posted on Jun, 4 2010 @ 10:27 AM
First of all, English isn't my native language, so please excuse any mistakes.
I am a 16 year old boy from India. I have sometimes visisted ATS in past but never paid serious attention. But from 15-20 days, I visit this site
regularly, nearly 2-3 times a day. I have found this to be very interesting site, and it's my main source of news now. I don't really watch TV news
and there isn't much in newspaper. This 2012 thing is my main interest in visisting this site.
First of all I would like to give a certain introduction of how I became interested in this conspiracy thing. I will tell you that I was a different
type of child. I would always question things that everyone accepted as norm, and I didn't quite liked the "system". I tried to be different from
everyone else. I thought religion to be stupid(I still believe so). There maybe a God, I agree, but my image of God is vastly different from others. I
remember a poem I read that told to be the hero and not the "blind cattle" which can be led anywhere. It made some impact on me.
The first "conspiracy" type book I read was "Earth's Forbidden Secret" by Maxwell Igan. Then I began to see everything with a different point of
view. It's a good book and many things made sense. Then I really began to understand what "There's more to world than meets the eye" meant. Then I
read a book by Mary Elizabeth named "Spiritual Economics". I will tell you that I was 14 years old at that time and didn't grasped everything. But
the most important thing that I grasped was the "magic" by which bank created money. This topic seized me. I tried to discuss this thing with my
sister because she was studying business and economics. But she is more interested in what goes in the lfe of fictional characters in tv than real
world. I researched more on this "Money as Debt" thing and ended up watching "Money as Debt" movie. It cleared the doubt and I was astonished that
the elites were able to pull this idea and nobody complained. I discussed it with my father, who is a banker, and he told me that it's true that he
gives out loan but doesn't know that where the money comes from.
I was inetersted for some time, but there was nothing more I could do, so it was all OK. But recently I came across the book "The Biggest Secret" by
David Icke. This book blew my mind. All that reptillian stuff. Can it be possible? I don't know. Then I looked at the contents of book. And I spotted
that bank thing. So, what I think is when he is telling truth about one thing, why would he lie about the other? Then I downloaded a collection of 56
books of David Icke and am currently reading "...And the truth shall set you free." The thing about David is that he provides many sources and
persents matter in detail. the only problem is that he repeats stuff many times, which gets annoying.
The problem is that currently I have passed high school(btw I got 95% in exams). Now I have to prepare for an exam called IIT-JEE, which is arguable
the toughest entrance examination in the world. And I have to give the exam in 2012. And it require self-study of 5-6 hours a day from my part. But
all this 2012 stuff has tensed me. On one hand I think that what's the point of studying so much if the world is gonna end. Then on other hand I
think what if nothing happens? Then if I don't prepare well, it will be a burden I will carry for the whole life. No point in talking to my family. I
say all thing, and give them many evidence, but they refuse to see past what is supposed to be seen. They just won't believe what this world really
is. They think that I should keep away from Internet, this stuff is making me crazy according to them. They think I should only focus on study.
So, this is my condition. First time ever I have written a post, and that also a long one. Please give some advice on what I shoudl do. And please
don't tell me you are a child and so young to worry, etc. Discrimination is a bad thing and accordi