posted on Nov, 21 2010 @ 08:30 AM
Man, these things can be downright scary... Mine usually start the same way, that impending dread.. I used to be completely terrorised by them but
over the years I've start to just go with them, knowing they're not real, sometimes playing with the fear... I'm always without any control over
them however, but I recognise them.
The worst ones are where I'm being 'attacked' by normal everyday animals... cats, dogs, cockroaches, whatever... it's not the creature, it's the
intent in them, for some reason they just want to attack me with complete ferocity. As I can never move myself out of their way, I've started to just
let them do it... and it does seem to hurt, but there is never anything life threatening, they just grab on and bight.
A few years ago is when these paralysis events started occurring mid dream too, like I'd start to have a lucid dream, but that feeling of doom would
envelop me, and it would be debilitating in the dream...
The worst one I still recall was where I found myself in a forrest, in a clearing with sparse trees and shrubs at what appeared to be a twilight
setting. I knew something bad was coming... in the distance I saw a utility driving slowly with it's lights on, heading towards me, and in front of
it were two german shepherds. They were looking for something and it became ME as it developed. I couldn't run, so I stood behind a shrub, but I knew
my mind was not going to let them pass... the dogs came closer and almost seemed to ignore me, till suddenly that intent I sense in the things that
torment me evolved and suddenly the dogs had no snouts, as if someone had blown their faces off with a shotgun, but it didn't stop them. they came at
me, and gurgling, unable to bark, started bighting at my hands and arms, and even though they were mutilated, they just wanted to attack.
I can still feel the sensation of my fingers in their throats as they gnawed relentlessly at me, and suffice to say, it was bloody hell..
lol, I knew it was not real, and let it happen.. but sometimes when these things happen, and I come out of it into reality, I often jolt awake kicking
the walls or throwing my arms into the bedside.
the first time I ever started having sleep paralysis was when I was about 13 or so.. pretty much like your last one, I was on the lounge in the living
room and I'd been up all night so I was exhausted... I started hearing people around me, but I couldnt understand them. I just knew in my mind
someone was in the room with me, but I couldn't open my eyes.
Sometimes it feels as if there really are entities there, playing a trick.. as if Im the butt of some cosmic joke..
I've never actually seen entities however, just felt them as if they are trying to suffocate me - except when they started to become more dreamlike
- I've had some really good lucid dreams, had one last night actually and while I still cannot fly properly, it's fun to be a sort of god in your
own little strange reality... I always do crazy things knowing it's all a dream.
But yeah, the mind truly is an amazing device we have... it's just a shame that mine seems intent on torturing me lol, but I'll have the last
laugh.. when I stop fighting it and let it try it's best..
Still, the bad ones can really affect you hours after waking up. It's the feeling of it being so real, the way you're conscious enough to know it's
a dream, yet paralyzed throughout it.