Hello, people! I'm sorry I didn't have time to introduce myself (yet)... I discovered this forum some few weeks back, looking for answers, and I was
relieved when I saw this thread a day or two ago...
On the 10th of March, as soon as I woke up I think, I got this ''feeling'' inside of me. A feeling of intensity I never had before. A feeling that
something isn't right. That evening I was supposed to go to a gig with my friends, and it was fantastic, yet, this feeling kept bugging me, becoming
stronger and stronger. As soon as my friends showed up in front of the club where the gig was to be held, I told them, half-jokingly, that ''I feel
some huge s**t is about to happen'', and that I'm unable to identify whether it's something about me, my family or friends, or something much
greater, linked to the world itself. They all laughed and said something like ''aaah, you and your bad feelings'', and so on, so I ended up
attributing the feeling in question to a very bad case of PMS (which I thought came a bit too early in comparison to the preceeding months, but, hey,
I had to try and explain things rationally first
), and tried to enjoy the show. The ''feeling'' stuck, nevertheless. I was so afraid that
someone I know is going to die or become terminally ill, or something like that, yet at the same time, it was something greater... Some kind of a huge
imbalance somewhere in the universe, in reality, or in myself, or all three, I wasn't able to tell. And in the morning the following day I heard
about the earthquake. Of course, nobody believes me that my ''feeling'' was caused by this, apart from a friend who's into spiritual healing and
energies and stuff, and he said to me a couple of years ago that I am able to sense some ''things'' since I am ''extrasens'', extrasensitive
that is. He said that sensitive people from all over the world are/were able to feel this. And he said that he himself couldn't feel it!
I keep having this feeling ever since, it hasn't ceased. It's something completely out of my hands, something which is so much larger than me. It's
as if the reality itself has been transformed so much, that I feel as if I'm not living in the same town anymore. It IS the same town, but it's not
the SAME. And even though some nice things have happened to me lately, I cannot describe how much this feeling still bugs me, like a dark cloud
hanging over my head constantly. My mom says I'm making stuff up to keep myself feeling bad, and yes, I am prone to depression and I'm constantly
dissatisfied, but this feeling has nothing to do with depression, let alone a petty thing as a personal depression. Too me it's more a bad feeling
than good, all this incertitude and suspense is really bothering me, and I cannot function normally since I'm unable to shake it off. Whatever it is
that's coming, it's only just begun, it's still far from it's finishing point.