Good on you for quitting.
You're not trying to quit. You've done that. Now the only way is forward.
I'll mention a couple or six things. I quit in the summer the year before last. Did great. We were out in the country and so I just took walks in the
forest. Lots of walks. Lonnnng walks.
Got to ten days without a cigarette, and then I did the thing that you absolutely mustn't do. It was evening and I'd been busy on stuff all day and I
thought, "Hey, I can have just one as a little reward for doing so well." So yeah, I had just one and that was that -- or so I thought.
I was dumb... A non-smoker doesn't
want a cigarette as a reward for anything. They'd rather drink a glass of drain cleaner. I'd let my
"non-smoker mentality" slip.
The next day I had two and my non-smoker mentality was obviously starting to crumble. The day after -- six. The day after that I was just about in
tears as in the morning I "had to" go down the road to the shop to buy a fresh pack, hating myself for failing again.
Looking back on it now, it wasn't really a failure. It was a lesson learned. I'm going to try again and next time I know that after I've started my
first day as a non-smoker I have to stay that way and never,
ever have one again, because
non-smokers loathe cigarettes.
Now, this might sound odd, but don't be afraid to be a non-smoker again. We're all born non-smokers, after all. Don't fear it. I realize now that in
some weird way, I feared it.
And yes -- sunflower seeds help. There's something in them that aids in taking away the craving or heebie jeebies or what have you.
Stick to it, you non-smoking person, you. Darn it I envy you your clean-smelling clothes and breath. I want to do what you're doing soon as I can
muster my nerve for it again and not be afraid of going through all that. Take a little pity on us who are still trapped in this filthy weed's
stinking snare. You're a non-smoker and now you can see how horrible a life we really have.
You've succeeded and now you can begin to help us out... In fact, you've already started.
Mike
edit on 27/10/10 by JustMike because: Typos. Two of 'em.