posted on Nov, 14 2010 @ 02:44 PM
I had hoped to hear somebody else describe something similar before I gave too many details, as that would have been relevant in any number of ways to
a theory I am working on now after the experience. However since that isn't looking like it will happen very easily, I guess I'll just set that part
aside for the moment.
Anyway, what I experienced is what I am just calling an unusually "big picture" oriented perspective. I can see how, in the excitement of the moment
at least, some people I know might have described it as a brush with enlightenment or a revelation, but I don't know about that. I'm content just to
say that I had a better insight on things than I've ever had before.
It started out as just a very good day- the kind of enjoyably productive day that was pretty much normal for me before 2008, but has almost vanished
from my life since. I got good work done easily, made someone who didn't get through the day as easily feel better (again quite easily with no stress
for me), gave some decent advice, then went home to clean myself off and relax. That's how I ended up on the back porch with my MP3 player and a
cigarette and nothing urgent on my mind. This is about as good as it gets for me, and the state in which many of my best ideas are conceived.
So I began to play with the various ideas that have been rattling around in my mind lately- debate topics, recent conversations, new people I've met,
scientific theories I don't really understand, the police chase I watched from a hill the other day- and of course my own problems and impending
decisions- those do still exist and do tend to intrude on my peaceful thought after 30-60 minutes usually.
It is normal in this state for me to eventually find an angle on one of the many things that goes through my head, and then pursue it all the way to
its end, or as far as I can take it, and then to either veer off into my problems or to search for a new thought to pursue to a new end... in either
case causing my thought process to begin declining from its peak, until I either decide to go to bed or decide to get on ATS and try to explain
everything- usually resulting in an unsuccessful post that I never actually submit to the boards, but just backspace out of existence before retiring
to bed.
That did not happen last night. I did not follow one thought entirely too far and derail quickly. Every little thing that began a thought, I took to
was able to quickly find some meaning in, and connect both to other thoughts and a central theme. Everything seemed to operate on a single principle,
and relate to everything else in a way that reflects other relationships. Math did not seem so different from language, society did not seem different
from astronomy or even astrology. Everything just made a lot of sense. And from these abstract ideas I derived a few solutions to minor problems and
perhaps the very nature of some larger problems, along with a clearer understanding of just how those larger problems can be appropriately dealt with
even though they are not solvable per se. It also seemed as if many of the days prior events, including some that were fairly unlikely, occurred only
because they necessary to the completion of this unexpected mental exploration of the universe that I later went on.
I would not go so far as to say that everything that I came up with was true, and even if it were that would not be the most relevant part of the
experience in my mind, because if the model I came up with is correct, you really can't spread the idea to any effect (and if you could, it would
likely be a disaster, for reasons I won't bother going into).
What made the experience remarkable to me was that for reasons that I don't fully understand, but which seemed to involve some synchronicity, my mind
radically shifted gears on me. My consciousness seemed stronger, faster, more meaningful, and more enjoyable than I can specifically recall it ever
being, and I believe that a portion, but not all of it, can be retained and used to do a better job with my life.