I've taken some time today to just meditate on this anxiety we're all feeling, and what I realized is that I've felt more in control until now over
my own life, and people altogether have felt quite in control over their future so far just because the world has been somewhat more stable. I mean,
you could think about having a family, growing old, saving money for your kids' college and whatnot, whereas these days, you can barely think/plan
ahead for the next days, weeks of your life. The world seems very unstable in all possible ways, and the fact that the internet allows you to find out
instantly about everything going wrong in this world only takes away from us our security more and more. We're not so much in control anymore, and
something bigger than us is more in charge over the outcome of our lives, our kids' lives and so on. We're not used to getting bombarded with so
many ' world ending' scenarios at this rate, as nowadays, at such wide spread levels, and of course it's shredding our ego apart, and building up
more and more anxiety.
What we do have control over still is our reactions, feelings, and that is something not anything in this world can take away from us. It's not easy
to come to terms with such world wide negative scenarios, and it's not something we've been trained in any way to handle, so of course it scares the
hell out of us, and makes us feel like something big is coming. And something big really is coming: our ego is getting shredded to pieces, and we'll
have to face our 'naked' selves and handle that. That's huge. It doesn't sound like it, but such fundamental changes to our very core are a real
big thing, and a lot of stress.
I know this is nothing new, and I'm not saying anything that most of us haven't thought about, but I truly feel that this big thing we're all
anxious about is very much internal before anything else. It's about us confronting our biggest fears, fundamentally changing our selves, our
emotions, and taking a new form of control over our lives. That's something that you can;t learn from anyone else but yourself, and you're bound to
fail a few times before you get it right. Nothing wrong with that, if we insist we might be in full control again, and that can probably be the best
thing that could happen to us. Under intense amounts of pressure we might escape our conditioning, and come to terms with our real selves.
Putting ideas together in writing isn't my strongest attribute, so I'm not sure how much I managed to say what I really meant to say, but ultimately
what I'm trying to say is that I truly think that there is a reason why this build-up of anxiety is happening, and it;s mostly to crack open our very
well built old shells, and make room for new individual ones, that will expose our real actual selves. I'm starting to embrace all these feelings,
good or bad, as I'm sure they got a very well meant purpose. I'm thinking we might really be ok, actually, I'm thinking we might be great because
of this. It's ultimately what matters most in this lifetime, and I welcome the changes, as long as they bring the best out of me. Not an easy thing
to do, but well worth it, and I'm happy to be in this together with people like you. So let's stop worrying people about world ending scenarios and
let's only worry about our own very much needed transformation. I think that;s the really big event we're all expecting. Let's not delay it any
more!
@StarrGazer25: Thanks a lot for the very kind words, even if you're a stranger an ocean away, it really means a lot, and I'd love to be there for
you as well if you ever need a friend. I find it so hard these days to find truly nice caring people, it;'s rly nice to find someone who can give me
back some of my faith in humanity back. So thanks for that. I;m rly sorry to hear about your loss, and I;m sending you a big hug. I'm 22 and haven't
had the easiest of lives either, but I've learned to understand that everything really does happen for a reason, and as long as we come out of it as
better stronger people, we should be very proud of ourselves, and thankful to those who helped us. I have reasons to think that everything really is
interconnected and we all help each other here, and we have very well appointed roles to push each other in specific directions. Even if they're
evil, or simply not among us anymore, or whatever, I think we owe these people who have helped us along the way to give it our best shot at making the
most of it, growing into exemplary individuals and helping others around just as much.I wish we could talk more in private messages, but I don't have
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