Subconscious God

*I wasn't sure if I should put this in religion or psychology section.*

Yesterday I had a horrible day. I woke up late due to an alarm not doing what it was supposed to, and it subsequently made me late, and pretty mad.

As I woke up I found myself cursing God. why would god *snip* me over like this? I had the alarm set, it was set right. the times were right, why the *snip* didn't it work.

As I stumbled out of bed and downstairs to be even more mad that the coffee maker didn't brew my coffee. it appeared to me that God was against me.

I felt rushed and running out of time so I jumped into my vehicle and drove as fast as I could to get to work.

As I approached work, less than 1 mile away now, I ran over a squirrel, and found myself cursing at god even more.

I felt disgusted I had just ran over a creature for no reason other than being in a hurry to get to somehwere where being on time wasn't even important, well not important enough to end a living creatures life.

I realized after arriving at work that I was an asshole. and I realized all that cursing at God was directed at me.

And it dawned on me, the majority of the time I curse, or question, or ask God for anything, I am talking to myself. I was mad at myself. I need enlightenment from myself.

Is that it? are we, or our subconscious the true God?

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[edit on 7/4/2010 by maria_stardust]


edit: sorry about that, I wrote in wordpad and thought I edited before I posted.

[edit on 4-7-2010 by Myendica]

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Interesting thread!

I would like to make a small comment on it. Try to imagine your day without God, as if you never heard of him. Try reviewing your day then. I think things would make more natural sense and that all of your problems did indeed come from your own mind.

I would to hear other people's opinions though! I am always opened to be changed.

Kind regards

I'd say you had an epiphany. Human nature always looks for an external entity/source to blame for all the perceived wrongs inflicted on itself. You had a major breakthrough in that you recognized that directing your anger outwards was pointless, and misdirected. Congratulations.

Personally, I'd say there was really no one to blame for the events of the day aside from chance. Once you allowed yourself to become angry the anger set the pace for the rest of the day. You created your own day.

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I definately did have an epiphany.

although it isn't the first time I had a conversation with God, and at the same time was experiencing self awareness.

I went to 12 years of Catholic school only to fail religion class every year.

my beliefs in God are completely different than what they tried to teach me.

I do believe "God" is the deepest parts of your mind.

maybe I'm the only one who feels it. And it isn't easy to describe.

Thank you for your input.

reply to post by Myendica


We are God in the form of humans. Everything is created by the one principle of life, to which everything is an image or lower soul of that supreme principle. This means we have a connection to that supreme source and can experience at any moment in meditation.

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see my motto in the top left corner of my profile, we create our own destiny. I believe it's true! I use to find myself doing the same thing, and then I realized if you want something in life you have to set your mind to it and do it. Your not gonna get things handed to you on a silver platter, you have to set your mind to it and never give up on it!




just my two cents anyway




In the same sense you created your own day, but yes i'd say you had an epiphany congratulations!



[edit on 4-7-2010 by XxRagingxPandaxX]

I'd have to day yes.

Apotheosis

The ancient promise

'ye are gods en potentia'

=]

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good motto.
I believe my path is right, unfortunately i rely on too many exterior factors in order to have 100% control of this destiny. e.g. pos alarm clock.

I often whisper to myself what time I want to wake up, and I tend to wake up before the alarm, but we have the comfort of things doing things for us we let our guard down.

reply to post by Myendica
Ya life is gonna throw curve balls, but it's how you deal and handle them that counts, you have to make the best of them, learn something from them! For example you probably could have saved time by not trying to make coffee!

A few years ago I should have died in a car accident.

I took the same route all the time. never once thought of deviating.

On one particular day I felt overwhelming urges to turn and take a different route. I failed to follow whatever driving force it was that was tempting me off course.

I was turning at my normal road and was struck by a vehicle approached 80 mphs, head on.

I used to think something outside my presence was guiding me to turn, but I'm starting to believe it was my subconscious being aware of the future disaster that was to effect me in the near future.

Yep, you had an epiphany. In every moment we have a choice as to what we have reflected back to us on the physical plane. Although it is not easy to remember at times like these, there is a worthwhile technique you might like to try next time you experience the first in the chain of events you have described. Place your hand on your heart, breathe in deeply, visualizing a feeling of peace and tranquility entering the area under your hand with each breath. Do this a few times until you can feel this feeling in your heart. Now, from your heart (not your head), plan the rest of your day:-)

"The first peace, which is the most important, is that which comes within the souls of people when they realize their relationship, their oneness, with the universe and all its powers, and when they realize that at the center of the universe dwells Wakan-Tanka , and that this center is really everywhere, it is within each of us. "

Black Elk

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oh well I didn't make the coffee. The lack of coffee just added to the annoyance.

But you are right. We aren't going anywhere. It wasn't an emergency. I should be conscious of the subconscious and to be patient.

reply to post by Myendica
over all very good thread, I did S&F it and I am very happy for you that this epiphany happened to you



peace

well thank you all for your input.

I do believe it was more than just an epiphany, but for now I can only learn from the experience and hope that whoever reads this will know to take their time when things start to go inconveniently wrong.

Originally posted by Myendica


I realized after arriving at work that I was an asshole. and I realized all that cursing at God was directed at me.

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Wow what a relief! I though you were going to say that when you got to work you were stuck by lightning or run over by a truck in the parking lot!

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I'm not sure really how to take your comment, but I suppose I'm lucky I didn't get hit by a truck.

I will tell you after spending the following 6 hours at work, I didn't really start to feel less annoyed.

Even though I had already had this epiphany, I still couldn't shake the inconvenience of the day. It persisted until I went to sleep last night.

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Oh just a litle Far Side dark comedy. like..."And just as Bill was about to come his own epiphany, God struck Bills ass with a bolt of lightning"....

I would say that you were stateing that all the bad things and things going wrong or things you were mad at you were really directing them at yourself.
I ask you this
What about the things you were grateful for, did you thank yourself? see that sounds funny huh?

One way this story could have been better,
Is when you got to work, you realized it was Sunday,
you didn't have to work, that's why the alarm clock was off,
and really you just woke up mad so you could run over that squirrel.

Ok, maybe not better, but ... funnier?


David Grouchy