The Illuminati has been after me since my childhood. What the hell do I do?

Decided to cut most of this, pretty pointless. Not out of paranoia, i just don't feel like looking like an idiot.

is this a school project ? joke ?

lol

originally posted by: MonarchSlave
First of all, I'm a twenty year old female. My initials are M.M.M., and I was born in 1990.
Ever since I was a kid I was administered to a more casual stype of Monarch Programming that involves trauma based treatment that expliots mental disassociation. Basically, I was abused by my paternal father, who was a German adopted child and was also subject to the same treatment as a kid, only much more extreme. It is common knowledge that Monarch programmers are commonly Monarch slaves themselves. This has left me with somewhat of a Peter Pan complex, trust issues, and a general disassiocation of reality. You can read into what Monarch Programming is on the net, but let me get into some more disturbing details other than this.

First of all, I need people who are not skeptics on this subject. I need someone who knows how the Illuminati works, what they do, and how they hide themselves. I need someone who knows how they hide in plain sight in the music industry, how they run the media, and how they control peoples lives. I need someone who understands how deed seeded their influence in society really is, how they can easily plan murders, events, anything and how every neighborhood has Illuminati watchdogs. This is not a laughing matter, I am entirely alone in this and even my own mother was in on the programming.

Let's begin with the basics. As a child I was made to wear plain dresses with a single butterly on them, I was given a butterfly necklace for my 13th birthday (when one is considered a woman), and my mom would adorn me with butterfly barrettes. The butterfly is a symbol of Monarch programming, and it is an image that is supposed to represent the soul, many Monarch slaves within the music industry discreetly wear a butterfly in some form. The butterly of course is related to the name, "Monarch programming". Monarch children are subjected to varying degrees of torture, some more severe than others depending on how in depth the family is with the Illuminati, some of which are undergone mild programming even if they are from an outer family for the sake of keeping them servile. Children who are chosen for this are expected to have higher IQ's than most and an innate ability to connect to the spiritual and therefore are programmed early on to ensure they do not become "free thinkers". If a child becomes a free thinker, the next series of events in their life are staged in order to lower their morale and get them to commit suicide. They are often given planned areas to live in, planned spouses or boy/girlfriends, and everything down to their very school teachers are carefully selected.

My father was an alcoholic, he abused all of us children, and I was subjected to a lot of abuse as a kid. Before that I was subject to my mom and dad screaming at eachother on purpose to induce a sense of trauma before I was even able to speak. This caused me to be very shy, withdrawn, speaking only when spoken to, servile, scared, and extremely emotionally sensitive.

As I grew up I was subjected to types of media that would encourage an overly sexual nature, being shown many Illuminati made movies such as A Clockwork Orange when I was no more than eight years old. This did not work for the most part because I was shy and therefore inconfident with my body, so I remained innocent, however I was in many ways encouraged to engage in masturbation. Being told not only that it was normal, but healthy and good for me. In general, I was taught many things that when I turned 15 I would outright reject.

The phase from 14 to 15 is actually quite dramatic, and cannot be psychologically explained because one does not go from being a relatively 14 year old girl to suddenly being an anti-Illuminati anti-government 15 year old is, dare I say, a spiritual transformation. All the prior programming compeltely backfired and suddenly I was aware of more than I would have been had I been raised a normal child. My teachers and peers would mock me, call me weird, and tell me I was insane for thinking that the government did 9/11, that they control too many aspects of our lives, etc etc, and most assumed I was just trying to be rebellious and cool. However, they were severely mistaken.

At this point in time a friend of mine had told me "give me your soul", handing me a white sheet of paper, I signed it, being indoctrinated into being an atheist at the time, and went on with my life, thinking nothing of it.
Years later this document was relinquished and holds no legal ground whatsoever anymore, if it had any in the first place.

This next chain of events in my life after that moment were too positive to be normal. I was not the most attractive girl, I was not likable, I was goth, reserved, people were afraid of me, others mocked me, but all in all no one liked me. But nonetheless suddenly after that I had people asking me on dates, popular people wanting to hang out, guys that I know would NEVER like me asking me out. I had people offering to pay for my #, all kinds of stuff.

It was only recently I noticed during these years, my neighbor's van a few doors down was a private company of his, a plumbing company, but the logo was a crosshair with the letters MM stacked on top of eachother within the crosshair. The guy was obviously a Mason, but I had never noticed that the logo was a threat to me and a message to the neighboorhood that I was "in the crosshair" of their "sniper", they had me in their sights, basically saying they were pointing their gun at me because I was getting out of line.

Not shortly after that I undergo intense demonic attacks that are akin to being shot in the head, just after I reach what I thought was a state of pure enlightenment. Aka, I found God.

My teachers knew things about me I never told anyone, sometimes I would catch them slipping up and saying # they couldn't possibly know. I was bullied by the staff because of my beliefs, they couldn't change my mindset and so they subjected me to police state like rules and threatened useless things on me.


Then I drop out, meet my first boyfriend, turns out he's a Mason and he was only sent to date me for the sake of putting me in a vulnerable position spiritually. He leaves me and the next thing I know, boom, lights out. He spoke in the same way they speak in music videos when they're using cryptic Illuminati language, basically speaking Babylonian, although at the time I had no idea about this language.


Now I'm seeing people coming out with music relevant to my assault that no one will understand except them.
People can call it insanity, but I need legitimate advice and I need people to spread the world on what they do.
This isn't a joke, this is real, the music industry, media, they're all Luciferians and would rather KILL a monarch slave than let them go. The fact I found out about all of this was never supposed to happen to begin with.

I. Need. Help.

You are pretty much always under watch with these people. I would just try to live life normally. If you feel unsafe, buy nonlethal weapons. Make sure you make friends with the right people, etc

If the illuminati have watchdogs in every neighborhood, as the OP claims, then they were certainly capable of tracing her post here at ATS to her physical address and showing up at her front door.

Too the OP read some of my older posts in the mason section were i give a outline of how there structure may have worked, i too was a victim of abuse first by a government institution that tested kids with learning disabilities and then later by so called friends, it all followed a similer theme, the person throwing mind control in me and then different forms of abuse of the mind.

I do think it's strange that this crap started out when i was seven and then all threw my life other people kept showing up sticking mind control in me, however one must watch out for the illusion these mind controllers use, with using your mind the way they do they can cause forms of manifestion in a illusion type way by even making others think something is real when it is not, i give the thoery of Archon as example one, when my last abuser stuck mind control in me he used forms of remote hypnosis set up with ques and trigger words to get me in a altered state, he then applied the image of two video game characters fighting in my head as i was in theta state almost asleep, these video game characters were from a video game called Archon from Electronic Arts (which came out in 1983), a few years after this people started popping up saying that Archons were real and that they were some form of demon or something even David Icke fell for this, so when studying the mind control applied on you just be careful and try and be as thorough as possible.

Very interesting post. Not quite sure what to make of it, as we clearly live in a very, very strange world.

Hi Monarch

wow I only read up to page 8 and then I skipped to the end to write to you. First of all I want to say how much courage you have to step out and speak up about what has happened to you and I praise the Lord that you have found Him.

Here are some links that may be of an encouragement to you and your journey of faith and assist you in overcoming the obstacles that you may be facing presently as well as answers to questions you may have.

Fiona Barnett, I believe had some interaction with the Monarch programme and she was programmed and abused along with Nicole Kidman the actress. Nicole Kidman's father was CIA linked and ran the Psychology dept at one of the universities in Australia. He ran and oversaw the Monarch program. When Fiona rebelled and broke away and came to Christ she decided to fight back, last year she filed a criminal lawsuit against Nicole's father regarding the abuse etc. Within 2 weeks after she filed it in court, Nicoles Father was found dead in Singapore under suspicious circumstances.

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Bill Schnoebelon was a involved high up in the illuminati before he came to Christ. He has great information that would be of benefit to you. And you can also find many youtube clips of his teaching as well as soundcloud

www.withoneaccord.org...
www.youtube.com...
soundcloud.com...

Ruz Dizdar would have material that would be helpful
shatterthedarkness.net...

Here is one to encourage you to have perseverance in your faith. soundcloud.com...

I have other links to suggest but that's all for now.

God bless you and keep fighting the good fight

What's strange to me...
There was another member named white Alice on here a few years ago who told the exact same story.
I mean exactly. Her father everything.

originally posted by: Sillyolme
What's strange to me...
There was another member named white Alice on here a few years ago who told the exact same story.
I mean exactly. Her father everything.

Perhaps OP is WhiteAlice as well. Perhaps 'THANKS' for blowing the cover. Multiplicity certainly would apply.

Regardless, this is why the whole situation is a mess for someone. Take me - as a child, I was brutally brutally tortured into having split personalities, basically raised/apprenticed under morticians, then enrolled in 'the Monroe institute' to learn controlled OOBE's... mortician apprenticing when I was young helped desensitize me to gore/death in general, give me knowledge of cause of death and anatomy, etc... and eventually through becoming more comfortable with death and bodies, it minimized the 'gravity of what I was doing' and the guilt I would ever feel as well, even from amnesiac 'leak-through' to my conscious persona... then the controlled OOBE obviously is an apparatus free method of keeping in contact, regardless. it also is good for... if I get lost HAHAHAHA. Nah, good for scouting, good for shooting up to birds eye view, etc etc... most of this stuff is for the field... and to give a grown man crying fits like a little girly baby, that too!

anyway, enough about me, a deep delta dissector... the point is.... you have people out here telling stories... here are some of the thoughts that cross my mind:

- is it true (or more like what parts of some/most)
- were they MK/MONARCH'd and breaking free but still so programmed they are misinterpreting reality due to extreme duress
- were they MK/MONARCH'd purposefully to tell some BS and this is not even them trying to break free
- even if they are lying, should I let it slide just incase, or to not hurt other survivors feelings/chances of coming out
- there is no perfect answer, there is too much BS, from purposeful disinformation (take your pick of delivery method) and too many unintentional people that are just crazy, on top of whatever happened to them
- how do I sound when I talk about this #
- losing train of thought aaaaaand.....

OK

anyway... I fell off. I didn't even read this post BTW, I don't need to, and there is not much I can do to help. Read Allison Miller's books. Hypnotic Regression- but that can be dangerous... you have to be ready to face your reality and relive actual feeling including pain, lots of horrible pain... sorry. That being said, if you dare, and hypnotically regress yourself a lot... you can release a lot of this. Worked for me, but when the chunk of memories came up I got real pissed off and # and ended up in prison for a couple = # happens wasn't as bad as going through MONARCH as a kid. Actually, it was a vacation from life.

a reply to: MonarchSlave

First, I want to say that I've lived very similar things as you. The replies you are getting are very, very typical of the ones who work at trying to make you believe that this is not happening to you. Being told that 1- you're a psycho is typical; 2- telling you to find Jesus in your heart or to read the Bible is always one of their agendas; 3- Telling you that you are not that important is another one of their normal responses.

I read several things about Project Monarch and some people are speaking up about it. I suggest you read Cathy O'Brien's books (I have yet to do so, but she even has one about how to self-heal which I think would be good for you and me) and one that describes the abuse she suffered. Second, Roseann Barr is one of the leading whistleblowers of this very same type of abuse and brainwashing in the mainstream media. Look up her videos - she uses the term "MK Ultra", but since that was officially closed in 1973, she is actually referring to its offspring, Monarch.

Do you have an Rh negative blood type? I do. It's another thing to look into.

As to answers on how to make this stop (which is what I am trying to desperately do), I was told to get a good lawyer, which I can't afford.... or suicide. Yet, I have tried to end my life several times and the watchdogs intervene and make sure I can't succeed. I don't think they want me dead - there are too many people depending on their big fat paychecks in this field and they would lose their little slave/play-toy. THis is a project that requires a load of investments. Do you think they want to let that money go to waste by you killing yourself? HELL, NO! They want you alive, dear. So the best thing to do is to try to wiggle your way out any way you can.

Look at Poppy's videos on YouTube to see if anything rings true with you. I suggest you watch the X-Files all the while remembering that the "aliens" are actually CIA agents (the alien story is a cover-up) and X-Men (notice the similarity in the names) and remember that you did not lose your memory the same way as Wolverine, but your life is similar: chosen partner (before Logan became Wolverine, his girlfriend was a spy) and how a special class of 'mutants' is despised by the world... a certain bloodline of mutants which, if you watch the Rh negative blood-type videos, will become clear to you.

There is a lot in the mainstream media that is used for the work of the MK people: Disney, many pop stars, several movies and TV shows, and so on. Find info on the Illuminati and what they want you to believe and you will see if you are a threat to them. I am. I know I am. I am mostly a threat for Bildeberg at the moment because I spotted how they control 50% of the world's investments in megacorporations and want to bring down their power. So now they want to maintain me in deep depression, yet do NOT let me kill myself. My own parents mock me when I tell them about this and actually tell me to my face that my life doesn't belong to me. They gave me info that made me understand, indirectly, that they relish in the harm they do to me. It's disgusting to know someone would do that to their own child.

Anyways, sorry to not be able to help you more than this as to how to end the abuse. This is all I have for you.

I prefer written sentiments or in person discussions regarding such a sensitive topic but it’s real and they’re more powerful than any of us can image. Currently being watched by them too for this very reason. Not sure if you’re still alive but if you need someone to talk to that doesn’t think you’re insane then I’m all ears.

Demons take many guises. If they ever confront you, or you hear them, or feel them... simply ask them, matter-of-factly, if they know Jesus... you will feel them dissipate.

a reply to: MonarchSlave

You are associating music with your own past Thats the interesting thing about music. It is relate able in many ways. I know plenty of songs describing what I went through. Are they about me? No. But by probability, there will be coincidences. I'm sorry to say, but it is all in your head. Take this from somebody who almost believed the same thing. Shoot, a lot of times I'd talk about conspiracys like illuminati with my friends through online messaging, my internet would shut off mid convo. Ego drives us to believe we are more than what we are. In that I mean that we are more important than we actually are. It's really easy to get lost in that. Really, really easy.


Coincidence.

a reply to: Soulece

This poster has not posted any post on ATS since May 24 2011.....only posted three posts on the first page of this thread..... and then...
Disappeared?
Is it coincidence I wonder?

originally posted by: Itisnowagain
a reply to: Soulece

This poster has not posted any post on ATS since May 24 2011.....only posted three posts on the first page of this thread..... and then...
Disappeared?
Is it coincidence I wonder?

Yes. I should of looked at the time of the OP. I wouldn't have spent time on it then. Oops. Could also be an elaborate troll.

originally posted by: Soulece

Yes. I should of looked at the time of the OP. I wouldn't have spent time on it then. Oops. Could also be an elaborate troll.

No people really get to these points of paranoia. A form of self-manifesting trouble that only exist due to their own persistence upon these troubles. And so the troubles become strong and consume them in a feedback loop until they realize it is all a self-contrived charade. It is a testament to the power of the mind, but unfortunately in these scenarios it demonstrates how dark a mind can become and surround itself with such a likeness.

a reply to: cooperton

How do you know it was paranoia? The
poster could be dead for all we know.
She did say in her last post in 2011 that she felt she would end up dead... that post is on the first page.

a reply to: Soulece

An 'elaborate troll'?
The op got 51 stars and many posters just called her nasty names.
And then she has disappeared after writing just three times in desperation.
8 years later people are coming and still calling her names.
I suppose we will never know what happened to her.

a reply to: MonarchSlave

If I was you , Id seek the help of a shaman , and get them to do a soul retrieval gather all of your lost soul shards , bring yourself back to you

and then cleanse your soul , should shake them off for a bit and give you some breathing space !

If you believe they are after your soul , then I think only a shaman can help you

a reply to: sapien82

The poster has left the building.... 8 years ago.