Homesick for unremembered places

Have you ever been surrounded by familiar things, people or places, and suddenly had an overwhelming feeling of homesickness. However, as you are quite "at home" in your environment, it makes no sense whatsoever?

I've tried to examine this feeling (that comes and goes at random moments), when I'm having it. I feel this huge surge of longing for "home". This has happened when I'm actually At home, or in a place that is homey to me. (If you follow).

Always I have this extreme disconnection with all the people and things and places around me and in my life, almost like nothing in that moment is home. Home is a place I cannot seem to be able to 'place' in my mind. I can't grasp a hold of the image or the location of what I'm missing. Only that I miss it terribly for a single instant, and then it fades away again.

Also: this happens occasionally in conjunction with this feeling, but I sometimes pick up a piece of new technology and have this feeling of tiredness - almost like the feeling of having to use an extremely old fashioned, and out of date article because I have no other option. Imagine the feeling you would have of picking up an old dial phone on the wall and using that because you had no blue-tooth handsets around....

Thoughts?

I haven't felt this, but do you mean this is some kind of deja vu ?

reply to post by azurecara


Funny you should post this. I was just at a site where others were talking about re-remembering things.
Then I come here and you are talking about feeling home sick.
It could be a long shot, but check it out anyway.

www.georgekavassilas.org

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Not at all like deja vu. Deja vu I have flashes of with far more regularity, and feel more like a remembered moment being relived. Quite often times a remembered dream - which I can pinpoint a bit better. If I've dreamt the moment previously I can usually work out when I had the dream, and occasionally, if I was watching the moment from a different viewpoint.

This feeling is usually a strong feeling of wanting to go "home", or wishing I could be "home", and the saddness is because I just cannot get there. It's difficult to describe. The feeling of Home is more defined, but unassociated with any visual or aural memory of it. Kind of like, I would recognise it again if I saw it... but I can't remember it.

Hmmmm.... it's like there is a knowledge of "home", exactly in the same way you Know you know a certain song... but until the melody starts to play, you cannot remember a single word to sing, or how the music is supposed to go.

I feel home when I'm in woods or in nature in general. I think it's something to do with our origins and longing for nature where we came in the beginning.

I remember even at a very young age 6 or 7,thinking, i just want to go home. Only in my dreams do i succeed. Yes, I know exactly what you are talking about.

Friend,

Since being here, I have had a longing to go or be 'home'.

On several occasions when lost, lonely and disheartened about being 'here'. I've gazed at the stars in emotional turmoil and asked (screaming from within) 'take me home'...

What followed was an overwhelming and euphoric feeling of being loved, comforted and of not being alone. This is the closest I've felt to being back 'home', brought tears to my eye's...

Rest assured that you are not alone in not feeling at home...To me 'home' is in the beyond, another time, space, place, dimension or even star system. A place very different to this horrible, destructive and hideously dysfunctional place we call...Earth...

I remember a 'little' of what 'home' was like and want to make Earth more like 'home' or bring 'home' to Earth...

I feel compelled to post in this thread.

OP, I feel exactly the same way you do, and it's something that I've noticed throughout my entire life.

I have lived in Florida my entire life. I was born here and spent my entire childhood and adulthood (so far) here. As you probably know, it's humid and muggy 99% of the time down here. However, once in a while we get a really nice cool night, where northern winds blow in rushes of cold air. On nights like these I will go out for long walks, and experience this same homesickness that you describe.

It's most definitely not deja-vu. I've experienced deja-vu many times before and its a different feeling. Deja-vu is fleeting, whereas this is a much longer lasting experience. I experience a longing for a life or place that I don't recognize and can't put my finger on. When I was younger I just assumed it was me loving the cold weather, and feeling nostalgia for all of the other times I had been out in the cold. However as I've grown older I've realized that the feeling is always the same, and the longing is for something that I have not experienced in my lifetime.

I'm not a big believer in reincarnation, and I'm not even religious at all. I can't explain these symptoms, but I have come to recognize them. The feeling of nostalgia is the best way to describe it, but it's a much more distant kind of nostalgia. Even when I am reminded of my very early childhood, I can still place those feelings within the context of my own life. This feeling is more enigmatic.

I have since chalked it up to either past life recollections, genetic memory, or just general insanity . Whatever it is, I definitely experience it.

So there are others with the same feeling

It's the same with me. Suddenly, i get this strong feeling of homesickness and i never know exactly why. It makes me quite sad at that moment. As with you, it comes and goes. It started in my early teens i think.

Always thought that i'm the only one with that feeling, as everyone else i talked to couldn't relate to that at all.

You just want confirmation to what you think is the reason for this.

Without going too much into reincarnation and the ascension of the soul i'm going to remind you of a few things. Experiencing the darkness makes you understand better what light is. Because how can the light that is all define itself without any contrast. That is why you have chosen to descend on this planet of duality. To experience the darkness and to accumulate those experiences into your being. You could perhaps compare it to being a millionaire and feeling like you are missing some understanding of life as it is living just in luxury. Deciding to experience what it feels like to not be a millionaire and live on the street to understand better. It's a poor comparison to the evolution of souls but bare with me.

Now the real question is that where did you descend from? As you are an eternal being what did you experience and learn before? Where did you come from?

Planet Earth is one of the harshest places a soul can go to evolve. There are many other sentient planets living in higher dimensions where the lessons aren't as profound as they are on earth. From these planets souls decide to incarnate here on earth to speed up their evolution (especially as there will be a mass ascension in the nearby future).

What you are feeling is missing the higher dimensions and missing HOME. You feel like this what we are experiencing here is lacking something in a bad, bad way. What i'm saying is that it's very likely that you have reincarnated previously somewhere else where technology, understanding and light have been a lot more sophisticated here on earth. The imprint of that memory has stayed with you in your cellular consciousness and it's imprinted in the Akashic records. At times you can sense the separation from and it can be quite overwhelming.

Anyways don't fret. We are soon to be going up. The technologies we'll have in the near future won't feel so stoneage anymore and the separation from home will go away once you come in contact with your true family.

Love and light.

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it's unfortunate we aren't able to hold onto to that. perhaps we're not ready to remember. perhaps we're capable of handling only glimpses at a time.

I've played around with a few mind altering drugs when i was younger and I came to conclude that the feelings i experienced during my trips were that of REMEMBERING....similar to feeling of deja vu, yet remaining in that state.

It's almost as if now I live for AHA moments, no matter how ridiculous they are.

I've got a 3 year old son who is discovering the world and he is blown away by things that most adults would find insignificant, but spending time with him watching him take it all in is helping me remember the joy of life that is and has always been there within us all...overtime we just forget.

So BE with those moments of Remembering!!! They are well needed nudges along the way.

You are definately not alone my friend.

The only difference between you and I is that I walk around with this feeling day and night, night and day, day in, day out, 24/7.

I KNOW this isn't my home and I have a persistant feeling of not belonging here.
It is very painfull to be here for me.
I am aware of this every minuite of every day of my life.
From the time my feet hit the floor to the time my head hits the pillow I am bombardede with thoughts and feelings of not belonging and desparately wanting to go back home!!!

Where in the hell home is....I haven't a clue, but, I do remember what it was like, if that makes any sense to you.

There was love.
I have a mother and father figure that I vaugley remember.
I always get the feeling that I am deeply missed by......someone/s.
Life was simple but technology was advaced.
People lived in communities. Small communities. Responsibilities were shared.
Very earthy existance. Balanced if you will.
That is about all I can "remember" and when I say remember it is exactly as you describe. Knowing but not knowing. Just like a song that you KNOW you know, but can't think of the tune nor the words but when it comes on the radio you can sing every word.. Nail...!

What this knowing/feeling is I'd rather not speculate due to high troll volume on this site but just know that you aren't the only one and I am also glad to hear that I am not the only one.

Thanks for the thread.

Just yesterday I was out walking and I could suddenly smell Iris's blooming. I was instantly 14-years-old again and my memories were as if I literally was transported in time.

I continued walking as I allowed my mind to fill with the memories of my 14 yr old thoughts and suddenly I realized that I had my hands behind my back clasped together, the very exact way I used to walk when I was 14 (likely low self-esteem at the time). As soon as I recognized it the feelings all went away and I was back in my near-50-year-old mind...and body! Wow, memory triggered so radically by a flower! Spring is full of fond smell-memories!

Maybe the feeling is not distant memories from reincarnation,or something like that, but something more down to earth and much more serious. I know the feeling well, and at some point i recognized the reason for it.

What you mean by "Home" is the place where you grew up, or to which you have the deepest inner bond, the truest and most basic feelings. this "place" to me seems to be more a time, namely childhood, and an inner experience, to be secure, to be yourself, innocent etc. Maybe you long for your own self, for total homesty without lies and masks. Maybe you are not a totally honest person, especially honest to your self.

So, in order to explore this and not only connect it with highly speculative thoughts (only thoughts) about esoteric, confront yourself, preferably in meditation, with your distant childhood memories you have of yourself, not of outer circumstances, but of the state of mind you were having. Relive your deepest feelings and dont pretend, dont do anything. let all run, just like a child that nearly never acts without deep impulses. you might also do this with people you love - the experience would be even stronger.

i think through this you might find "home", only not in the outer world!

Definitely know what your talking about. I feel so empty being here, like something is missing. I can't put my finger on it. It seems like no matter where I move, and I've moved 6 different times, I don't feel right, I always want to pick up and go somewhere else, somewhere where I feel like I belong. I haven't found that yet and I have a feeling I will be searching for a long while. My dream is to move to Wyoming. But that probably won't happen anytime soon. But then I still question if I do move there, will it feel like home? So confusing. Wish the emptiness would fade and I could be happy where I am.

Also, Maybe we are dreaming of a better living, somewhere the world we live in isn't crap like we're all dealing with now. We were watching The Ed Sullivan show just recently on PBS they had oldies singers on there, showed life back how it used to be in those days. I wasn't even born yet, but mentioned to my husband, I want to live back in those days when life was simpler. And at that moment started naming things off, like I was there. And with all honesty I believe I was at some point.

Homesickness at home. That used to happen to me all the time, but not so much anymore. It's like the feeling you get when you take a shower at someone else's house - something that normally feels both secure and intimate becomes strange and unfamiliar.
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I found a poem a few years back that describes the feeling perfectly:



"After Music"

I saw not they were strange, the ways I roam,
Until the music called, and called me thence,
And tears stirred in my heart as tears may come
To lonely children straying far from home,
Who know not how they wandered so, nor whence.
If I might follow far and far away
Unto the country where these songs abide,
I think my soul would wake and find it day,
Would tell me who I am, and why I stray,--
Would tell me who I was before I died.
- Josephine Preston Peabody (1874-1922)

reply to post by azurecara

The only home I want to go back to is the country! Nature to the max!!!

Not sure if you are referring to earthly homes, but since I was about 8 years old, I await the return of the contellation Orion every Autumn like a child looks forward to Christmas morning. I am 40 now, and to this day I still stand outside and stare up at it as though that is where home is.

Originally posted by azurecara
Have you ever been surrounded by familiar things, people or places, and suddenly had an overwhelming feeling of homesickness. However, as you are quite "at home" in your environment, it makes no sense whatsoever?

I've tried to examine this feeling (that comes and goes at random moments), when I'm having it. I feel this huge surge of longing for "home". This has happened when I'm actually At home, or in a place that is homey to me. (If you follow).

Maybe because this reality is warped, and 'home' to you is a reality that isn't.

I have felt the same way myself, starting from a very young age. Even when I was 'most happy' with how my life was going and where I was, I would still get these inexplicable feelings of homesickness. At those times, I would always think to myself, I am home! I'm surrounded by my best friends and family, why in the heck should I feel this way? The closest I could ever come to feeling "almost home" was when I lived in the south. Anybody who's ever lived down in the Gulf Coast area (New Orleans, pre Katrina, included) knows what I'm talking about, the flavor of the people was definitely more caring towards your fellow man, but even that still didn't feel right, like I was close but still not there yet, and I would still more then anything want to go home.

I don't know what it means, but maybe it's like Enteri said above, that we're just remembering our Akashic Records, that we did come from a 'better place', and that we did all this to sprint to the finish line of Soul Ascension (seems crazy we would choose this huh? But we did, lol). I just try to roll with it, tell myself that I will find home, and when I do it'll be the greatest place on Earth! Until then, I guess I'll just have to hold it in my heart.