up.
To this day, I can be driving down the road and get this sensation in my gut to look at my watch - lo and behold it will be 1:08, or 2:07, or maybe
9:19. And sure, it's easy enough to say that subconsciously I'm still looking for those numbers. But what really gets me... is when I get that
sensation and look at my watch, I immediately look up at the closest billboard or gas price sign and find that the sum of any fuel (diesel, unleaded,
super, w/e) is always 9.
The numbers game isn't enjoyable in the slightest. And it takes a lot of work to dig yourself out of a hole you've spent a year digging. But if this
is something that truly bothers you enough to seek help, then I'd recommend you start filling the hole back in with sand fast.