posted on Feb, 20 2010 @ 10:43 PM
Love it, read it, learned it.
In the past I was not really used to people knowing me, or me knowing me really. I could never feel ready before. I'm going to try to talk directly
again, because I can only hold it for so long.
I allways thought I felt nothing. I rejected love, and hugs. I felt like a good person, becuase I liked to share and give, but I had very very dark
tendacies. ETs raised me through telephathic communications automaticaly. It happend so often I just didn't realise it anymore.
Eventually they told me be prepared and then let me go. Then the loud silence came, and I was being told people were not ready for me or such. And
don't run, or that I will not run or such, and that the time was right.
Ok so its hard to say. When I was able to see myself. Like under some confusing and arbitarary means. Just my desire and other people and from god.
It felt like lightning hands touched me and pulled me up and out of something. I felt like I was me again for the first time, its overwhelming. I
can't beleive it, im so lucky. The love. It feels like my soul is finally being allowed to enter my body, and its so much. How can this be. I let
go of everything that I can, the best that I can. Water fills up and starts bursting out. I saw myself it looked like pure white, like a body. All
I know is that I feel like im bubbling and bursting out and I can't hold on anymore. It feels so good. I feel like god is my father, I feel him
standing with me, because its possible becuase I stand with him. Thats who I am, thats who all of us are.
I don't know the abilities that I have, I only know what I am. Nothing can, nothing can, I can't express to you what I feel. I wish I could so
much. But I can't. All I know is I love all of you so much, and negativity seems to make this go faster, and hurt more. Feels like my heart is
exploding.
I don't think im here for the average reasons others are here. Whatever I've chosen is probably not something most would choose to do. I feel like
I really don't know the half of what im doing here, and it could be why its taken me so long to gleam any truth from that or myself. It feels like
im not suppose to know, but the ETs know. I must be on the front lines, on uncharted lands. thats my guess, and I know theres much more.
I feel god is here now with us. When I ask these questions I hear only one or two things right now. "look", "now", and "he's here"
When I asked what I do, I hear, "prove", and "I will show" I think god is going to show if I prove, thats my understanding.
Thank you.
[edit on 20-2-2010 by DarkCyrus]