The Search and Symptoms That Led Me to the Fragile Earth Thread: Accepting My Place (Earth's Change

Something changed very soon after the New Year. I set out on a quest for understanding. I have done this a few times before, but never like this. The last time I came close was in my early twenties (being set free of the Pentecostal religion I was raised in believing in)

I was being driven. With the spring semester, I had just started a moral philosophy class and attributed my newfound passion to that. I was studying Bentham and Kant and began arguing with my professor on various things; mostly that moral philosophy should be interdisciplinary; that it should be united with science and cultural studies. What is wrong with holism? I kept demanding...

I had somehow come upon a documentary called Death By Design, which covers a host of the mysteries that surround cellular biology. It perfectly showcased that the cells in our body work as a vast social construct that interact via signals. Did you know that if you isolate a cell, it dies? That it literally depends on signals from other cells to live? Anyhow, if our cells are programmed and dependent on signals, wouldn’t the organism, as a whole, be programmed and dependent on signals? Wouldn’t this be how we function? Wouldn’t this be going on at all levels in the universe? And how do all these signals work? Electrically. Electrons are the only things that are moving around freely out there. They control the transfer of energy. But that’s NOT how the universe works, right? Turns out, maybe more so than I thought (though that is a whole other subject) I was led to research astronomy.

My line of thinking brought me to ontological studies. I started to move away from moral philosophy and more in to the age old questions - Why are we here? What is our purpose? Etc. Thankfully my professor humored me, it was a heated correspondence. I researched endlessly on consciousness and reality. I started reading Einstein, Sagan, Hawking and watching every science documentary on Netflix Instant. I was on fire. I was totally possessed.

I remember the exact moment I realized I had been looking at everything from the wrong perspective. It was a very vivid dream. I was writing to my professor, trying to explain something, when I must have fallen asleep at my desk. In my dream, I saw the Earth. “A-hem” she said and winked at me seductively. She then danced toward me, batting her eyelashes. “What do I have to do to make you pay attention to ME?” she asked. I woke up and it hit me.

Whatever part I play in the universe, it is by extension, through her. My purpose is her. Whatever part of consciousness I am privy to, it’s only because she showed it to me. I am designed by her - for her. Everything about us that is biological is derived from the Earth. Why would consciousness be any different? Our bodies were designed to posses the awareness we do. Mother Nature shaped our cognitive ability. I am becoming increasingly convinced that she possesses her own awareness. And while not like ours, it must ultimately be more sophisticated.

Why do we remove ourselves from Earth when seeking understanding of ourselves? ( watch DIRT! The Movie) I have always loved and respected the Earth. But still, I have been guilty of seeing myself as separate and more important. Why do we act as if we are the end all be all when we know we are not? Reminds me of a recent quote I heard –

“The one thing that the fish can’t see, is the water they’re swimming in…

I delved in to studying the Earth. I researched religions and philosophies that were Earth centered. It didn’t take long to really see she was ready for a change. Reminded me of a documentary I had seen during my first quest for knowledge, it was based on a Hopi Indian prophecy. Koyaanisqatsi. And where do we fit in? Are we to blame? Or are we integral to the Earth thriving? I don’t know. We are probably both of those things to varying degrees. As Billy Joel said, “We didn't start the fire - it was always burning since the world's been turning”

I keep thinking back to the cell documentary. Cells are overproduced then; the extraneous cells are programmed to die off. This is how an organism is shaped. This is programmed cell death This is why/how we have hands the way we do, for instance.

My journey seems to have come to a head with the realization that the Earth is ready to go through a metamorphosis (and her inhabitants by extension will evolve) and that it is already well underway. It seemed to me that starting New Years Eve ( 2010 New Year's Eve Tornado Outbreak ) natural disasters were happening more frequently. I know this is currently being debated here.

I started to obsess over solar and earthquake activity. Not really motivated by fear, but by wonder and fascination. At the beginning of March, my intuition kicked in to its highest gear. I joined this message board, specifically the Fragile Earth forum, because of it. It was the perfect place to keep an eye on everything. Like so many others here, I sensed something big coming, I even experienced physical symptoms; headaches, earaches, nausea, heart palpitations, ringing in the ears, etc., and it all seemed to culminate with the earthquake in Japan. But I don’t think that was it. I feel the pressure mounting again. Another climax to be reached. I believe the earthquake is a part of a much bigger process that isn’t quite finished yet.

So I have tried to prepare somewhat, but I don’t know what is coming or where It’s coming next. But I believe that I was led to this awareness with a purpose. I am still searching and have learned a lot on the way. I am also on edge, waiting, wishing I could look away. I know it’s not exactly healthy. But I just can’t look away. The Earth tells me to tend to my garden this spring as usual ( very useful tips here ) but I’m still fearful that something’s coming….

Thank you to everyone who contributes to this forum. I have learned so much from all of you. I hope this isn’t too abstract. I don’t claim to know anything definitive, so I certainly don’t mean to offend anyone. Just thinking is all...

ah, the quest for truth is an exciting one eh?

sounds like you've had an exhilarating ride so far....ontology huh. does that in fact recapitulate phylogeny?

j/k

best of luck!!

Interesting idea. A slight variation might be that we are the "seeds" of Earth, granted intelligence and awareness to eventually develop space flight and terra-forming.

A little bit sci-fi-y but it is possible that some day, this will be a theory to consider seriously.
Especially if there are other life forms on other planets with a different form of biology.