posted on Jan, 16 2011 @ 09:54 PM
Awhile back I made mention of the fact that I normally write in free verse. I also said I might, one day, share a bit of if with the ATS community.
Well... A few minutes ago the urge to write took me and I jotted the following down. I can't really call what I do work, in any real sense, as the
words usually just kind of fall out of me. So, here's a glimpse inside my mind and whatever it does when I'm not paying attention.
Momentary Freedom
something stirs, and shocks me
the stillness of the night is broken
and, for a moment, I am brought back from my thoughts.
this is my world
this is my place
the land without light
the cold and quiet realm of nightime
the only caress that truly reaches me
soon it passes
this distraction
and I fall back to my wakeful dreaming
I am many things
to many people
the implied labels hanging like frayed bumper stickers
on the tattered form of my soul
some of these labels bring me pride
others have left scars
but they are mine
most deserved
some distressing
all valid in a certain light
maybe this is why I prefer the night
it strips the words away
the darkness hides the scars
and the words that carved them
gone... all gone and even the glare of the moon
cannot bring my gaze to them
here I am who I am
here I exist on my own terms
and terminology
here I know the truth of myself
and am freed by it
no expectation
no judgment
just the perfection of my imperfected self
even my own delusions waver
because the darkness never lies
it's too stark and honest for that
deprivation is the ultimate truth
still the senses
and the mind resolves
it sees
i see
and I am renewed
until something else from without my world
stirs
and shocks me back once again
~Heff