SkinRipper here.

I have read many of the pages of ATS since this site hit my radar a few weeks ago.

Well, I am here to give my perspective on subjects that I may not be an expert on but have a unique view.
By Unique view I mean I have a Medical diagnosis that is often seen in the Movies and on Tabloid newspapers horrifying the country and the people.

I have officially been diagnosed as a textbook Psychopath. It is classed as a personality disorder or antisocial personality disorder, but I do not agree with that. I have never committed a crime that I have been convicted of in a court of law but did do something a few years back that warranted me being evaluated for 30 days. I have officially been declared a Psychopath but not a danger to people. Anywya, until I commit a crime am no different to anyone else in the eyes of the LAW.

I am a self aware Psychopath and I consciously know what I am. I have absolutely no empathy towards people. I have read many things on ATS about the condition and much of what I read has no baring on people like me.

I work for a living and in fact I am an Operations Director for an MNC that is listed. I am in my early 30's and I am married.

One thing I think is very untrue si that Psychopaths are incapable of love. I love my wife as much as the next person loves their wife. As love is not something you can really quantify I have no reason to be doubted. I love my wife to the same point as the man in the next room. However, when I say I would kill for her, my words mean what they say.

I am very logical as I base non of my decisions on feeling or emotion, although it does not mean that every decision I make will be right. It means that I do more that others offer a view with pure logic (My logic that is).

It good to be here behind the screen as I would not so readily talk to people about myself for many reasons, among those reason is that society is conditioned to fear people like me. However, in the boardroom and in society there are more of me than you can imagine. And Yes it is true. It takes one to spot one.

When I hot the mandatory 20 posts I will begin a topic where people can discuss Psychopathy and the people they are, with all opinions and views being discussed. I want to see how people view us and if they would knowingly befriend someone who has the condition.

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Many thanks for the information which I shall read tonight.

glad to be a part of the site.

Welcome to the nut house!!
I am looking forward to your thread when you are allowed to post. It will be interesting. I have lots to ask and would e a perspective on somethings.
Do you have any problem in fitting into society?

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thank you MR Manipulator,

I do not have a problem fitting in. I am very well employed, I am married and I have a fairly good social life. However, I am often withholding my thoughts and opinions in a wide array of topics. I do not hold any connection to my friends and therefore I consider myself stronger than normal as I can simply walk away without being hurt. My friends are more for intellectual stimulation as I am an avid reader.

Does anyone really fit in? I ask you - Do you fit in with everybody? I doubt it. Most of you choose like minded people to interact with. As do I, believe it or not. I mix with people who are of similar disposition. They might not know ti or might not have it medically ingrained in their records but they are predators of some kind.

I do not conform to society, which is why ATS drew me. Who wants to conform anyway. To each their own. Survival is not about fitting in. It about being aware of the pitfalls and avoiding them. At all costs. That to me is not what society want for each other.

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From one newbie to another, welcome SkinRipper! from what you described it sounds more like sociopath. But only you truly know what's in your heart. Everyone has unlimited untapped potential. Maybe you just need to find your passion, ie- a hobby, interest, project, etc. Peace, Brother RainDog

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No disrespect, but I believe you are probably no where near as 'insane' as you think.

Half of what you describe are the character traits of certain astrological signs....

even what you said about not having a connection to your friends, people can get that way just from being betrayed or having their trust broken enough times, they don't allow themselves to get attached to people any more...

I don't know but I'd probably want a second opinion if it were me in your position.

Peace,
-B.M

Originally posted by B.Morrison
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No disrespect, but I believe you are probably no where near as 'insane' as you think.

Half of what you describe are the character traits of certain astrological signs....

even what you said about not having a connection to your friends, people can get that way just from being betrayed or having their trust broken enough times, they don't allow themselves to get attached to people any more...

I don't know but I'd probably want a second opinion if it were me in your position.

Peace,
-B.M

edit on 31/12/10 by B.Morrison because: (no reason given)

I have been seen my multiple doctors who deal with this. I lack any empathy toward people. During my evaluation period I did the 105 slide show and question test. Hooked up to the machine for analysis of my brain activity.

I was shown pics of people who have gone through what people call distressing situations. Hurricane Katrina, rape, torture and the like. I was presented with situations that the response from the brain can not be cheated. My brain does not function like a “normal” persons. I showed no activity in the regions that harbor emotion, empathy and compassion.

In one video I was show a Nanny dropping and kicking a 18 month old baby. My brain did not register any form of empathy or shock. My brain processes info differently to normal people.

I am NOT insane. That is another kettle of fish.

I lack all empathy and compassion toward the human being. In fact my brain registers lots of activity in parts that offer deception, aggressive behaviour pointers indicating that I do not value any form of human life.

I only do things to please myself. I will destroy lives to get to where I need, and I do not respond to emotion pleading. I lack emotional intelligence apparently.

I was proven to show no feeling towards fellow man and personally I do not recognize a human as anything above an animal.

Though I do not nor have I mistreated an animal, I do not care nor feel anything to their suffering. I do not see animal testing, for example as a bad thing or a good thing, just something that is done. A means to an end.

In my opinion, I am not a violent Psychopath as I have not demonstrated violence under the rule of the law as I have never been convicted of any offense toward a human. However, It may be because I have not been placed in that situation yet. All Psychopaths are considered violent to some degree, but that can only be proven if caught doing something that is deemed violent. Do I have the capability of violence. Don't we all?

I registered as
Cold and unemotional and have NO guilt or remorse towards my actions.
I am self important and regard others as object for manipulation and for my benefit.

I am but me.

This is what a Psychopath is. Sociopathy is different and if anything a minor personality disorder .


I thank you for your post B morrison. All comments are nice.

No cat avatars.

Only the elite on the site can use cat avatars.

Other then that welcome.

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Thank you.

The Elite? You mean the rich and powerful?

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Elite not so much rich and powerful but more
of the group of persons exercising the major
share of authority or influence within a larger.

Originally posted by TheSkinRipper
Originally posted by B.Morrison
reply to post by TheSkinRipper

 

No disrespect, but I believe you are probably no where near as 'insane' as you think.

Half of what you describe are the character traits of certain astrological signs....

even what you said about not having a connection to your friends, people can get that way just from being betrayed or having their trust broken enough times, they don't allow themselves to get attached to people any more...

I don't know but I'd probably want a second opinion if it were me in your position.

Peace,
-B.M

I have been seen my multiple doctors who deal with this. I lack any empathy toward people. During my evaluation period I did the 105 slide show and question test. Hooked up to the machine for analysis of my brain activity.

I was shown pics of people who have gone through what people call distressing situations. Hurricane Katrina, rape, torture and the like. I was presented with situations that the response from the brain can not be cheated. My brain does not function like a “normal” persons. I showed no activity in the regions that harbor emotion, empathy and compassion.

In one video I was show a Nanny dropping and kicking a 18 month old baby. My brain did not register any form of empathy or shock. My brain processes info differently to normal people.

well that sounds pretty conclusive, and those responses you mention certainly aren't typical traits of astrological signs! I was way off with that one. my mistake.
and that stuff they showed you sounds awful.

I am NOT insane. That is another kettle of fish.

Ah, I apologise, that was ignorant for me to say, I meant no offence and thank you for setting me straight on the matter.

I was proven to show no feeling towards fellow man and personally I do not recognise a human as anything above an animal. Though I do not nor have I mistreated an animal, I do not care nor feel anything to their suffering. I do not see animal testing, for example as a bad thing or a good thing, just something that is done. A means to an end.

So then would you easily be able to care about the animals as objects or property? as in you wouldn't want someone to crash your car and wreck it, you wouldn't want say some colourful tropical brid to be shot because its nice to look at?

I am but me.
This is what a Psychopath is. Sociopathy is different and if anything a minor personality disorder .

Interesting. are you a spiritual person?

I thank you for your post B morrison. All comments are nice.

no worries, I'm glad I did not offend you.
come to think of it, are you a person you typically doesn't take offence to things?

-B.M

hi skinripper, cute name.

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come to think of it, are you a person you typically doesn't take offence to things?

Nice question.

I in general do not take offense however I do feel slighted by individuals. Within the work place if someone is derogatory towards me I may not take offense but recognize it as a negative aspect toward me.

This often leads me to test their resolve. If i am in a position of authority I will more than likely seek to ruin them through a variety of ways, like to use them as some sort of prey or target. Many people do this type of thing on a daily basis but I feel no guilt or remorse or anything but quiet satisfaction and a job well done. I do not do it out of revenge, but more so out of "I can" and I often find solace in the plight of my competitor.

To which, I must stress I do not do out of pleasure but because I can not stop myself from getting to see the demise of another person.

It is really difficult to explain through writing. It is the first time I have really done this type of communication and putting actions into words with reasoning is far more challenging than I first thought.

Originally posted by neonitus
hi skinripper, cute name.

It was my attempt at humor. If find it quite apt.
However, I do not rip skin of any sort.

I in general do not take offense however I do feel slighted by individuals. Within the work place if someone is derogatory towards me I may not take offense but recognize it as a negative aspect toward me.

This often leads me to test their resolve. If i am in a position of authority I will more than likely seek to ruin them through a variety of ways, like to use them as some sort of prey or target. Many people do this type of thing on a daily basis but I feel no guilt or remorse or anything but quiet satisfaction and a job well done. I do not do it out of revenge, but more so out of "I can" and I often find solace in the plight of my competitor.

To which, I must stress I do not do out of pleasure but because I can not stop myself from getting to see the demise of another person.

It is really difficult to explain through writing. It is the first time I have really done this type of communication and putting actions into words with reasoning is far more challenging than I first thought.

Who are you kidding, lol. That definitely sounds like revenge. You say you love your wife, but feel no love for human beings. Is it only the satisfaction of having a wife for compaionship or a need she fills other than love or compassion for you? You must respond to what feels good.

I'm only curious from a psychological point of view. What were your parents like?

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Who are you kidding, lol. That definitely sounds like revenge. You say you love your wife, but feel no love for human beings. Is it only the satisfaction of having a wife for compaionship or a need she fills other than love or compassion for you? You must respond to what feels good. I'm only curious from a psychological point of view. What were your parents like?

Revenge is a term used by society to single out those who wish to right a wrong. It is ok for the government or courts to hand down stupid sentences for crimes which is societies "justice" just revenge repackaged.

I not get revenge. I would of probably done something to that person in the workplace sooner or later anyway. I feed my own needs when it suits me.

In terms of love for my wife. I provide for her, I protect her from anyone who may cause her harm if need be. I do not beat her or put her down. To me that is love. to you that may just be what is expected from a human to another human. However, who is to say I do not love her more than you love your wife. You can not quantify love.

I can put it this way. I bought her a car last year in October. She asked for it and I bought it. IS that not love. I may not feel the emotion that you feeel when you hand your wife Christmas present but why does that mean you love your wife. You may "feel" all warm and fuzzy when your wife says she loves you. My wife says that to me everyday, to which I respond the same back. As long as she is happy I see that as me loving her.
I do not make her unhappy. I buy her flowers, I know that is expected of a husband and I take her out as that is also expected. I talk to her about her problems like a good husband does and I leave the house if I upset her to much to give her space. the only thing is I do not feel empathy towards her problems or her being. I do these things because it is what people do. I will protect her from others. I cut the lawn. I go shopping for groceries with her. We visit her god awful parents during the summer and I am very pleasant. That is what a husband does, so it shows I do love her. LOve to me does not have to be emotional.

If it is, I can say I love her because I do those things. You may do it because you feel like doing it. In the end we both achieve the same thing by doing the same things. Love is a feeling that you can neither prove nor disprove.

My parents are normal people. My Father is Uni professor well into his 60's and my mother is primary school teacher. I speak to them twice a year on Christmas and my Mothers birthday. I do not have any distinct connection to them beside the fact they parented me. I will attend their funerals when they die as that is what family does. Being the way I am is not the fault of the parents all the time. I have been like this forever. I was loved and cared for and not abused. I did well at school.

There is no difference between me and the next guy except the next guy bases to many of his decisions on emotion and feeling and often place others before himself. I do place others before me. I never will. I do not see the logic in that. You and me in the jungle. One piece of meat to eat between us. I will NOT share it with you. So you will cease to exist once starvation sets in. I on the other hand will sleep with a full belly. Its a matter of survival. People like me are built to survive. Even at the expense of others. That is the way it should be. Why be attached to people. I see it as a great human flaw.

I fit in by adapting.

What led you to psychological evaluation?

I wasn't implying your parents abused you. Parents can also emotionally neglect their children through a lack of compassion and indifference.

Why do you feel the need for others here to know you are a sociopath? Were you looking for commonality among strangers? You aren't face to face with anyone through your monitor. Do you inform others at the workplace or friends of your neurological difference? Or do you usually keep it to yourself?

Okay, why be attached to people? I'm still clueless as to why you have a wife? I guess there's more to you than you know.

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I was making a point about my parents that they are normal.
Plus I am not a sociopath. You can read my original post to confirm.
The reason that led to my evaluation is not in question and I will not share that
as i was proven to of used self defense but I was evaluate for the use of "excessive" force.
I was ordered by the court to a 30 day eval. After which I had no charges brought against me.

I came on here as I do not have any face or name so I am quite anonymous. ATS seemed like a place to
talk to people who are open and curious about different people.
I do not share my life with anyone who actually knows me including my wife. Here, who cares no-one knows me.
I am just a silly Username.