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My Experience:
For me, I got the realization about a week or two ago although it started quite a while before that. It was about a month ago when it occurred to me that the world may be approaching its end or at least my end. If I'm here for a reason (I believe I am a Wanderer) then I need to discover what that reason is.
When you look around at other people doing it like Buddhists for example, it can take them years of meditation if not their entire lives. I don't have years, so I needed a shortcut. I "prayed" (stated something and expected a result) about this and got an answer. It was "lose all identity with yourself and the world around you".
So I figured out a way to do this that goes against forum rules haha, and I was depressed because of it for about a month afterwards. I had no clue who I was and although I cared about people, I no longer loved them. I hated everyone and everything equally.
One night, I was watching "The Girl Next Door" and it taught me how to love again haha. I turned off the TV afterwards, sitting in the dark in silence reflecting, and my pineal gland opened. The experience was that of a pressure pushing out on my forehead almost as if it was a headache but there was no pain. It was just a state of bliss where I couldn't stop smiling if I wanted to and it made it difficult to go to sleep. During this time I was having all sorts of epiphanies.
Anyway, later I realized that I've been participating in other people's lives more than I have my own. I'm always trying to help them with something and in more cases or not, it's been in figuring out who they were and who they weren't. Life to me was just a temporary experience that will pass and without other people, there was no point in me being here at all. With all of that together, I realized that I'm being "God".
Ever since that point, my realizations about life have been 10 fold what they were before. I see the world in a different light, no more right or wrong, just experiences. Quite simply, the perception change was probably the best thing that's ever happened to me.
Originally posted by Jwest06
Empathy comes naturally for something that's supposed to be "imagined". I was minding my own business when I saw that some little kid had lost a parent. Did I immediately have to realize what it would feel like to lose one of my own? Wouldn't it be easier to say I'm sorry for your loss and think nothing more of it? So why is it so complicated to be so simple? We "purposely" take the hard route.
“I… I died?”
“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.
You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”
“More or less,” I said.
“Are you god?” You asked.
“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”
“My kids… my wife,” you said.
“What about them?”
“Will they be all right?”
“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”
Anyway, later I realized that I've been participating in other people's lives more than I have my own. I'm always trying to help them with something and in more cases or not, it's been in figuring out who they were and who they weren't. Life to me was just a temporary experience that will pass and without other people, there was no point in me being here at all. With all of that together, I realized that I'm being "God".