Think im going crazy :)

Ok.. this is probably gonna be long and confusing, so bear with me (or dont, its up to you)

Here goes.

On Thursday I graduated from high school.. Everything was fine and going good, even up through me walking across the stage.

I was still thinking "Ok, im probably gonna cry and hug everyone at the end" and all that.

However, right after I got my diploma, something in my head changed.

I didnt stay around to tell anyone bye, I just went to the car.

Didnt tear up or anything.

I drove past everyone being emotional, and just headed home.

I was supposed to go to an all night party with everyone I know to celebrate graduating.. Had been planning it for weeks, maybe even months (it was a free thing that the school put on to keep kids from getting drunk). Instead, I just got ready for bed. I layed there for about 3 hours, not really thinking of anything, but just staring at my darkened room.

Whenever I woke up, I felt totally wrong. I just felt like something had gone awry in my head.. I didnt want to see any of my friends, I didnt want any of my gifts (I was gonna send them back, but my mom wouldnt let me), I just wanted to sleep, eat, and sleep. Its been 4 days now, and I havent talked to any of my friends/watched any TV/been on computer very very little/havent left house at all. Ive spent most of my time using this little "animal whistle" that doesnt do anything.

So I dont really know what im asking/saying by all this, but I guess it would be most like this: Did anything like this happen to you when you graduated?

Didnt wanna see friends (didnt even really consider them friends anymore), didnt wanna do anything, didnt change your clothes, didnt shower, just layed in bed for hours at a time, waiting for the "normal time" to goto sleep.

God I feel crazy.

[Edited on 31-5-2004 by shidge.]

[Edited on 31-5-2004 by shidge.]

Wow...that sux dude. Maybe you should get youself checked out by a Shrink or something?

Originally posted by shidge.
Did anything like this happen to you when you graduated?

Oh Hell no!

I enjoyed my graduation and partied like a crazy person.

But seriously dude your story worries me.

Go see a shrink like mafia said.

Its perfectly normal, Shidge. A great part of your life for the last 10 or so years has ended. Its a shock to the system. Some people just go out, get ratarsed on beer and deal with it that way, some go away alone to think things through. One part of your life has ended and the next part is yet to start. Its a transition period but your reaction is not crazy, neither do you require the services of a 'shrink'.

I think it is normal to feel the way you do, it sounds like you are going through a loss. Which is what it is, a loss, I mean this was your reality for 4 years. Now everyone will move on and you are trying to numb yourself by watching TV and avoiding the world. I don't think it warrants a shrink, maybe take baby steps and call one friend. This is only the beginning for you and as scary as it may seem, you will only do this once in your life. So force yourself to go out, you'll see.

[Edited on 31-5-2004 by Narnia]

You guys are lucky i never graduated

Well, some other members touched on it but I'll give it a shot. I'm no psychiatrist, I'm actually only 17...but I do know some things about this kind of thing... I think you're kind of in denial. There is a part of your mind that wants it to still be highschool, so you're subconciously pretending that nothing ever happened. Like another member said, you're in shock. I hope this helped a little.

You just miss your school time. Its normal, so don't worry about it. I did the same - i'd spent years in school with friends just sitting around either in lessons or talking outside the classrooms. And suddenly its all gone. What do you do now ?
I know its a shock - it was for me. Actually, when I left school I burst into tears. It was just so much of a shock. I thought I'd never see my friends again.
Its normal - don't worry.

Definitely not going crazy, just mental intermission.

I had a similar situation after getting laid off from a company I was with for 15 years. Worked there since I was 19 and suddenly.... poof. Turned in my stuff, went home (in time for The Simpsons, at least they were efficient!) and laid on the couch for about a week. The ones who hadn't been laid off at that point called and I didn't answer. I just had nothing to say to anyone at all. Just nothing. My attitude was like "Ok, well, that'd done... ummm... huh." Zip. Finally I made myself get up and shower, dress and "get ready for work" just as I'd done for the past 15 years and instead went out and started making calls on my cell phone while cruising around. It seemed to shake me out, if you get my meaning.

I wouldn't worry about going crazy. My mom always said if you wonder about it, you're still sane. *L* Just go with it awhile and then force yourself out of the shell, even if only with one call or visit. SHORT visit.